How One Fails To Save A Number Of Lives
Step One You Say We Need To Talk
"Hey Obito…..Can We Talk?"
"About What?"
"You Haven't Been Yourself Lately…."
Obito looks away for a second and starts to walk away
He
Walks You Say Sit Down It's Just A Talk
He Smiles Politely Back At
You
You Stare Politely Right On Through
"Come On Obito…I Just Want To Talk To You…No Harm In It…."
"Heh……….I Don't Need To Freaking Talk To You. Everything You Say Drags Me Down…… Everything You Say Makes The Rest Of Us Screw Up"
"Obito I-"
"Just Shut Up!"
Some
Sort Of Window To Your Right
As He Goes Left And You Stay Right
It Happened Too Fast For Kakashi To Comprehend. Obito Got Crushed Much Too Fast For Him To Understand. He Ran A Hand Over His New Sharingan. Obito Gives A Small Smile And Closes His Eyes. His Chest Rises And Falls One Last Time. A Shocked Look Comes Over Rin's Face.
"Kakashi….THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT. IF YOU COULD JUST LISTEN TO ANYBODY!!"
"But I-"
"YOU KNOW MAYBE HEWAS RIGHT ALL YOU CAN EVER SAY OR DO IS SCREWS THINGS UP!!"
Between
The Lines Of Fear And Blame
You Begin To Wonder Why You Came
Kakashi Saw The It Coming. He Saw The Bloody Orange Tail Coming. He Saw It Send Her Flying. He Saw The Tears In Her Eyes Just Before The Impact Of The Tail Killed Her.
"KAKASHI!"
He Later Found Her Crushed Body In The Mountains. Scared. All The Battlefield Seemed To Do Was Get His Comrades Killed……..
Where Did I Go Wrong?
He Remembers Finding His Father's Destroyed Body……
Bloody. Broken
I Lost A Friend
He Remembers Seeing Obito's Destroyed Body
Bloody. Broken
Somewhere Along In The Bitterness
He Remembers Seeing Rin's Crushed Body…In The Darkness Of The Night.
Bloody. Broken
And I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night
He Remembers Being The Only One Allowed To Visit His Sensei In The Hospital.
Barely Breathing.
Chakra Drained.
Bloody.
Broken.
"Kakashi…please-please…promise me…you'll take care of my son……for as long as you live-"
He Couldn't Stand It.
Walked Away….Crying.
His Sensei Died The Next Day.
Had I Known How To Save A Life
He Remembered….Sitting In Front Of The KIA Stone…..Punching Those 3 Bloody Names That Would Haunt Him Forever.
Let Him Know That You Know Best Cause After All You Do Know Best
"Asuma I'm Telling You…..Don't Take This Mission….This Is The Akatsuki We're Dealing With Here!"
"Kakashi Shut Up. I Heard You Tend To Do This….Give A Little Pep talk, and drag them down. It's Not Gonna Work On Me."
Try To Get Past His Defense Without Granting Innocence
"Asuma You're My Friend…I Can't Let You Throw Your Life Away Like This."
"Please….Just Because You Can't Take This Mission Doesn't Mean That I Can't!"
Lay Down A List Of What Is Wrong
"Look Asuma, I Couldn't Beat One Of Them, I Doubt You Can Take On Two Of Them. This Is The Akatsuki! No Anbu Drill!!"
"I'll See……"
Pray To God He Hears You
And You Pray To God He Hears You
"Whatever….I'll See You Later"
"Please…Please Come To Your Senses….."
Where Did I Go Wrong?
Kakashi Whished That He Did A Better Job At Persuading Asuma.
I Lost A Friend
Asuma Was Dead. He Was Gone. Even After The Thousands Of Warnings. For A Second Kakashi Thought That He Held Back.
Somewhere Along In The Bitterness
Kakashi Couldn't Even Remember When The Gap Between Them Had Formed.
And I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night
Once Again Kakashi Was The Only One Allowed To Visit His Friend In The Hospital.
Barely Breathing.
Poison Running Through His Veins.
Bloody.
Broken.
He Couldn't Stand It.
He Walked Away Crying.
Asuma Died The Next Day.
Had I Known How To Save A Life
Kakashi Thought There Was Absolutely No One Left To Loose In His Empty Existence. Thinking Just Wasn't Good Enough.
As He Begins To Raise His Voice You Lower Yours And Grant Him One Last Choice.
"Kakashi-Sensei?"
"Yes, Naruto?"
"In A Week I'm Going On My First S-Rank Mission On My Own! "
"What?! You're-WHAT??"
"Come On Sensei! How Am I Ever Gonna Become Hokage Without Completing S-Rank Missions On My Own?!"
"…..Fine……But Be Careful Ok?"
Drive Until You Loose The Road
Kakashi Was Very Very Worried About Naruto. So Worried He Couldn't Bear Looking At The Boy. He Stayed Away.
A Break with the Ones You Followed
Suddenly Kakashi Remembered What Happened The Last Five Times He Was Worried About Someone. He Was Very Worried About Naruto.
He Wound In One Of Two Things You Admit To Everything Or He'll Say He's Just Not The Same
"Naruto Look I'm Saying This From Experience….S-Rank Missions Are Difficult….And I'm Worried About You"
"Sensei…I'm Not 13 Anymore! I Can Do This!"
And You Begin To Wonder Why You Came
"I'm Leaving For The Mission Sensei! See Ya!"
Kakashi Wondered What Was The Point Of Putting So Much Effort Into Persuading Him If He Where To Leave Anyway.
Where Did I Go Wrong?
Why Couldn't I Stop Him?! Kakashi Thought To Himself Over And Over.
I Lost A Friend
Not Only Did He Loose A Student…But A Son.
Not Only Did It Break A Soul….But Also A Promise.
Somewhere Along In The Bitterness
It Just Occurred To Kakashi That If He Took The Mission….Then Naruto Wouldn't Have.
And I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night
Kakashi Hated Being Once Again The Only Visitor In Naruto's Hospital Room. "…Sensei….."
Same Blonde Hair
Same Blue Eyes
Same Lack Of Chakra
Same Bloody….Broken Body
Kakashi Couldn't Stand It
He Walked Away…Hysterically Crying
Naruto Died The Next Day
Had I Known How To Save A Life
Kakashi Realized That There Was No Longer Much Of A Purpose For Him To Be Alive. So He Broke Open One Of The Many Empty Bottles Of Sake From The Floor Of His Dark Empty Apartment. And Grabbed A Shard Of Glass, And Put It Next Onto The Skin On His Wrist. He Gave The Shard A Small Jab……..And Let The Sickening Darkness Take Him.
"This Wouldn't Have Happened…..
Had I Known
How To Save A Life"