A/N: So the song 'My Heart I Surrender - I Prevail' has been stucked in my head and a cool way to take it out of me was doing this one-shot, I hope you liked it.
Only the plot is mine, none of the characters or the songs in here are of my property.
I hope you like it, if you do, let me know in the comments.
Also, maybe this is the start of a series of one-shots so if more ideas come up you'll have more chapters here. If you want a certain song come one of the chapters, let me know and I'll work on it.
The songs in this chapters are:
Love Song - Sara Bareilles
Escape Route - Paramore
Renegade - Paramore
My Heart I Surrender - I Prevail
Until next time! KatGurl16's out!
So Beca Mitchell grew up being neighbors with Chloe Beale, they became fast friends when they were little, Chloe was 7 and Beca 5 and the brunette developed a big crush with the redhead since the first time she saw her, thing that she never told her, she never admitted her feelings for her friend because she was afraid of losing her.
When they grew up, her crush was really huge and she always tried to hide it from everyone that asked why she always do whatever the redhead asked, she just claimed that they were friends and that she did the same.
The hardest for her was that time she saw her kissing a boy in her freshman year, it broke her heart really hard, she didn't went to school for a whole week, and when the redhead went to see her, she said she didn't feel that well.
After some days she was in the music room in her school. She was rehearsing for the talent show, she always took part of since the beginning of middle school.
She was really passionate about music since little, her mother taught her how to play piano, guitar and how to sing.
Eventually she started to write songs.
At the beginning they all sucked but after some years they started to be really good, she found herself a way to let out everything she felt through her songs and some of her friends encouraged her to record them and so she did that.
So, almost all her songs talked about a certain redhead which she didn't talk much now that she was with this boy. The good thing about all this is that she wasn't alone. She had some other friends that she could talk to, two other brunettes whom she met back in middle school after Chloe entered high school.
"You seem in trance here" a girl said entering the classroom and sitting beside her in the piano bench.
"Hi Stacie, and yeah I was thinking what I should sing in the talent show, none of my songs convince me" she said tracing her friends above the piano keys.
"Why don't you sing something about love? Those songs are always really popular, you could write one, besides, the talent show is until two more weeks, you could easily prepare something in that time, I mean I've seen you do magic with music in a day" her brunette friend suggested but the other girl just shrugged.
"I don't know, I don't wanna write about love… Is just… I don't want to" she shrugged again and just stood there still, and the brunette knew why.
"Ok then, don't, I know you will come with something really mind blowing for the show, as Amy says 'You're Beca Effin Mitchell' you'll come up with something" her friend said and the other girl cracked a small smile.
"Let's go to class nerd" the smaller brunette said and they went out from the music room.
That day at school went smooth until at the end of the day where she found a redhead ball sitting in the entrance of her house, crying hard and even though that being close to the redhead made her feel ok and at the same time super hurt she will always be there for her.
"Who I need to kill?" The brunette said as she sat down in the stairs and hugged her friend tightly and let her cry in her arms.
She has felt her heart break before but seeing her friend/crush like this it broke her heart even more painfully.
After her friend calmed down a bit she managed to speak "I-I… S-saw him k-kissing s-someone else" the brunette just froze and felt how her blood boiled in anger.
"That's it! Imma kill him!" She started to stood up but the redhead grabbed her and hold her tight.
"Don't leave please" she said with a weak voice and the brunette couldn't say no to that, she could never say no to Chloe Beale's eyes.
So she stood there hugging her and comforting her, making her best to make her laugh and of course, succeeding.
But of course, after some days the redhead was ok and back with that douche that cheated on her, and what could Beca could do? Nothing! She could only be the friend! It has always been like that! She was never the one who gets the girl.
Into a week from the talent show she was in home alone in front of her mom's piano, she was just playing some random chords when the door was knocked, she stood up and went to the door to see who it was.
"Hi Stace" she said and went back to the piano bench "What you doing here?" She started to play something cute in the piano.
"Hi… Well… I was worried… Jessie was worried… You didn't went to school this week and we were just worried" she said as she sat beside the brunette.
"I'm… Ok…" She said without looking the keys.
"Bullshit Becs…" Stacie knew what was going on "Don't lie to me I perfectly know what's going on and Jessie and I are just worry" she faced the other girl completely and force her to look at her.
"What the fuck do you want me to say?! That I fucking hate that she's with that douche bag?! That if it's not that ass it's gonna be another but me?! The fact that she's not into girls and obviously not into me?! That she will never love me?!" Her voice started to crack in mid speech until she started to sob uncontrollably at the end and Stacie just hold her.
She broke down, it was too much, seeing the one she felt in love with someone else, and besides that, the fact that she needed to be there for her in every moment when she needed, it was all bottled up but now she was pouring everything out, she was feeling ok, partially.
"Just let everything out, I'm here for you" Stacie said and the brunette let go of everything, it was soothing, it was ok. After some hours just crying out loud she felt better and they just stood there hugging.
"Thanks for being here Stace, I needed that" she said sniffing.
"I know, just don't do this again please?" The brunette just nodded and took her place again in the piano, getting herself comfortable to play again "So… Are you gonna do a love song?" She said teasingly and the brunette chuckled.
"I'm not gonna write you a love song just 'cause you ask for it… Oh my God… That rhymed… I know what can I do with that..." she said and both brunettes just smiled and Beca started to play just a couple of notes and began to write.
After some hours she wrote a song and they were just beaming.
"Well Becs, I need to go but I can't wait for you to sing this in the talent show, it's amazing and obviously it says that you are thinking in someone special that maybe…Maybe… Is not Chloe?" Stacie winked and Beca just chuckled and shrugged.
"Yeah, I was thinking about you Stace, I mean you're a beautiful girl" she winked back and with that the other girl blushed a bit.
"Wow… You don't need to flirt with me Becs, just say it and we could go out on a date" she winked and the other girl laughed hard.
"You and me? On a date? That'll be interesting but we'll see Stace, see you tomorrow weirdo"
"Bye Becs, see ya"
Beca went to bed with a smile all over her face, she got always happy after writing a song.
The talent show came by really quick and Beca always got nervous just before playing, so she was there shaking a bit while the host announced her name and the other kids she ask for help to do this song.
She was wearing her brand black skinny jeans, with a red plaid shirt and combat boots, her hair was held by one of her sides and loose in the other side, she sat on the piano bench and she got close to the mic.
"Hi there" she said after the claps faded "So, this song... I wrote it just cuz a friend ask me to and she was pretty insistent so this came up… I hope y'all like it" they clapped again and after they faded she started to play the piano.
Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving
I'ma need a better reason to write you a love song today, today
Everyone knew Beca since she started to sing songs in the talent shows of school so it was obvious that all the crowd of the high school was cheering her, and of course she never wrote a song just because someone ask her, thing that concerned Chloe, I mean she knew Beca really well but this gesture really concerned her, Did she had someone special and she didn't want to tell me? She thought as she heard her friend sing.
I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and your twisted words,
Your help just hurts You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'ma need a better reason to write you a love song today
She made this song with just a bunch of thoughts she had and things that she was feeling the day she broke on Stacie's arms and it made sense between the love she felt about Chloe and the anger of her doesn't loving her back and Stacie and her caring self and the fact that she would also like someone to write her a song, so it was weird but it was cool.
Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me Because I say
I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one,
you see I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
Here the crowd just stood up from their chair and started to dance, Beca was always the last number, because she was too good with music that made the other numbers too boring to pay attention to.
Is that why you wanted a love song?
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one,
you see I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it I don't want it for a minute Babe,
I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to write you
a love song today, today
She finished and the crowd was cheering really loud Beca's name and she felt just bliss, she was beaming from the deep parts of her heart, her face was hurting, she loved this feeling.
After the blissful moment she was tackled on backstage by Stacie.
"Owf!" She could almost feel how the air escaped her lungs "Easy there Stace" but she returned the hug.
"Oh my God Becs! That was AMAZING!" The brunette said jumping with the other girl in her arms "Thank you, thank you, thank you!"
"It's true Becs, that was awesome!" Jessie said giving her a side hug.
"You're welcome but you made this happen being all pain in the ass and everything" she winked at her and the other girl just beamed.
"Hey Becs" a cheerful voice said behind her and she turned to face a smiling redhead, of course she'd come to see me.
"Hi Chlo" she waved at the redhead and the other girl hugged her really tight and of course the brunette knew why, she was totally going to ask…
"So… Who what's that song for?" She said a little hurt but well she won't lie to her.
"Stacie made me write it, she was truly a pain in the ass for two whole weeks" she said taking her hands to her pockets.
"Oh… That's cool, are you two-"
"Together?" The other brunette said putting a hand on the smaller girl's shoulders "Kind of now…" She said and the redhead just smiled and give the two girls a hug.
"Ok I'll leave you two alone, Brad is waiting for me… See ya later Becs" and she kissed her cheek, it was a simple short kiss but either way it sent the brunette to the moon and back.
"Sorry for that Becs" Stacie said stepping away from her friend.
"No problem Stace, you and Jessie are right anyway I should move on, she'll never love me back, so that's ok" she already choose to let go from the redhead or at least that's what she thought.
At the end of the year Beca could got herself a medal, she learned how to deal with what she felt about Chloe and she succeeded and also made a million songs about it, she could totally have at least 5 albums with at least 20 songs each one.
She was still there for her as her friend every time she needed her with every boyfriend she had during seniors year and even got herself that date with Stacie that went pretty well. She was doing so well.
But now it was time to say goodbye to the redhead because she was going to go to college.
"Don't be a stranger Chlo" she hugged her tightly trying to remember the other girl's scent.
"Never Becs, I'll call you when I get there, and you" she said to the taller brunette that was beside Beca "You better take care of her and don't hurt her or I'll hunt you down" she warned and Stacie made a mock of defense
"Won't do that and calm down girl, we aren't a thing yet but I promise" she winked and the redhead smiled and got herself in her car heading away from the town.
"You ok there Becs?" The taller girl asked seeing the other girl's eyes never leaving the car until it wasn't in sight and then she sighed.
"I will be Stace, C'mon we have a place to be" she said grabbing the other girl's hand.
"Is that a way you're using to ask me on another date?" She chuckled and the other girl smiled at her.
"Yup, let's try" and both went on a date just to see if they'd work out.
It turned that they didn't worked out as they imagined but they also discovered that trying to be something brought them really close. They became really close, 'best friends' didn't even get close to what they were. But speaking about her redhead friend, she just distanced herself more and more every month until she stopped talking to the brunette. Thing that hurted her a lot, but she promised herself to move on and she never stopped trying.
In her last year of college, in the last talent show, she was nervous again just before her number, this year the other kids had numbers that were terribly boring and it was making her even more nervous because she needed to cheer everyone up and for the fact that Stacie told her that one of her uncles that was a music producer and owner of a great music production firm was there so it was making her feel like she was going to puke.
"Hey Becaw!" her friend said and made the girl flinch "Easy there Becs, you'll be amazing like always, just be yourself man!"
"Thanks Jessie is just, I'm really nervous that's all, no biggies, I'll be fine when I start playing" she shook her hands and got prepared.
Her name was called and she got out of backstage and all the crowd was cheering really loud making the brunette lose her nerves, she took her guitar and stood close to the mic.
"Hey everyone" and all people went crazy again and she chuckled "So… The principal asked me to do two songs today, one for the show and another one for all the seniors here, I hope you all like this…" And with that she started to strumming the guitar and the band behind followed her lead.
And in the moment all the instruments hit, all the students were dancing, well, as much as you can dance with a rock type of song.
I've got a life out there
somewhere It's waiting
Lined with palm trees and only new faces
If I could look past the present and get there
Well baby, it's worth a shot
Just enough time to plan an escape route
I put my map on the wall in the basement
Not quite a victory to run from your problems
But it's the only plan that I got
It's the only plan that I got
And if you try to find me now
Oh! Oh oh oh!
I'm in all the echoes that have faded out
So... I'm moving on
'Cause I just want to feel for once that I belong
That's what's going on
That's what's going on
Crossed the state line and called out a warning
Not too long now, I'll breathe California
Paid my dues and I tried to be loyal
But now I'm done with all that
Where I'm going is everyone's story
We want new lives, We love to start over
It's not a question of who are we really
It's who we want to be
And if you try to find me now
Oh! Oh Oh oh!
I'm in all the echoes that have faded out
So... I'm moving on
'Cause I just want to feel for once that I belong
And that's what's going on
All that's in between
A brand new life and I is time
But time has not been kind.
It's not been kind to me.
It's winding backwards.
Time has not been kind.
It's crawling by...
So... Slowly...
And if you try to find me now
Oh! Oh oh oh!
I'm in all the echoes that have faded out
So... I'm moving on
'Cause I just want to feel for once that I belong
And that's what's going on
At the end the crowd was insane saying Beca's name "I think you liked it…" She said cockily and the crowd cheered again "Well this next song is for y'all seniors, remember to never change despite anything that happens to you and enjoy!" And the next song began.
The grass wasn't green enough here
After watering it with my tears
I'm not sure where you went
Now we are just past tense
And the snakes, they are slithering in
Chasing me to my end
I can't say where that is
I'm running again
And when I get there, It won't be far enough
I'm a renegade, It's in my blood
If ever I get there It won't be fast enough
I'm a renegade I always was
Well, the spark never lit up a fire
Though I tried and tried and tried
The wind came through your lungs
A hurricane from your tongue
I'll keep your secrets with me
Right behind my teeth
Your anger, your anchor
But I'll sail much further on, ah, on
And when I get there, It won't be far enough
I'm a renegade, It's in my blood
If ever I get there, It won't be fast enough
I'm a renegade I always was
I'll keep running I'll keep running again,
keep running I'll keep running, running, running
Keep running, running, running
Oh, when I get there
It won't be far enough
I'm a renegade, It's in my blood
If ever I get there, It won't be fast enough
I'm a renegade, It's in my blood
I'm a renegade I always was...
After the show Beca was ecstatic and way too happy backstage, Stacie was waiting for her and gave her a bone crushing hug.
"Hi there" a tall brunet man said approaching the girls.
"Becs, this is my uncle Stephen, the one I talked to you about" and Beca stood there in shock. This man was a music producer!
"Hi sir" she said in shocked but managed to talk.
"Call me Stephen, listen, Stacie told me about you and what you do and it's amazing so I'll be forward here, I like your voice kid, you have a lot of talent and I want to produce your songs, so what you say?" The man said and Beca could not fucking believe this guy, is he was serious?!
"Are you for real?!" She blurted out and the man nodded "Oh my God! Yes! Yes! Yes!" And she couldn't stopped herself of hugging the man who just chuckled at her actions but hugged her back.
"Ok then kid, I'll see you tomorrow, I'll send Stace here where we'll meet so we talk about business, see you tomorrow" and with that he just got out of the building.
Beca just faced Stacie and just tackled her into a bone crushing hug, they laugh hysterically and jump, Beca couldn't believe life right now, this was a huge opportunity and it was just given to her just like that, she told her mom and both went crazy happy. Beca's life was changing.
And changed into her dream. She was a well known artist/songwriter and producer, she was so successful and of course her friend Stacie was always on her side being her manager and stuff. Her life changed in a good way and it was fantastic.
The years passed and now it was the 10th annual reunion from high school in a local bar near the city where every year they went and saw their friends again and how all changed in their lives, it was kind of cool really.
But it was a bit different because it was no private party they were more people and one of those was a redhead that was trying to drown her sorrows in alcohol.
"I finally found you Chloe, I looked out for you everywhere" a blonde friend approached her and hugged her tightly.
"Hi Bree, sorry I needed some space, I'm totally done with him I just couldn't stand to be in that house anymore, he's a total douche bag, I got the divorce today so I'm celebrating, wanna join?" her voice was emotionless and tired, like all the life that once was running through her veins disappeared leaving a really sad Chloe.
"You need a restart Chlo" she said taking the seat beside her "Let's make that happen" she winked and started to drink.
Meanwhile in the other part of the bar. The high school reunion was having fun drinking and laughing about stories, Beca and Stacie were there enjoying themselves.
"So now it was a tradition thing back in high school for this woman to kill the talent show every damn year with her songs, so I present you guys, once again, Beca Mitchell" all the bar clapped and she just went there on stage taking a seat.
The name got the attention of the redhead instantly looking from her seat to the stage and her jaw dropped when she saw the tiny girl.
She was wearing a black dress that hugged her in the right places, she was joined by her friend Jessie who would help her.
"Thanks Luke… hey there, once again, many years now guys" everyone clapped and she chuckled.
"Wow… I know her… She looks so good" the redhead said making the blonde friend look at her.
"You know Beca Mitchell? The songwriter and music producer?" And the redhead nodded.
"She was my neighbor and best friend back when we were little until I moved to Barden… Tom, was my boyfriend on the last month of high school and when we got more serious in Barden, he made me stop talking to all my high school friends, he was jealous of them all, he always told me that they were taking the time we had for each other, she was the only one I could remain in touch but then I just stopped talking to her to make that douche bag happy… That was the worst mistake of my life, and here I am now, divorced from him after all I did for us to work out…" she said really sad and drank the rest of her beer and looked to the bar table, the blonde only side hugged her.
"So this song…" The brunette in the stage started to talk "I made this song some years ago, it was meant for a girl…" She chuckled and all the old seniors howled like teenagers teasing her "Yes it was for a girl I had a crush since I was little…" This was the first time she was talking about this specific person in front of many people "Her name was Chloe Beale and I was so mad in love with her but she didn't love me back…" She was looking the floor of the stage.
Chloe shoot her eyes up to the tiny figure with shock and awe, she made a song about me?
"Wow… She got a crush on you, that's… Wow" her blonde friend said.
"Anyway, we stopped talking some years ago, I never knew why and this just says what I felt back then so I hope y'all like it…" And with that Jessie and Beca started to play, it was a cute melody and captured all the redhead senses.
I'm a ghost in your eyes.
A shadow you can't seem to recognize.
I have a thought of you for every, star in the sky
But I'm scared, I'll never cross your mind.
Yeah, I'm scared.
Will our stars ever align?
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chloe's heart clenched really hard and remembered every single time she went with Beca so she comforted her whenever she needed, and she was always there for her and she just stopped talking to her just because someone ask her to, she was a real douche bag with her.
She wasn't sad about her divorce anymore she was sad because what she made to her, she felt ashamed now.
And I can't count the times.
I stayed awake pretending you were mine.
Now I'm left here with this emptiness inside,
Why can't I make you mine?
Will our stars ever align?
Will two hearts, beat in time?
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
Chasing love that can never be mine.
Maybe one day you'll realize.
These words you should always remember,
To you, my heart I surrender.
She finished with a smile and all the crowd went as crazy as they used to in high school "Thank you guys…" And she got out of the stage.
Chloe was overwhelmed, that song was for her and she knew it because there was no other Beca Mitchell but the one she remembered in her childhood and she didn't remembered that the girl knew another Chloe Beale but her.
"I need air…" Was all that the redhead said and went out of the bar, she stood there in the cold night trying not to cry but her body was betraying her.
What she did not see was that the smaller brunette was going out of the building just to take a breath too, she saw to her sides and saw a girl shaking into the cold night and as a gentlewoman she was she couldn't let that happen.
She took off her coat and approached this girl "Hey there, it's freezing out…" That's when she met with this other girl's eyes and stood there still and frozen. All those feelings she thought never existed anymore for the redhead were out and were wilder than before.
The redhead noticing that it was Beca just couldn't stopped herself and hugged her "I-I'm s-sorry, I sh-should have n-never s-stopped talking to you… I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry" she said to her ear sobbing and the brunette couldn't bring herself to react properly, then the redhead took the other girl's face in her hands to look at her eyes "I'm sorry… I was a douche bag to y-you, and you d-didn't deserve it, y-you were amazing and I was a bitch to you… If I ever knew this… I wouldn't wait to do this…" She closed the distance between their lips in a passionate kiss and Beca couldn't believe this.
Chloe was kissing her! As Chloe the one she was in love since she was 6, her body was in flames and in ice at the same time, she tasted better than she imagined and well she has imagined too many times kissing her but it was nothing like this, it was sweet and desperate but soothing.
"I'm sorry…" She mumbled against her lips and stepped back to start walking away but the brunette grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her back and hold her tightly by the waist.
"No way I'm gonna let you go this time…" She said close to her and kissed her again with so much care and love that made the redhead melted instantly.
They stood there making out and smiling goofily to one another.