Hi everyone! This is a story that's been in my head for a while. Thought I'd just share it with you. Have fun reading! Oh, and a fair warning. This is not Calzona... if you don't like the pairing, don't read it. It's not that hard.

Chapter one

Arizona's POV

You're done with Seattle. You need to be done with Seattle. Your daughter is finally here with you, but being in Seattle without her other mom is making her unhappy. And if there is one thing that you fought so hard for by letting your daughter go to New York with Callie, despite your own feelings, it's your daughter's happiness.

So you are done with Seattle. Which means that you have to leave Carina behind. Which pains you. In so many ways she's healed you. Bettered you. She healed you from Callie, and from Eliza. Those relationships were both paired with more dependency than you would like to admit. The love you had for yourself was dependent from their love for you.

Which actually made you feel like crap. Because with Callie, with all that you guys have been through, you couldn't make it work. You started hating yourself more and more. With Eliza, well. She was actually gone before you could honestly try to make it work. But the feelings were there. For the first time since Callie, the feelings were there. God you fell hard for her.

That one hurt you more than you would've thought after such a short span of time. She was proof that it was still possible. That after Callie it was still possible for you to fall head over heels for someone.

Then there is Carina. But like literally on the night that Eliza ghosted you. And she's different. It's a different kind of relationship. Maybe because it began the way it did. With sex, and with no expectations whatsoever. You never knew that it was possible to maintain a relationship without big expectations.

And now, a few months later you really haven't defined what you guys are. It's some form of a relationship, and it actually works better than you both would ever have imagined. Because you guys never expected to really end up together.

It wasn't supposed to be a thing, but it is. It's a thing. You're certain that Carina fell for you harder than she wanted. Carina isn't someone that falls.

She keeps you on your toes. She made you see that there are different types of relationships, and that you can be in control of the kind of relationship you have. She gives you control. Without giving up control over her own feelings herself.

She loves you without expectations. If it's love love? You don't know. You are sure that she loves you in some way though. And that actually is enough for you. And during these few months you've learned to love yourself again. You like the person you are around her. You like the person she is around you.

But is it enough? You're going to move to New York. That's a fact. There's only one choice to make. Is it enough to ask her to go with you? Do you want her to go with you?

You already know the answer. As much as you love Carina for all the things she brought you over the past months. It's not enough.

She doesn't make you weak in the knees in the way that you know is possible. You don't look for her all day. When you see her, it doesn't make you catch your breath. Your heart doesn't speed up the way you know it can. Your palms don't sweat like you know they can. Seeing her, talking to her and touching her. It's not all that you're thinking about.

So you're going to New York with Sofia alone.

When you call Callie she's over the moon for you to get to New York. She wants you there as soon as you can. You know it's got little to do with the fact that you're going to live in New York, but more about the fact that coparenting Sofia can be a thing again.

Everything is set up fairly quickly. For the time being you're moving in with Addison.

Yeah that's right. It is the Addison you're thinking about. The Addison Montgomery that moved to LA a few years back. Callie always stayed in touch with her good friend, and after all that happened in LA with Addison and Sam, Pete, and with her son Henry, Addison was once again looking for a clean break when she decided to move to New York after Callie and Penny did.

Addison and Callie had a good system running when Sofia still lived with Callie in New York. They both work in the same hospital and took turns in taking care of the kids.

Addison couldn't be more happy to be the mom of Henry, but at times it's difficult as a single parent. Keeping all the balls in the air at all times.

Sofia is already used to being with Addison and being in her home, so it was only natural for you to move into Addison's spare bedroom at first. Just until you're settled in New York and feel confident enough to start looking for your own place there.

You're going to need all the familiar people you can get in the beginning, just to feel at home in a strange city without your people.

You and Addison have worked together before, being in the tiny people field. You've always admired Addison. Even though she's obviously Callie's friend. Always has been, that has never meant for her to always pick Callie's side in things.

No one like Addison knows that there are always two sides to a story. Two at fault, when there is someone to blame for something.

Sofia will be with Callie half the time, and half of the time she's with you. At Addison's. You know Sofia misses Henry a lot. After all the things she's told you about the four year old, you're excited to meet him too.

You've dropped Sofia off at Callie's before you arrive at Addison's. She's made you dinner and is waiting for you with a glass of wine ready.

Her interior is just the way you expected it to be. Like she's got her life in order. It's neat, taut. There are a lot of windows, so you imagine that during the day there's a lot of light coming in. Everything seems to be thought well through and it's all oh so beautiful. Your head feels more at ease the moment you step through the door.

Her son Henry is already sleeping. You can't wait for it to be tomorrow so you can meet him. You tell her exactly that.

Being here with Addison makes this whole giving up your life in Seattle already a little better. You can't really pinpoint what makes you feel like you do right now, but it's something about her.

You're sitting on the couch together, both sipping a glass of red wine. She talking to you. You're taking it all in. Everything she's saying to you. The room you're sitting in. The way her home smells so good. The fact that she seems so together. It makes you feel more together even though your life is upside down once again.

The way she looks. You haven't really noticed before - you can't figure out why - because she's gorgeous. Drop dead gorgeous. Why didn't you notice before? Maybe it's motherhood that's made her shine.

You can see why that would be it. You know as no other how it feels to be without a child when it's not your choice.

But you shouldn't focus on that any longer. You've probably lost more than most persons. But right now you're starting over. A new city. An old friend. Your daughter and her other mother. You have all the ingredients for a happy life right there with you. Focus on it.

When you wake up you there are voices that you can't place immediately. The voice of Addison quickly becomes known to you, but the other one you can't place. It's the voice of a little boy. You step out of bed right away when your head catches up. Henry. You're going to meet Henry.

You put your leg on and get dressed as quickly as you can.

When you enter the kitchen you're greeted by the prettiest sight. Henry is sitting on a barstool eating the pancakes that are standing before him on the counter. While eating he's talking to his mother. Something that doesn't sit well with Addison.

"Henry, baby. Don't talk while you eat please," you hear her say sternly to her son. Still the love for that little boy is radiating from her whole being.

He doesn't seem to mind his mother telling him what to do. He seems to just accept what she is saying and stops talking.

That is until his eyes find yours. His blueish/grey eyes captivate your blue ones. His mouth turns into a smile that you already feel lighting up your life.

You vaguely register Addison looking at you. She's clearly happy with your facial expressions regarding her son because you see her lighting up just as hard.

"Hi Henry," you hear yourself saying.

"Hello. My mom said you were coming," he tells you bravely. Like he wants you to know that he's smart enough to remember what his mother tells him.

"Yes, is it okay with you that I'm staying here for a while Henry?" You talk to him like he's another adult that totally has a say in what happens in this household. And secretely it's important to you to know if he's okay with you being here too.

"You're Sofia's mommy right? She's here lots of times." It's his reasoning for you being here. You're okay with that.

Addison's face is telling you to come closer and to join them for breakfast.

She caresses his hair one last time before she adresses you completely.

"Did you sleep okay?"

"I did thanks. The bed is perfect and I was beat up anyway."

"I can imagine. Any plans today?"

"I have to swing by the hospital for an interview. Well not even really an interview, they just want a conversation before I start working there next week."

The hospital where Callie and Addison work was stoked to hear you wanted to work there too. It made the move a lot easier for you to know that you do have a job there.

"Are you working today?"

"I am. I'm dropping off Henry with Callie in an hour and then I'm going in. What time are you supposed to be there?"

"In two hours. Can I join you? That way I can stroll around a bit and get to know the place."

"Of course. Then you get to see Sofia shortly when I drop him off."

"Pefect."

You're not really looking forward to see Penny. You hope your face doesn't show. Focus on the good. Seeing Henry and Sofia interact for the first time. Focus on that.

A/N

Well that's it for chapter one, the beginning of this story! I already worked through another four chapters, so you should expect regular updates. The story will be around 10 chapters until it's wrapped up! If you like it, review!