I knew that this dream had to end.

I just didn't know it would turn into my worst nightmare.

We've been officially going out for 2 months and 13 days. Today would have made it 2 months and 14 days.

We never did make it to the 14th day of the 3rd month we have been together.

….I'm pathetic.

I'm sure you don't count the days, the minutes, the seconds we spend together. Unlike me.

Neither do you spend over an hour deciding on clothes to wear for our dates, what shoes will go together with your jeans. Unlike me.

Even though you showed me your kind and caring side, you have never uttered those three words that I so desperately want to hear from those lips. Unlike me.

I love you.

Is that so hard to say? Weren't the words supposed to come out naturally when you are with the one you love?

I should have taken the hint. To be honest, it was very obvious, the cool manner in which you composed himself in my presence. I on the other hand, had a hard time forming coherent sentences when talking to you. You, as the dominant one in the relationship, never offered to walk me back to my dorm after our evening dates. I understand that you have a reputation to upkeep, but wouldn't one sacrifice his reputation for the one he loves?

Of course he would.

The thing is, you never loved me, did you, Kaname?

All this while, I was in denial. I didn't want it to end, our relationship that has blossomed from enemies to…. something else.

Did you know? Were you aware, that I had harboured an unrequited love towards you for three years? Probably not. I myself, had my own reputation to upkeep in front of others. I told myself, until I was sure you were the one, I would not take action. After all, how would the Day Class girls react to seeing a guardian mooning over one of the Night Class? I can't help but laugh bitterly. I am just like those girls, ain't I? Reaching out for the unreachable? None of you Night Class students ever look at them, except Aidou, but he's just an attention-seeker.

But what hurt the most is, you led me on to believe that I actually had a chance.

That snowy night, when I first confessed my feelings to you, you said yes. You didn't even blink an eye, you agreed straight away. Were you that bored and lonely without Yuki, Kaname? That you would even take me as a substitute?

Then, I would have rather you said no and rejected me in the harshest way possible.

That could not compare to the feeling of my heart shattering into pieces, seeing you holding hands with her.

And look what you've done to me. I used to love Yuki as a sister. Now I just resent her, and her existence as a whole. Look what feelings you awakened within me. You brought out my dark side, the part of me that's vampire. So that's how you bloodsuckers are like, huh? Selfish, hateful bastards.

Yet I can't bring myself to hate you.

God, get a hold of yourself, Zero. You weren't raised to be this weak, my inner voice chastises.

But I am weak. My weakness is you. Your wish is my command. I am your dog at your disposal.

Would things have worked out differently if Yuki never came back? If she died in a plane crash, would you mourn her death for years? I would have mourned her passing as well, but not as much as you. Kaname, I know you would sacrifice your very soul to save her. I don't love her enough to do that, but I would sacrifice my soul for you.

This is such a twisted love triangle.

It was hours ago, when you dumped me.

"Zero, let's break up."

"What... are you saying?"

"….Yuki's back. I…. love her."

And just like that, you walked away and left me here, right at this very spot. Can you hear the sharp noise of glass shattering? That was my heart.

I've been soaked to the skin in the rain for hours, but I don't feel cold. I don't feel anything. Numb. My eyes stare blankly at thin air. There are no tears, because I cried inside my heart, and the sky cried with me.

I was at my limit, slowly reaching exhaustion and possibly, hypothermia. Whatever. I'm done with this life anyway. There isn't anything much worth living for.

"Zero? Zero!"

I hear your voice, sounding frantic. Go back to Yuki, Kaname. Forget about me. After all, I'm just a pitiful Level E.

Oh, wait. I feel your arms cradling my body against your chest. I must be in heaven then. It sure feels good to be dead.

My vision is slowly blurring. I feel so….. tired…. Maybe I'll sleep for awhile…. And maybe I'll dream of you, Kaname.

Let this living nightmare turn into a sweet dream.

And let me stay in this dream forever.

A/N: That was... pretty morose. Even for me. =_=" But I just love angst... ah, sweet, sweet angst.

By the way, if you really want to know, this is not a death fic. Zero DID NOT die. (how could I kill off one of my favourite characters? xD) I might leave this as a oneshot, or continue on... depending on feedback... I hope I did not make Zero... TOO out of character? *runs away* Its just that I love an emo-Zero... and I'm kinda an emo myself, sometimes (come on, did nobody notice that earlier? p)

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this (possibly) oneshot! Reviews are welcome! =)