Alison DiLaurentis had always been the girl of her dreams, her first love and the one Emily was never able to forget. The night Maya told her they had found Alison's body, her life, her feelings they had never been the same. Since that day Emily knew she had to force herself to move on from Alison and the feelings she had for her best friend but despite the years had passed and the multiple girlfriends she had, there always seemed to be a part missing. Emily had always known that the part she was missing was Alison. What Emily did question though was if this was because she never had any closure, with the angry letter she wanted to send Alison in the back of her mind or because a first love never really went away. That was also the very thing she questioned when she saw Alison's beautiful face when she revealed herself to the four liars.
Emily had been insanely happy to find out Alison was still alive but it made her question her feelings as well and not just the ones about Alison also the ones she had for Paige. Paige had been good to her and for a moment she had really believed she had completely moved on from Alison and wanted to built a life with Paige, yet now with Alison alive Emily couldn't help but question her feelings. "God what am I even doing, Alison is never going to love me back like that... the girl is on the running for her life so to speak, her romantic feelings for anyone are the last things that are on her mind." Emily thought as she let out a deep frustrated sigh and pulled out her phone.
"Mom is out, wanna watch a movie tonight?" Emily texted Paige, she had not seen her all weekend since with everything that had been going on with Alison and A. It was only right she spend some time with her girlfriend and hopefully take her mind of Alison as well. After a minute Emily heard her phone vibrate on her night stand and picked it up, smiling a little when she read the text from Paige. "See you in a bit X." Emily went downstairs and took a few horror movies, her favorite genre before walking into the kitchen and made some popcorn they could eat while watching the movie.
It only took a few minutes before Emily heard the door bell ring and walked to the front door to open, seeing Paige who seemed eager to spend the evening with her and gave her a peck on the lips but Emily didn't let go that easily. Emily placed her hands on Paige's waist and deepened the kiss, tracing her tongue along Paige's lower lip as she asked entrance. Paige eagerly opened her mouth and felt Emily's tongue slip into her mouth and let their tongues fight for dominance till breathing became an issue. "Wow... I could get used to you saying hello like that." Paige spoken with a smile spreading on her face, she was clearly loving this.
"Yeah... I just missed you, I haven't seen in a few days. We shouldn't let that happen again."
Emily turned around as she spoken the words, guilt written all over her face but was it really guilt for being too busy to seeing Paige or guilt because even when she kissed Paige that still somewhere in the back of her mind Alison was still in her thoughts. Shaking her head quickly but lightly, Emily gestured with her hand to the living room. "I made popcorn." Emily spoken a little too fast and that didn't go unnoticed by Paige who only could frown at Emily's behavior, she had loved the kiss but something obviously was off with Emily.
As they sat together on the couch, Paige slowly moved her arm around Emily and pulled her close to her and Emily responded by snuggling into her girlfriend. Paige placed a soft kiss on the top of Emily's head when Emily could hear her phone buzzing and reached for it while Paige was still calmly watching the movie and eating some of the popcorn that Emily had made.
"If you think you are in love with two people, you love neither enough. -A" Emily's eyes widen and as she stared at the words till the screen went black. "A knows Alison is alive, fuck how can A even know this." Emily thought, unaware of a pair of eyes watching her in concern. "Em what is going on?" Came Paige's soft voice full with concern her girlfriend as she stared directly in Emily's eyes, getting uneasy with how her girlfriend was behaving this night and the previous days she had almost brushed her off, every time she had wanted to speak to Emily. "Nothing just you know A being A... oh look at that, I'll get us a refill." Emily spoken rushed as she got up from the couch and took the two glasses before almost running off into the kitchen.
Paige sighed slowly as she glanced on the phone that laid beside her one the couch and bit down on her lower lip, could she really invade Emily's privacy like that? but then again whatever was on that phone, whatever message A had sent this time, really had girlfriend freaked out. Paige reached out to grab Emily's phone but stopped right before her fingers touched it, her hand slightly trembling before throwing one quick glance to kitchen and quickly grabbed the phone.
Unshed tears where forming in Paige's eyes as she starred at the screen, reading the words over and over again till she was taken out of her trance by someone tearing the phone out of her eyes. "That is private!" Emily nearly yelled at Paige. "This is not happening... oh god.. this is NOT happening." Emily thought as the hurt was evident on her girlfriends face. "I was worried about you! So who is she Em?!" Paige raised her voice as well, a slight crack in her voice as she stood up and stood infront of Emily. "No one! There is no one, it's just A being A.. god are you really going to believe A over me!?" Emily spoke angrily as she studied Paige's face, trying to find clues whether Paige believed her or not. "But it's not, is it! If it was just A being A you wouldn't be freaking out like this."
Paige bit down on her lower lip as she turned around and ran her hands through her hair in an attempt to calm herself down even with her heart breaking in a thousand pieces right now. Emily took a deep breath as the guilt was starting to catch up with her, she couldn't lie the Paige, she always had been there for her, always had been great but despite she could not tell Paige that Alison was alive.. at least she could be as honest as she could be and spoken in a soft tone. "It freaked me out because last night I was looking at a picture of Alison and me... the fact that A continues to watch us at our homes freaks me out, you can't blame me for that babe." Emily tried.
Paige turned and shook her head, anger and pain being evident on her face. "No I can't blame you for that but I can blame you for still always having to compete with Alison." Paige chuckled softly but she was far from amused, it was bitter. "Do you know what that feels like? Always having to compete... competing with a fucking dead chick Emily!" Emily slowly took a step closer, in hope to for Paige to let her in, to calm her down while she spoke in a soft voice. "Paige..." Paige took a few steps back and grabbed her back. "No! You do not get to Paige me. I love you, okay? Is that so bad? I love you and she doesn't- she never did. Yet, you love her and not me. What's wrong with this picture?"
Tears where now streaming down Paige's face as she looked at the girl she loved but now doubted that would ever love her back in the same way and by the way Emily stayed silent was only conformation that this could very well be the end of them. Alison DiLaurentis had won yet again.