Unconditionally & Irrevocably.

Chapter 1: Goodbyes and hellos.

PREFACE:

I never, ever thought about how I would die. Even though I've had enough reason to, having been raised by a vampire. And of course having a vampire boyfriend, to who I am the La Tua Chante. I know I only met him because I decided to move back to my resentful hometown of Forks. However I don't regret my decision. If life gives you a dream so far from your expectations, is it really fair to grieve when it unexpectedly comes to an end? Besides, I was dying because of the one I love. That's a good way to die, isn't it? Noble even.

January 15th Sunday 2012

My name is Isabella Marie Swan. I'm a drama queen and I'm a shopaholic. I have brown eyes and brown hair that is naturally straight, my hair is also elbow lengh. I'm 5'4 in height, and I weigh 115 pounds. I'm also only 17 years old. The story I'm about to tell you all is a totally romantic love story, which all began on January 15th 2012.

It was eight o'clock in my astonishing city of Phoenix, Arizona. And that day was the day I exiled myself back to my hometown of Forks, Washington. I had a plane to catch in just three hours, but first I had to get dressed and ready and go say goodbye to my family. I went into the wash room of the hotel and brushed my teeth then braided my hair into piggy tails. I went to my bag of things I had packed for the night. I was in a hotel because the night before my step dad, Phil turned my mother into a vampire and I had to stay away because my blood is more irresistable than others, apparently. I threw on my knee lengh pearl white skirt and my pearl white eyelet lace shirt. After I had done my make up (Pink eye shadow with cherry red lipstick and of course the basics). I looked in the mirror for a few minutes before I headed to the lobby. I was already checked out thanks to Phil so I just left right away. I had to go across the street to get my like totally amazing red Mercedes Guardian, and off I went.

When I got to a clearing near the airport I stopped and got out of my car so I could say my goodbyes to my family.

Only my step dad, blood sister, half sister and one of my step brothers were there. Phil, Gabriella, Mirabella, and Maddox. My other step brother is Michael. My step dad, Phil has brown hair like me and my mother, he is about 6ft and he was born in 1970. Gabriella is my blood sister. She looks a lot like me, she's like my little mini me. She is a little shorter than me, even though she is only 13 years old. My half sister, Mirabella has brown hair and blue eyes like our mother. She is 4'1, and is eight years old. Then there is Maddox, my step brother who is a vampire. He was changed two years ago when he was 20 years old. He has brown hair like his dad and is just an inch or so shorter than him.

" Hey". I said, tears already filling up my eyes.

Don't get me wrong, I didn't want to leave, but I knew I had to for my saftey, as well as my family's. Wordlessly everyone came up to hug me, everyone except Gabriella. I looked at her just like everyone else did, but my eyes were filled with sadness because hers were filled with anger and pain.

I felt extreme pain well up inside my heart and soul as I watched her. Phil looked at me with extreme pity.

" Don't worry Ella, she'll come 'round". he said putting his arm around my shoulders.

" I hope so". I replied hopelessly, I knew she was just upset that I was leaving her for the first time in like, ever! But it still totally hurt.

" Come on, I have something for you"

I saw him reach into the back seat of his car (A 1940 Lincoln Zephyr Continental Convertible) and pull something out that fit in the palm of his hand, all I could tell from where I was standing was that it was black and fluffy, and I mean really fluffy! Then it moved and I knew it was alive! He walked towards me.

" Put out your hands and close your eyes" he ordered excited, but firmly (Since it was me). I obeyed him and then felt his cold hand touch mine, and then fluffiness.

" Okay Ella, you may open your eyes" I could hear the smile in his voice and as I looked down into my own two palms, I gasped.

There in my hands was the cutest small black kitten I have ever seen and as I turned it over I realized it had only a little bit of white on its chest, and 'it' was a she.

" Oh Phil! She's beautiful, thank you! Thank you so so much!" I said tears filling my eyes again as I threw my arms around him, his arms envoloped me and I could tell at that moment that he didn't want me to go either.

" You better be careful"

" I will be"

" Because Maddox and I will not be there to protect you"

" I know, I promise I'll be careful" I closed my eyes and held him tighter trying to remember the feeling and the glorious smell of his skin.

He pushed me away and kissed my forhead, then Maddox came forward and hugged me as well. I felt him take a big sniff of my alluring scent then he laughed and moved away.

" You smell 'eatable', like usual" he smirked, flashing his vampire fangs.

I laughed, " You know it's going to be totally strange not having someone tell me how 'eatable' I smell everyday"

At that everyone laughed including Mirabella. Then she stopped and looked up at me, tears running down her face. I kneeled down beside her so we would be level.

" I'm going to miss you" I hugged her as I said this and she began bawling.

" Oh Bells don't cry, it's not goodbye after all. It's I'll see you soon"

" No it's not! Mommy won't be calm for at least a year!"

I looked at her with pity while I felt pain fill my heart and soul again.

" Maybe she'll get over her newborness faster than that" I said, wiping her tears, but then we both heard Phil fake cough behind us. And She cried louder.

" Listen, we can still call each other and webcam, right?" I asked her, she stopped crying when I said that.

" Everyday?" she said hopefully her face beaming.

" If that is what you want" I smiled at her and got up while ruffling her hair.

Phil picked Mirabella up.

" What will you name your new pet?" Phil asked. I had completly forgotten about the cute, small, black kitten in my hands.

I thought for a moment.

" Ara!" I answered. I kissed my new pet and walked towards my car, as I was about to get in, I couldn't help, but turn.

" Goodbye everyone".

I got in and drove away watching them as I left. Then I saw Gabriella running into the street, but I didn't turn around, even as I watched Phil pulled her out of the way of the speeding cars. I cried all the way to Forks.

How am I going to stay away from them for a year? I thought,

And that is the earliest I will be able to see them! Never mind that I will be in the town I loath with my entire being. Oh well, the good thing is I am going to be seeing my dad for the first time in like, three years. I will be spending some quality time with him, it will be good... I hope.

5:00 pm.

It was five by the time I arrived at my father's house. A small, two story, two bedroom house. With one bathroom and an ajoined kitchen and living room. Definetly not the kind of home that I'm used to.

" Well this is it Bells" my dad said while he slammed the cruiser door.

My father is the chief of police in this small town, where it rains constantly. It is in fact the most rainy town in the United States, yeah I know right? I was trading clear blue skys and 75 degree weather for cold, wet and green. Very green! I know green is good and all, but I don't know how I lived through it as long as I did before I met him (Hint hint, the 'boy'friend). I had spent a month every Summer in Forks since I was seven, but I hadn't been here since I was 14. I would have rather been slaughtered by my own mother than be here of all places.

" Dad, Phil is sending me down the rest of my belongings soon" I mentioned as he took my bags inside.

" Oh... so you mean this isn't all of your stuff?"

" Obviously"

" Oh wow... ok"

I smiled at his obvious breathelessness.

He has not seen me in three years, does he not remember me at all? Did he ever even know me in the first place? I thought.

My old resentment began to come back so it best if I took my belongings upstairs, but of course I couldn't. I had to completly redecorate my old bedroom so I put my belongings back in the hallway and sat on the stairs waiting for time to end.

January 16th Monday 2012.

The next day was my first day at my new high school and boy was I nervous! When I got up, I threw on white skinny jeans and a white t-shirt. I kept my hair casual, something I usually don't do. My dad drove me to school tbecause I found out the night before that I couldn't have my car until this weekend. Great, huh? Nothing slows down traffic like a cop. When I got to school (Which is off the high way, like everything else in this town) my dad wished me good luck as I walked into the office. The lady gave me my schedule and a map, she was very helpful so I hoped I wouldn't be walking around with a map in front of my face all day like an idiot. Not that I thought I was going to fit in anyway. On the way to my first class though a guy named Eric (A guy who later became my friend) came up to me.

The guy had black hair, he was about 6'3 and from the way he looked I guessed he was the overly-helpful, geeky, chess club type.

" Hi, you must be Isabella Swan, right?"

" Yes, hello"

" I'm Eric, the eyes and ears of this place. I'm here if you need anything, even a shoulder to cry on" he smiled as he said this, obviously trying to be cool and flirt.

" Um... I'll keep that in mind"

He smiled and continued to talk to me as he walked me to english.

By lunch I was getting used to my new surroundings. I had an acquaintance (Someone who has also become a close friend). I thought her name was Angela so I sat with her at lunch. Along with Eric, a girl named Jessica (Another close friend), and a girl named Lauren (A frienemy).

Angela, I think has always been very beautiful, from what I've seen anyway. She has dark brown hair, and brown eyes. She is the same height as Phil (6ft) and has amazingly clear skin. Her personality is kind, shy, and insightful. Jessica is more like me, girly I mean. However, she actually looks the part (Her physical appearence). She has straight, brown hair and blue eyes. She is about 5ft. Lauren is pale blonde, with green eyes. She is about 5'6.

As I was eating, a new face came up and sat beside me.

" Hey Isabella" The guy said.

" Hey" I answered akwardly.

" Mike!" Eric exclaimed, " I see you met my home girl Isabella" He looked at Mike jealously.

" Oh your home girl?" he sounded jealous as well and that was when I remembered that he was the guy that I had been talking to during spanish.

Oh no! They both like me! I thought.

Then another guy came and kissed me on the cheek before pulling Mike's chair out from under him.

" My girl!" he had said in a strange fake accent that I didn't regonize. He ran away and Mike ran after him.

Just in case your wondering, the guy that had kissed me (A current friend named Tyler) was dark skinned, has brown eyes and black hair. The guy named Mike had pale blue eyes, blond hair, a baby face, and is altogether good looking

" Oh my God" the girl named Jessica spoke, " You're like the piece of candy everybody wants"

I laughed at how ironic that comment was, but then I saw them. Vampires. Vegertarian vampires. At my new school.

" Who are they?" I asked.

" Those are the Cullens" Jessica answered following my gaze.

" They keep to themselves though" added Angela.

" Yeah cuz their freaks!"

" Why are they freaks?" I asked.

" They're all togather, and I mean 'together'"

" They're the foster children of Dr. Cullen and his wife" Angela added again.

" Well that's like totally nice of them, to take in all those older children like that"

Jessica laughed, " Dr. Cullen is some foster parent slash match maker. I don't even know if that's legal, do you?"

" Of course it is, I mean they're not actually blood related" Angela answered defensively, I got the feeling I could really get to like her.

" But they live together, it's weird. They're technically married already.

" Anyway, Dr. Cullen is like a matchmaker and foster parent since his wife can't have children"
" Maybe he would adopt you Isabella" Angela joked, to break the ice.

I couldn't help, but laugh, " Oh I would just love that!"

The others began laughing too, but then the fifth and last of the Cullens came into the lunch room.

" Who is he?" I asked astounded.

" Oh he's Edward Cullen, he's the only one who hasn't been matched up"

" Now I would really, REALLY like Dr. Cullen to adopt me!"

" He's only single because he doesn't date" she sounded upset, had she asked him out before?

" He's been asked out many times, but apparently no one here's good enough for him, so don't waste your time"

" I wouldn't dream of it" I said nervously, but I couldn't stop looking at him.

Just like he couldn't stop looking at me. Wondering why he couldn't read my mind even though I could suddenly read his (Reasons will be explained later on so don't fret). His mind wasn't what kept me looking at him though.

He had bronze hair, he looked slightly taller than Phil, and he was amazingly handsome. However I couldn't help, but feel that he couldn't be older than me.

Mike walked with me to my next lesson, which was biology. There I saw Edward Cullen again, but when the fan blew my scent towards him he looked like he was going to freak out.

Oh no! was my only thought all lesson. And murdering me and perhaps the rest of our class was his.

When the bell rang Edward Cullen ran out of the room as fast as he could without attracting attention, well... anybodys, but mine.

My next and last class was gym, we were playing volleyball, but they didn't make me play or dress down. At the end of the day I went to the office and saw Edward Cullen there trying to switch to another class, but he couldn't. I heard him contemplate killing the secretary and me, but he just ran out of the room. As did I, but I ended up running the other way. My dad picked me up and I tried not to cry until late that night, at the very least.

I felt so confused and I had no idea why. I saw this random guy who seemed to hate me and I couldn't stop thinking about him? That just wasn't right for me. I know I'm a drama queen, but I've never been into guys until that day (I never was and never will be a lesbian). I just didn't believe in love, never mind love at first sight or at least I never thought that I'd be one of the lucky few who found it. I had no idea what to do. I didn't even do anything to make him hate me, I mean sure I'm human and he's a vampire, but if he hated humans he wouldn't be a vegetarian vampire. So I couldn't stop wondering what exactly was going on.