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Loving Her
I see Alex with Seth again; I see them together all the time now. In my sleep and while I'm awake. It's the worst kind of torture, almost like it was carefully hand-picked for me. My own personal hell. Especially when I see him sneaking into her dorm at night. "What are they doing together? They can't be doing…that." I shake the thought out of my head. "I swear to the gods if he hurts her I won't be able to control myself."
I'm afraid that I don't have the restraint to keep myself away from her anymore. Every time we get in close proximity of each other I have to hold myself back from reaching to touch her face, hands, anything visible. It grows harder for me to do each time. "It's wrong Aiden!" I tell myself. "In fact it's illegal, it's forbidden a pure and a half can't have a relationship. Think of what would happen to Alex if you got caught she'd be forced into her worst fear, servitude. Are you willing to risk something that isn't even yours to risk?" No I wasn't. I couldn't do that I'd seen it happen enough times in my life, and each time the pure gets off with a warning while the half got whisked away into servitude or worse. That won't happen to Alex; as long as I'm alive, I'll fight to keep her free will. Even if she doesn't know it.
I unconsciously reach and grab on to the necklace around my neck. Smiling while fitting the guitar pick that usually sits above my heart in my hand, rubbing my thumb over the smooth surface, I try to tell myself that I'm not keeping it because I still love her; I keep it because she must have spent a lot of time thinking about this present. Planning and searching for just the right pick to express to me how much she valued me in her life. Of course I know that when I tell myself this I'm lying. I know I have it because I couldn't bear not having a piece of her with me all the time. That's when a little voice in my head says "you have it because you love her and if you died right then and there at least you'd die with a piece of her." And I can't help but agree with that voice because it's completely and utterly true.
The hardest part about it is I know it hurts her to look at me, knowing she told me what she did. Knowing that I told her I didn't feel the same way. But she has to know I was lying, she has too. I can't help myself but make it so obvious. Staring at her longingly and lovingly. Anyone could read the signs. For God's sake even Deacon knows! I sigh facing the inevitable. I've fallen for Alex, fallen so hard I can't go back. I should have known better, being the calculating person I am, I should have known that everything that falls - gets broken.
A/N!
Hello everyone! I thought I'd step away from Percy Jackson for a little bit and write something for The Covenant Series because I can't help but love this story and the characters :) A few of you have asked I write another Alex/Aiden story so here it is just for you. Leave a comment with your thoughts! Thank you!
~A_LovesHP