Authors' note:
Hello there fellow Klaineshippers. In this fic Kurt still goes to Dalton and yeah. I don´t really know much about this stuff (eating disorders and such) so please forgive me if this contains any huge mistakes.
Disclaimer: I do not, under any circumstances, own glee or any of its supermegafoxyawesomehot characters, Ryan does..
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Kurt eyed Blaine suspiciously, trying to find out what was going through the curly haired head as he once again shuffled his plate further away from his seat.
"What´s up dude ?" Wes asked, concern flicking through his oh-so dapper features. Kurt couldn't have asked a better question actually. Because something wasn´t right with his boyfriend. He always claimed himself for being tired or for feeling sick. His laugh was also different, so shallow and distant.
"Nothing, I´m perfectly fine" he exclaimed in a rush voice, something very close to fear showing in his gorgeous hazel eyes.
"Then, why haven´t you been eating in like two weeks man. You´re starting to look so fragile and even I can clarify that and I´m not a very good taker to apply" Wes said, this time in a low voice that almost came out in a whisper. Kurt, being his concerned and loving self, had of course noticed the weight loose and it startled him more than anything at the moment. Wes was right, he hadn´t been eating a proper meal in what... two weeks?
"I´ve been eating" Blaine hissed before taking a bite out of some small sandwich he strongly believed would count as lunch. It was even a smaller meal than anything Kurt had ever had and that says lot considering he´s not really the food loving guy who Blaine, of all people, used to be. "…But now if you´ll excuse me. I have to go work on that history essay that´s due today" he spoke up before, once again, showing off one of those dapper smiles that lately never seemed to reach his eyes. "I´ll see you guys later." He shouted as he walked out of the cafeteria in a rush, trying his best not to stumble over his own precious feet.
"Okay" David started, turning his attention towards his fellow friends as the three boys sat gathered around a small table in the back of the room, now alone. "Something very strange is up with him and it´s not something good" David's chocolate eyes burning in Kurt´s own.
"Tell me about it" Kurt stated.
"Have you guys noticed how small he´s gotten. I mean, he´s not like tall or anything but I mean. He almost looks like a little kid and his blazer is starting to look very… unflattering on him." The three boys nodded, hurtfully aware of the situation their best friend, and Kurt's boyfriend´s, was in.
"Maybe someone should follow him?" Wes pointed out, hands clasped together in an attempt to calm his freaking nerves down.
After a few seconds of glare exchanging and thoughts going through each of the boy´s minds Kurt finally piped up.
"I´ll do it" He said in a low tone, not wanting to show how much this situation actually got to him. Blaine was everything he had, his life and he was not ready to lose all of that. But the one thing that actually scared him the most was that Blaine hid something huge from Kurt, and Kurt felt frustratingly hurt by the fact that Blaine wouldn´t let him break down those walls he had put up all those years ago at his old school.
"Okay-"David said after getting Wes´s approval. "When does your next class start?" He looked as his Rolex watch then up into Kurt´s sea blue eyes.
"In like half an hour, so I have plenty of time. " Kurt said before he slowly, but firmly, picked up his message bag and hung in over his shoulder. "I´ll get back to you two." And with that he left the table in a hurry. Anxiously walking through the blazer filled room.
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When Blaine had left the laughter and Kurt behind, his calm pace changed into a rough run. He felt disgusting, he could still taste the damn sandwich in his mouth and the whole scene just made him feel incredibly sick and grossed out.
He ran through the common rooms, into the dormitory session and to room 286, his and Kurt´s room. He sighed before he entered. Everything looked just normal to him even though things felt so incomprehensible different. Kurt´s bed was made, their desk was covered with sheet music from last night´s Warblers practice and even the curtains that Kurt every morning opened to awake Blaine was drawing to each side of the huge window. Despite all of that Blaine could still feel a cool breeze fill the room and bring chills down his spine.
He turned left and entered their bathroom, walking over the mirror. He looked his reflection in the eyes, his ugly stupid eyes. After what felt like hours he continued on to the second to ugliest thing, his nose, his huge MASSIVE nose that he hated so much it hurt. He never like the way he looked. He was hobbit-is and his damn curls never seemed to agree with the huge amount of hair gel that Blaine, every morning, tried to tame them with. He didn´t like his strange colored eyes or the shape of his dark eyebrows either.
With a sigh, he slowly turned his attention to the toilet he feared so much. Even through something in his mind always told him that it was a very stupid and un-dapper idea something bigger, maybe his heart, always seemed to come up with a perfectly fine excuse to puke after every meal.
And that´s what he did next, he heaved up every bit of that disgustingly looking, and tasting, sandwich and Blain wouldn´t have to lie if anyone asked if it felt nice. Because it did, for the moment but afterwards he regretted doing it just as much as always.
He pulled himself up, not bothering to flush the toilet just yet because Kurt wouldn´t be coming until four in the afternoon so he had plenty of time to clean up, just like he always had because Kurt didn´t know. And that kind of hurt Blaine just a tiny bit more because it would feel nice to have Kurt´s warm and strong arms wrapped around his fragile body and just hold him together. But of course, Blaine being himself, would never EVER let Kurt find out about how bad he actually felt and how serious the disorder had gotten.
He crawled into a ball on the cold, tile floor, and let the tears of loneliness and disappointment fall freely down his livid cheeks.
Just as he was about to calm himself down, something rather beautiful interrupted him with a warm and safe embrace. Blaine couldn't dare to look the perfection in the eyes and that just made him cry even harder.
"Blaine" Kurt´s soft and wonderful voice whispered. " I´m here for you. I am now and I´ll always be. I need you to remember that." Blaine shivered slightly when Kurt kissed his wet cheek quickly before turning all of his attention towards Blaine´s shaking body and heartbreaking sobs.
"Shh, everything´s going to be fine, Blaine. Everything´s going to be just fine." And just hearing Kurt say those words made Blaine´s heart skip a beat.
Was it really going to be fine? He wasn't sure but now that Kurt had managed to break down the walls of insecurity, maybe it was a possibility.
So the first chapter´s up.
I just have to say that I already miss watching Glee every Tuesday and it hasn´t been been two weeks since the last episode of season two ended... Goosshh, I´m so screwed.
Anyways: Please review and all that jazz.
Hugs!