A/N: This is a poem I wrote dedicated to my friend Josh. he committed suicide 9/12/11. I'm really going to miss skateboarding with you, and you never failed to make me smile. You were like a brother to me. I know your in a better place, and I see you again someday.
I'll Be Fine Tomorrow
There's no smile to pretend you're okay, no way to make it through the day.
Long school days waiting till the end, depression settles down deeper in.
Laughter becomes custom and mandatory to ease the pain, but there's no smile, nor joy, or happiness gained.
Feeling alone though stuck in a crowd, there's just no way to live this down.
Life is no day by day, consider the minutes, because maybe in a second you just won't be in it.
I see happiness too much, but do they all pretend too? I wish they never left me alone, to feel like I was the only one with this point of view.
I hide the scars that no one can see, for they show my one option to become an escapee.
There is no bottle to hide behind, no pills to call it quits, my depression just took over, and won the battle of self wits.
But don't worry, for today I borrowed my smile, the smile you let me borrow.
But I don't want to give it back, because then I know I'll be fine tomorrow.