DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS

OK SO THIS IS ONE OF THE STORIES THAT HAVE BEEN GOING ON IN MY HEAD.

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I honestly cannot believe I am going back to Forks after I promised myself I wouldn't return there. But of course! Nothing ever goes the way I want it to. One day I came home from getting another tattoo only to find out that my mother Renee decided that it would be good for me to spend some quality time with my father Charlie. Even though I fully think that she is just trying to get rid of me to spend time with her new husband Phil.

I even think he knew what she was doing because he bought me a brand new white Audi TTS coupe. I think he might have felt a little guilty about it. And before you ask yes Phil is rich. I didn't really feel comfortable accepting the gift but I mean come on it's so freakin' sexy. Even though my pride and joy will always be my baby or as I call her 'Eleanor'. She's a 1968 Pontiac Firebird in midnight blue which I helped restore with the help of my best friends Jacob and his girlfriend Renesme. I'm going to miss them like crazy.

We were in our own little 'band' for a better word. I was the vocals and guitar player, while Jake was the drummer and Renesme played the base. We did gigs here and there but nothing to serious. The day I told them I had to leave Renesme broke down and cried. Jacob thought I was seriously joking about it till I waved goodbye to them this morning. When I had told him he actually started laughing and told me to quite playing around. I chuckled when I remembered that before I could fully drive away Jacob ran after my car screaming "Noooooo. Wait!"

I couldn't help but mess with him once more. I would slow down my car to the point where he could reach me then I would drive a little bit faster again. This continued for about 5 minutes before I put my car in reverse and passed him again. I laughed when I saw how frustrated his face was. Renesme came up to me then laughing hysterically.

"Good one Bella." She laughed

we continued to laugh and Jake slowly made his way over to us. When he finally made it he said

"You weren't joking about moving were you?" I shook my head and gave him a sad smile "Well at least you got to mess with me once more right?" Jacob laughed trying to lighten the mood.

We promised to call each other as much as possible. Whether it be calling, texting or emailing.

And well here I am driving up to Washington during the summer in Eleanor blasting Dave Dee Dozy Beaky Mich & Tich's song Hold Tight. The only good thing about moving back to Forks is visiting my other best friend Alice Cullen. The only bad thing about that is she's HIS sister. As I was driving I couldn't help but go back to that day.......

It was the beginning of freshman year. Alice, Edward and I were the best of friends since the third grade. We had even made a pack the last weeks of eighth grade that it was going to stay that way. No one but Alice knew that I was completely in love with her brother. He was the epitome of gorgeous with his bronze hair and emerald green eyes.

The first weeks of high school were really great until the tramps came along. They started to flirt and hang out with Edward. Alice and I were aware that they didn't want him to hang out with us. As the weeks went by they got their wish. He would occasionally wave or say hi to me but nothing more than that. Which hurt me so much. Sometimes I would want to run up to him and scream 'What happened to our pack!' but I never did. As more weeks went by he wouldn't even glance at me. I would constantly go home and cry my eyes out screaming at myself asking what was wrong with me. After awhile I had it in my mind that it had to be because I was a plain little girl.

Those same tramps that took away my best friend and the boy who I was madly in love with started to mess with me. First they started with name calling. Then it escalated to shoving and pulling pranks on me. Edward never noticed any of this. Alice would always hold me as I sobbed on her shoulder. One day in the morning Alice came to pick me as she had just received her permit. I don't really know why but I broke down and cried.

"Bella what's wrong!" Alice asked panicked "Please tell me."

"What's wrong with me?" I sobbed. "Why do they hate me so much? I've never done anything to them."

Alice spoke softly as she shushed me "Nothing is wrong with you Bella. Absolutely nothing. I honestly don't know what there problem is. There just jealous of you"

"They have nothing to be jealous of. I have nothing to make them that way." I cried "I'm the one who should be jealous of them! They get to hang out with Edward, Ali. Why did he leave us?!"

"Shhh. I know Bells. But you're the better person. As for Assward I have no idea what the hell his problem is. It will all work out Bella." I nodded "You ok?"

"Yeah" I choked out

"Ok. Come on before were late for school. I have a feeling something big is going to happen."

Oh she couldn't have been more right. As I was going to my locker I found a little note attached to it. I opened it and it read

Bella,

I have something really important I need to tell you. please meet me by the cafeteria doors during nutrition.

P.s I'm really sorry for being an ass.

-Edward

I couldn't believe this. I was smiling so big as I walked to my first two classes before nutrition. What I didn't understand was that every time one of the tramps would look at me they would just laugh and look away. That should have been a sign of what was to come.

I was standing there waiting for Edward when the queen tramp Tanya came up to me smirking.

"You know he will never like you. You are so pathetic with how much you like him." Tanya sneered. I began to feel my eyes water. "Your so plain why would he want you when he can have me." I just stood there. "God look you don't even have curves your flat every where. You don't even have any color. Your so pale. Well let's see if I can help you out with that." She laughed as more people came to watch the scene.

I had no idea what she was talking about until I felt something splash on top of my head. One of her friends had poured tomato sauce all over me. The tears were running freely down my cheeks now. By now the student's that saw what happened were laughing loudly.

"Did you really think he wanted to talk to you?" She laughed

I couldn't believe that she was telling me that he was a part of this. He would never do this to me. But just then I heard him laugh. I turned to see him walking this way with Lauren laughing like there was no tomorrow. And suddenly everything clicked. The tears were coming down faster now. I couldn't believe that I had been so foolish in thinking that he had wanted to talk to me again.

"I told you" Tanya smirked.

His laughter finally stop. As I looked from Tanya to him I found that he was looking at me in shock. "I hate you" I whispered as I cried.

"W...wh... what?" He stuttered looking confused.

I looked him dead in the eye and said "I HATE YOU!" before he could say anything else I ran outside of the school. I vaguely heard someone shout my name but I was running. I took the long way home knowing that Alice would have heard everything that had happened by now and was probably looking for me.

My cell phone started ringing but I didn't care for anything anymore so I just pulled it out not caring who it was and threw it on the ground breaking it in pieces. When I reached my house I was a mess. I was still crying and the sauce had caked on. I went straight up the bathroom and took a shower. When I got out and dressed I was completely numb. I sat on my bed staring blankly at nothing in particular. I heard someone banging on the front door but I didn't bother with it. Finally after an hour it stopped. About an hour later I heard my mom call me downstairs.

"Bella this is really hard for me to say but. . . I'm divorcing your father." I just stood there completely numb so she took it as a sign to continue. "I'm so sorry but I can't do this anymore. I feel claustrophobic here. Would you want to come live with me? There's this house in Arizona that I've been looking at. . .What's wrong honey? Have you been crying?"

She put her hands on my face looking intently into my eyes. "Nothing mom. I'm fine"I thought about it. What is there here for me? The only person that it would hurt to leave now would be Alice. Charlie I would be able to see during holiday and such. So I made my decision.

"Oh and mom? Yeah I'll go with you." I said

"Are you sure baby?" I nodded

My mom helped me pack my stuff as my dad begged her not to do this. I couldn't listen to this I would just break down all over again. So I took the opportunity to go downstairs and use the phone to call Ali.

She picked up on the first ring "Bella! Are you ok? I'm so sorry they did that to you. If I was there. . ." She trailed off "Bella you need to understand somethi-" I cut her off

"I'm moving Alice" I was meet with silence.

After a minute she spoke "What?"

"Im moving with my mom to Arizona." I spoke with no emotion at all.

"No!" Alice cried "Please don't leave Bella! You're my best friend. I need you! I don't have anyone else."

"I'm sorry Alice." I sobbed "I need to get away for a while. You will always no matter what be my best friend. I promise to call you everyday"

Both of us were sobbing by this point. "When are you leaving?" Alice choked out

"Tonight" My voice sounded so hoarse from crying.

"Can I come say goodbye?" She cried softly

"Of course Alice." I croaked

I waited 15 minutes before Alice arrived. When I opened the door she launched herself in my arms. We cried as we held each other. The time finally came for my mom and me to leave. I promised Alice that I would call her every possible time I could. So before I left we said our I love you's and goodbyes.

*End of flash back*

Before I had left that night she had tried to mention him but would always cut her off. I just couldn't bare to listen to his name. I was so hurt even to this day I can't help but feel a little bit. The weird things is that for some unfathomable reason I still love him.

As the promise I made with Alice. I kept it every chance I had I would call her. She still doesn't know I'm returning im planning on it being a surprise till the first day of school. I wonder is she will recognize me. I changed completely in these three years we haven't seen each other. I have curves now in all the right places. I grew about two inches taller which makes me 5'5 now. I dress completely different in a better sense that is. Oh and I have a half sleeve of tattoos on my left arm. I have a rose tattooed on the right side of my neck. I also have a couple more tattoos. So I say I pretty much look different. But who knows that pixie is crazy and probably will recognize me.

By the time I realized what had happened I was half way there. I had to stop at a near by motel to get some rest before I began to drive again. I woke up the next morning at five in the morning to get an early start. As I got into my car I connected my ipod and blasted Baby Boy The Prince- "This Is The Way I Live" What can I say I like all types of music. I just had a sudden urge to listen to this song.

As I was making my way to the freeway I had to stop at a stoplight and began singing.

"This is the way I live!

Lil' Boy still pushin' big wheels

I stack my money, lay low, and chill

Don't need to work hard that's the way I feel, I feel, I"

As I was waiting for the light to change a car pulled up to my left side. When I turned around to look at the car an elderly couple where looking at me like I was on crack. I couldn't help but laugh and continue singing.

"This is the way I live

Lil' Boy still pushin' big wheels

I stack my money, lay low, and chill

Don't need to work hard that's the way I feel, I feel, I

This is the way I live"

After a couple stops for gas and food Before I was driving by the Welcome to forks sign. Whoop whoop Awesome! Did you catch the sarcasm? After a couple more minutes I found myself on my old street. Before I made it to my house I saw a moving truck right next to my house. As I slowed down and parked I noticed there cars. Holy shit! They were super nice. I couldn't really tell what they were though. I got out of my car and made my way to my new neighbors house. When I walked up to there drive way I gasped at what laid before my eyes. ______________________________________________________________________________

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