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Broken, broken not mended. Stale like fragile glass, torn in two by the tom that lay only feet away from me. Dead; that's what he was, and I was the one who put him there. I am a monster. I snarled looking around the plains my head bowed low. He did this. He made me do this. I had to keep reminding myself, Windclan only a few fox lengths away, could hear me if I made more noise than a snarl. I am a monster. I felt like running away, my stomach already had. I stared at the dead body. He was still as handsome as the first time I had met him at that gathering, so many moons ago, even dead, he was much more handsome than any Windclan cat I had ever met. His golden pelt was covered in blood from the few moments of fighting that we had done before he had seen my face and I had lunged at his neck, my eyes filled with hatred my teeth razor sharp. I was the last to see him, before he died. I felt a chuckle rise in my throat. Pretty Cinderheart would have to get over it. I didn't care. Why would i? She stole my Lionblaze away from me. She stole him with her looks, and her voice that reminded me of the sun, whenever I heard it, fire started in my soul.
-=Moons before; Lionblaze=-
I woke up to the smile of Cinderheart beside me, God, she was beautiful. I smiled and licked her ear, I don't know why, but she seemed nervous. "W-what is it?" I said my voice cracking. "Can we go for a walk?" She said her eyes were drooped; she seemed to have been awake for a few hours. I sighed and walked out of the nest after her, she flicked her well groomed tail behind her slowly, and it dragged behind her in the grass. Something was up. I stopped once we were in the training hollow staring at her in the eyes. "What's wrong?" I smiled, my heart was heavy, and I thought I knew what she was going to tell me we can't be together anymore. But what came next, no one could have prepared me for. "Lionblaze… I am expecting your kits…" She looked down, almost embarrassed. Why should she be? I thought she loved me… "Really… Congrats! Oh my Starclan! Congrats!" Emotions overwhelmed me, some I had witnessed before; fear for her wellbeing, happiness, determination. And some were brand new to me; Fear for the kits wellbeing, fatherly instincts, and love for something I had to wait for. "H-have you spoken to Jayfeather?! Has he confirmed it?" I asked tilting my head. "No… I was waiting for you to wake up; I want you to be there for me… to comfort me." She smiled and padded closer to me, her eyes showed great emotion, and her whiskers twitched with unease. "Ok." I smiled… "Ok."
We padded into camp our tails twined and I blushed as cats looked over at us, especially Bramblestar. He had been the fatherly figure in my young life, and I still thought of him as that, even if I wasn't supposed to. I looked at Cinderheart and nudged her with my head, running to the medicine cat den. "Jayfeather?" I called my voice was filled with anticipation. Jayfeather's head popped out, his blind eyes were filled with question. "What is it Lionblaze?" His voice was calm, but I could tell he was worried. "It's Cinderheart. I want you to check to tell if she is going to have kits." Jayfeather's eyes widened in disbelief, and possibly jealously. "Really… you guys…" He shook his head and nodded. "Alright, I will… Bring her in… now." Jayfeather smiled a crooked smile, now I knew that there was jealousy in his eyes. I turned and nodded to Cinderheart to come into the den, and as she did Jayfeather's eyes immediately shot to her stomach. Hostility started to form in my mind. Was it so bad that my brother wanted to help? Or was it something else? Jayfeather took a step forward and frowned. "Lay down, I need to feel your stomach to see if there is kits in there." His eyes now hid all emotion, and I wasn't sure if I had imagined the jealous look. Cinderheart lay down, cautiously and Jayfeather slid his paws onto her stomach fur swiftly, as if he had done it 100 times. Maybe he had done it 100 times… I frowned. He looked up his eyes, still unseeing, focused on where I stand, as if he could see. "Lionblaze, come here." He smiled. I stood up and walked over, my paws trembled and Cinderheart's gaze met mine, encouragingly, she nodded to Jayfeather. I walked forward faster this time, until I finally was beside Jayfeather. "Put your paw's on her stomach." Jayfeather flicked his ear, half in annoyance, and half in unease. I picked up the unease he was letting off and slowly put my paws on Cinderheart's stomach. As I put my paws on her stomach a small kick pushed my paw back, my eyes opened wide. "Holy Starclan, Oh, um… Cinderheart… I felt one! I FELT ONE!" I yowled, my blood rushed through my veins, and it was adrenaline in my body. "How many are there?" Cinderheart muttered her face white with fear. Jayfeather looked at her and almost spat "It's not like I can see them! Why would you think I would know?!" His eyes flared with rage and Cinderheart jumped to her paws her eyes getting wet. "Cinderheart I..." Jayfeather began, but Cinderheart darted out, I watched from behind noticing her stomach was actually getting quite large, and I hadn't even noticed. "Jayfeather! Why would you do that!?" I yelled my voice suddenly filled with rage. I darted out after Cinderheart and I followed her scent to the Shadowclan boarder, she was looking at the stream, her eyes filled with sorrow. "Jayfeather didn't mean any harm." I muttered my eyes wide. "I DON'T CARE!" She yowled and she darted at me bowling me over and laying down on my shoulder. "It's ok…" I muttered. "I know… I'm just scared…" She said. "I am too." I said my voice sounding rougher than I intended, and slowly Cinderheart began to cry on my shoulder. "I'm sorry." She whimpered. Later on I looked at Cinderheart, her breath was coming in even breaths, she was asleep. My mind wondered around the memories of the day. Why was Jayfeather being such a jerk? Was he jealous? Why would he be jealous… "Lionblaze…" A voice broke the silence. It wasn't Cinderheart's for she was still asleep, but it frightened me that I hadn't heard before that this cat was near me, nor had I smelled it. "Lionblaze…" the voice repeated. Oh Starclan save me…
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Well then! What an eventful chapter. kind of... So Jayfeather is jealous... I kind of feel bad for him... but yeah. Whatever! Favorite, comment and get a Jayfeather plushy? Cinder x Lion :3 I love that... Maybe... Anyways! Love you all! thanks for reading! Bye 3