Hey there everybody!! If you didn't realize yet, this is a Taiora!! (that
also means that this story is Digimon too.) lol. I know that I said I
would write a Harry Potter fic next, but, I was inspired, so here it is,
the first chapter! Enjoy! (oh, and the paragraphs that are inside the '.'
are entires from tais journal, just so you know and don't get confused!)
~dorkiss
* Heaven*
'No light can surpass the emptiness; only darkness can make its way into her during times such as this. Loneliness and pain creep into the shuddering void of the abandoned tunnel that leads to her heart. How can she feel so much pain when her soul has been deserted? What did she do to deserve this and why must we all just sit around and do nothing about it?'
Everyone of the digidestined sat silently in the living room of the Takenouchi apartment. No one said a word, none that would come out right in a time like this. Tai Kamiya, leader and strength of the group, placed his journal onto the table beside him. It was his only way to find peace and solace now. Everything else seemed so uneven. He was never sure if he would be able to make any of the steps that he had taken, so afraid that he would crumble under all the weight that he was carrying. This was not supposed to happen.
Mr. and Mrs. Takenouchi were supposed to have a wonderful time in Tokyo celebrating their twenty-fifth wedding anniversary. They were supposed to enjoy fancy dinners and elegant dancing with beautiful music. They were meant to bathe in each others love during this week knowing that their love had always been and always will be, but how can you live these things when you weren't even there to live them. If only it hadn't been raining, none of this would have happened. The couple died in a car crash on their way through the back roads to the great city. It's so much happier when you see that beauty of nature rather than the madness of the highways. The roads were wetter and the bends harder to turn, but how could this happen to people like this? Why did this happen to a girl like her? These were the questions that ran endlessly throughout Tai's mind.
Sora had locked herself in her room. She hadn't been outside since that funeral. The only place that she wanted to be was inside the comfort of her four walls, undisturbed and alone. All of the Digidestined tried to talk her into coming out, but nothing ever worked. She never came out to eat and she had a bathroom connected to her room. To Sora, there was no reason to leave her room. Tai knew that none of the words anybody said would make her move. He was the only one who hadn't talked to her. But he did visit her all the same.
Tai lifted himself up out of the chair in the corner of the room. He picked up his journal and walked towards Sora bedroom with every eye in the room following each of his movements. Tai leaned against the door and sat himself down in front of it. He rested his arms on his knees and didn't take notice of the spiky strands of hair that fell in front of his face. Tai closed his eyes and let his silent tears for Sora fall.
****** Sora stared at the fading picture of her and her parents. It was such a sweet memory. A summer vacation, when she was only nine years old. Sora could remember digging up the sand and helping her dad build a great sandcastle by the ocean. It stood mighty and tall against the ocean surf like no other. Its life was wonderful and proud, greatly admired by all the passer bys. But at the end of the day, Sora remembered watching it as the tide took it under its waves.
"Just like their lives."
She looked at the old picture with a longing for days like those. Tears for her wish ran down her face, but she took no notice. How badly it hurt to know that the happiness of the photo will never happen again, and now Sora dwelled in this pain. This was her home now.
Sora reluctantly looked away from the picture and looked at the door. A little smile found its place upon her face as she got herself out of her bed. Each step to the door was heavy, but she was determined to make it. She placed herself on the floor by the door and touched it with her hand. She swore she could feel his kindness and warmth run through her veins. Sora wanted him to hold her more than anything during this time, but she wasn't ready to face the world, even with Tai. So for now she found the only comfort in her life during his visits. They never said anything, but Sora knew that he was the single person that understood her. Words were not needed between these best friends.
****** 'I can never find the right words to say to her. Every time I sit by her door, I hope that the right words will find there way to my motionless tongue. But nothing ever comes from it. I know that she sits with me too, maybe that's all she needs from me now, but I want to do more than just sit by and wait. She can't see what out in the world for her anymore. It's been sunny and bright these past few days, but she's drowning in all the rain that falls from her crimson eyes. If only I could get to her.'
It was late on a Tuesday night. Most of the Digidestined had left for home already. Only four remained. Izzy, Mimi, Matt, and Tai were scattered around that apartment. Mimi was taking her turn trying to get through to Sora.
".We miss you so much, Sora. I know that this must be hard for you, but you have your whole life ahead of you. We love you, Sora, why don't you just come out, and I'll make you some coffee.?"
Mimi stood there for a little longer, with her forehead against the doorframe, hoping that maybe this time she would hear the unlocking of the door. But all she could hear were the muffled cries of her long time friend. That was the only way that the digidestined knew that Sora was still with them. When she wasn't crying, she was sleeping. And when she wasn't sleeping, she was crying. Mimi walked away sadly and sat herself on the couch next to Izzy.
"I don't know what else to do, Izzy. I've said everything that I thought I should, but it's not helping."
"I'm sure that what you said helped her a little bit. Sora needs to take it one step at a time. We can't rush her into anything that she isn't ready for" he explained while taking her hand in his and giving it a light squeeze. A blush made its way onto Mimi's cheeks, but she managed to squeeze back.
"We've all tried talking to her," said Matt, "well, most of us." All three heads turned to Tai who sat in the same chair he always sat in, and who was still writing in his journal. He looked up at them, knowing that they were talking about him.
"She doesn't need all of us getting her out here when she doesn't want to. Izzy right, she does need to take it one step at a time. And I know that if she needs us to help her, then she'll let us."
"How do you know for sure, Tai? What if she's too scared to ask any of us for help? I for one don't want her living the rest of her life like this."
"I just know Matt. I know that that's not what you want to hear from me, but that's all there is to it. I just know."
"Well, you've never let us down before Tai." And with that he sighed and slouched back into the chair.
****** Sora didn't know what she needed anymore. Every time that she woke up, she expected to hear the sound of the radio from the kitchen, talking of the traffic and weather, and the smell of coffee for her mom and the burnt toast that her dad had messed up again. And every time that she didn't hear or smell the usual morning senses, the pain within her intensified, and she never wanted to wake up again.
Sora vaguely listened to what her friends had to say to her. Every time she heard one of their voices, it reminded her that they were still waiting for her. But Sora didn't want them to wait for her. Everybody said the same thing to her, "You have your whole life ahead of you." "But what about your life?" She wanted to say. She didn't want them wasting there time on her. She wanted them to forget her. And no matter how much she wanted this, she knew that even if they all ended up abandoning her, one would always stay. What's more, is that deep down, he's the only one that she wanted to stay, because deep down, she knew that he was the person that she needed. He was the person that she loved, and always had. He may be the only person who hasn't said a word to her, but he was the only one who she had listened to.
****** 'It's been a week and a half since I last saw the face of the girl I fell in love with. I've always been able to feel her pain, and it hurts most right now. I know Sora enough to know that she doesn't want us to worry about her, but that's easier said than done. We care and worry about her more and more each day, but we can't find a way to get to her. Everybody's here today, it's her birthday. But there's one thing that separates us from Sora, and that's her heart. It's keeping her from reaching out to us because it's in so much pain. It's been harder for me to understand her these days, and everybody is looking at me, they want me to do something. I wish I knew what that was, because I need her so much now. I miss her more than anything.'
Tai pushed a slice of bread with peanut butter and fluff under the door to Sora. Her favorite. He knew she would eat it, she had enough energy for that, but they had to get to her soon. They wanted today to be a happy one for Sora. You don't turn eighteen everyday. He walked back to the group so that he could address them as a whole. They all needed to talk. Sitting in his chair, he leaned his elbows on his knees and said the only thing that came to his mind.
"I wish I could tell you that I have a plan, that I've thought of something to help her, but I would be lying." Tai noticed that tears were falling from the eyes of TK and Kari. Sora meant a lot to them too. She had been the one to take care of them when they were all lost and confused in the Digital World for the first time. She was like a mother to them, and they didn't want to see her so sad, it pained them to know that this same girl who had been so strong for them was dying from the inside of her heart out. The two young teens held onto each other for support and love that neither of them could fully understand.
Tai saw that all eyes were upon him now. He had to be strong no matter how weak he really felt. "I miss her as much as the rest of you, and I want her back too. But Sora fighting a battle that she's already lost, we all know that. We have to help her. We need her to understand that we love her. She's forgotten what love is, and we need to show it to her." Tai leaned back into the plush chair and stared at the ceiling, hoping that it would give him some type of clue of what he had to do, still, his mind remained blank. "But I don't know how we can do it."
"You have to show her love Tai, you're the one that needs to save her, not us," said Matt. Tai looked at him with a confused look, Tai thought that they were in this together. "What?"
"Tai, don't play stupid with me. You and Sora have been best friends forever. She trusts you more than any person in this room right know. You know her best. I've been friends with you long enough to know that she's your life Tai. I know how you feel about her. You need to tell her.
"I don't know exactly what Sora is feeling right now, but I know you do. You understand her, you're the one that needs to save her."
R&R please!!! If you're reading this, I hope that you liked it so far, until next time!! ~dorkiss
* Heaven*
'No light can surpass the emptiness; only darkness can make its way into her during times such as this. Loneliness and pain creep into the shuddering void of the abandoned tunnel that leads to her heart. How can she feel so much pain when her soul has been deserted? What did she do to deserve this and why must we all just sit around and do nothing about it?'
Everyone of the digidestined sat silently in the living room of the Takenouchi apartment. No one said a word, none that would come out right in a time like this. Tai Kamiya, leader and strength of the group, placed his journal onto the table beside him. It was his only way to find peace and solace now. Everything else seemed so uneven. He was never sure if he would be able to make any of the steps that he had taken, so afraid that he would crumble under all the weight that he was carrying. This was not supposed to happen.
Mr. and Mrs. Takenouchi were supposed to have a wonderful time in Tokyo celebrating their twenty-fifth wedding anniversary. They were supposed to enjoy fancy dinners and elegant dancing with beautiful music. They were meant to bathe in each others love during this week knowing that their love had always been and always will be, but how can you live these things when you weren't even there to live them. If only it hadn't been raining, none of this would have happened. The couple died in a car crash on their way through the back roads to the great city. It's so much happier when you see that beauty of nature rather than the madness of the highways. The roads were wetter and the bends harder to turn, but how could this happen to people like this? Why did this happen to a girl like her? These were the questions that ran endlessly throughout Tai's mind.
Sora had locked herself in her room. She hadn't been outside since that funeral. The only place that she wanted to be was inside the comfort of her four walls, undisturbed and alone. All of the Digidestined tried to talk her into coming out, but nothing ever worked. She never came out to eat and she had a bathroom connected to her room. To Sora, there was no reason to leave her room. Tai knew that none of the words anybody said would make her move. He was the only one who hadn't talked to her. But he did visit her all the same.
Tai lifted himself up out of the chair in the corner of the room. He picked up his journal and walked towards Sora bedroom with every eye in the room following each of his movements. Tai leaned against the door and sat himself down in front of it. He rested his arms on his knees and didn't take notice of the spiky strands of hair that fell in front of his face. Tai closed his eyes and let his silent tears for Sora fall.
****** Sora stared at the fading picture of her and her parents. It was such a sweet memory. A summer vacation, when she was only nine years old. Sora could remember digging up the sand and helping her dad build a great sandcastle by the ocean. It stood mighty and tall against the ocean surf like no other. Its life was wonderful and proud, greatly admired by all the passer bys. But at the end of the day, Sora remembered watching it as the tide took it under its waves.
"Just like their lives."
She looked at the old picture with a longing for days like those. Tears for her wish ran down her face, but she took no notice. How badly it hurt to know that the happiness of the photo will never happen again, and now Sora dwelled in this pain. This was her home now.
Sora reluctantly looked away from the picture and looked at the door. A little smile found its place upon her face as she got herself out of her bed. Each step to the door was heavy, but she was determined to make it. She placed herself on the floor by the door and touched it with her hand. She swore she could feel his kindness and warmth run through her veins. Sora wanted him to hold her more than anything during this time, but she wasn't ready to face the world, even with Tai. So for now she found the only comfort in her life during his visits. They never said anything, but Sora knew that he was the single person that understood her. Words were not needed between these best friends.
****** 'I can never find the right words to say to her. Every time I sit by her door, I hope that the right words will find there way to my motionless tongue. But nothing ever comes from it. I know that she sits with me too, maybe that's all she needs from me now, but I want to do more than just sit by and wait. She can't see what out in the world for her anymore. It's been sunny and bright these past few days, but she's drowning in all the rain that falls from her crimson eyes. If only I could get to her.'
It was late on a Tuesday night. Most of the Digidestined had left for home already. Only four remained. Izzy, Mimi, Matt, and Tai were scattered around that apartment. Mimi was taking her turn trying to get through to Sora.
".We miss you so much, Sora. I know that this must be hard for you, but you have your whole life ahead of you. We love you, Sora, why don't you just come out, and I'll make you some coffee.?"
Mimi stood there for a little longer, with her forehead against the doorframe, hoping that maybe this time she would hear the unlocking of the door. But all she could hear were the muffled cries of her long time friend. That was the only way that the digidestined knew that Sora was still with them. When she wasn't crying, she was sleeping. And when she wasn't sleeping, she was crying. Mimi walked away sadly and sat herself on the couch next to Izzy.
"I don't know what else to do, Izzy. I've said everything that I thought I should, but it's not helping."
"I'm sure that what you said helped her a little bit. Sora needs to take it one step at a time. We can't rush her into anything that she isn't ready for" he explained while taking her hand in his and giving it a light squeeze. A blush made its way onto Mimi's cheeks, but she managed to squeeze back.
"We've all tried talking to her," said Matt, "well, most of us." All three heads turned to Tai who sat in the same chair he always sat in, and who was still writing in his journal. He looked up at them, knowing that they were talking about him.
"She doesn't need all of us getting her out here when she doesn't want to. Izzy right, she does need to take it one step at a time. And I know that if she needs us to help her, then she'll let us."
"How do you know for sure, Tai? What if she's too scared to ask any of us for help? I for one don't want her living the rest of her life like this."
"I just know Matt. I know that that's not what you want to hear from me, but that's all there is to it. I just know."
"Well, you've never let us down before Tai." And with that he sighed and slouched back into the chair.
****** Sora didn't know what she needed anymore. Every time that she woke up, she expected to hear the sound of the radio from the kitchen, talking of the traffic and weather, and the smell of coffee for her mom and the burnt toast that her dad had messed up again. And every time that she didn't hear or smell the usual morning senses, the pain within her intensified, and she never wanted to wake up again.
Sora vaguely listened to what her friends had to say to her. Every time she heard one of their voices, it reminded her that they were still waiting for her. But Sora didn't want them to wait for her. Everybody said the same thing to her, "You have your whole life ahead of you." "But what about your life?" She wanted to say. She didn't want them wasting there time on her. She wanted them to forget her. And no matter how much she wanted this, she knew that even if they all ended up abandoning her, one would always stay. What's more, is that deep down, he's the only one that she wanted to stay, because deep down, she knew that he was the person that she needed. He was the person that she loved, and always had. He may be the only person who hasn't said a word to her, but he was the only one who she had listened to.
****** 'It's been a week and a half since I last saw the face of the girl I fell in love with. I've always been able to feel her pain, and it hurts most right now. I know Sora enough to know that she doesn't want us to worry about her, but that's easier said than done. We care and worry about her more and more each day, but we can't find a way to get to her. Everybody's here today, it's her birthday. But there's one thing that separates us from Sora, and that's her heart. It's keeping her from reaching out to us because it's in so much pain. It's been harder for me to understand her these days, and everybody is looking at me, they want me to do something. I wish I knew what that was, because I need her so much now. I miss her more than anything.'
Tai pushed a slice of bread with peanut butter and fluff under the door to Sora. Her favorite. He knew she would eat it, she had enough energy for that, but they had to get to her soon. They wanted today to be a happy one for Sora. You don't turn eighteen everyday. He walked back to the group so that he could address them as a whole. They all needed to talk. Sitting in his chair, he leaned his elbows on his knees and said the only thing that came to his mind.
"I wish I could tell you that I have a plan, that I've thought of something to help her, but I would be lying." Tai noticed that tears were falling from the eyes of TK and Kari. Sora meant a lot to them too. She had been the one to take care of them when they were all lost and confused in the Digital World for the first time. She was like a mother to them, and they didn't want to see her so sad, it pained them to know that this same girl who had been so strong for them was dying from the inside of her heart out. The two young teens held onto each other for support and love that neither of them could fully understand.
Tai saw that all eyes were upon him now. He had to be strong no matter how weak he really felt. "I miss her as much as the rest of you, and I want her back too. But Sora fighting a battle that she's already lost, we all know that. We have to help her. We need her to understand that we love her. She's forgotten what love is, and we need to show it to her." Tai leaned back into the plush chair and stared at the ceiling, hoping that it would give him some type of clue of what he had to do, still, his mind remained blank. "But I don't know how we can do it."
"You have to show her love Tai, you're the one that needs to save her, not us," said Matt. Tai looked at him with a confused look, Tai thought that they were in this together. "What?"
"Tai, don't play stupid with me. You and Sora have been best friends forever. She trusts you more than any person in this room right know. You know her best. I've been friends with you long enough to know that she's your life Tai. I know how you feel about her. You need to tell her.
"I don't know exactly what Sora is feeling right now, but I know you do. You understand her, you're the one that needs to save her."
R&R please!!! If you're reading this, I hope that you liked it so far, until next time!! ~dorkiss