Edward/Jasper, SLASH, NC-17. Don't like, fuck off.
Jasper PoV.
Spoils
I'm damaged goods; it comes with the territory.
But I'm not as fucked up as you. You make me worse.
My fingers slide under your waist, and you're begging me faster, but I just can't remember why I want this.
you'll be gone in the morning
I push a sweet finger inside, violent presses, single breaching moment, and we're deeper inside. I kind of hope if I press far enough I'll hit your heart but I can't help but wonder whether it even exists anymore. I push in a second at your demand, your happy sigh sending clasps to a dead heart.
I hate you for it but your voice always makes me –
I slide south; I can't see your face down here. I push the fingers deeper inside you and you beg to be inside me like you always do but
no, that's a privilege, and I hate you
the problem is I want it but I daren't.
You don't wait for me to come; you never do, so why would it be any different today?
I'm left lying on unsoiled sheets
we're not human, we won't ever be; there's never any evidence left behind because our rotten bodies don't have anything to leave anymore
but they smell of your nonexistent come, reek of your pleasure.
Sometimes I hate knowing what you feel because even then I don't even know if I'll ever trust you.
Why did I fall in love?
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Up against an unused kitchen counter
unused except for this, us
fingers still pressing inside you
never me
twist and lock; press to the nerves, have you coming on a scream
you're so hard to understand
I watch you walk away
You can't just want sex?
Right?
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Decades pass, and I hear pleas aplently but never the ones I want to.
You're so hard to comprehend but I know you perfectly.
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You're so temperamental; I never know what you're thinking. Sometimes I think you forget we don't all have your privilege.
You leave countless times; come hard dead in the night then you're gone in a heartbeat, sick of your life of sin.
it's not going anywhere
I miss you when you go
worse than needles, it's like I'm human again, you always know how to hurt me (fucking mindreader)
but it's worse when you come back because then I've lost the hope I treasure that next time, maybe, you'll shine with love when you walk in the door.
My love's twisted deep inside, it lodges like shrapnel
But (as always) I look into your eyes and I know I mean nothing.
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And then you get angry (coming off you in waves; tastes gorgeous), you're jealous of Alice
hypocritical bastard; I know what you do when you're not with me
and you beg – no, demand – kisses and fucks in quiet rooms because you know they're breaking me.
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And each time I tell myself it's the last
and I tell myself I don't need you
and I come with your name on dead lips
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but I've decided
I don't need you
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(I love you
always
Edward.)
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"But I miss you, I love you, it's a shame you can't stay away from me this time 'cause you beg me, you ask me to kiss you and hug you. You won't be getting my affection again 'cause I don't need you."
Inspired by Miss You Love You - Maroon 5.