Set after the cabin. One Shot.

Summary: What if instead of Dimitri turning in the fight he dies. Then Rose's world crashes in on her. Her life starts to fall apart. This is her final goodbye to the world.

There's a question I ask myself every day.

"Why?" I whisper it every night, and every day, quietly, and silently as if it had never been asked at all. But I know it has. I sometimes rephrase the question.

"Why did Adrian leave?"

"Why did Lissa have to go?"

"Why did Eddie and Mia move?"

"Why didn't Christian go with Lissa?"

"Why did he die?"

But I know the answer, I always know the answer.

"He died." It's as simple, and clear, as that. This all happened after he left, after he died. He left me alone. He died, and so did I, inside. Soon I started not eating, talking, moving, training, or anything else I had done when he was here. It hasn't been that long ago that he died. It's only been seven days. It's been seven long, endless, pain-filled days of my life. I used to be amazing, beautiful, fast, independent, and happy.

Now if I look into the mirror I see a human, unable to tell if a girl or boy. I see a human, with dark brown eyes, almost black, but definably lifeless and absent. Lips gone pale from lack of nutrition, and frizzy brown hair, slick with grease and adorned with sweat. If you look closely enough you'll see claw marks up and down its arms, red as if just etched into its skin. You'll see pain written on her face and stamped on her forehead with an unrecognizable look in her eyes. This thing in the mirror trapping a young girl inside begging to get out.

But back to the present, you'll see a girl, on the floor curled into a ball pulling at her hair with a thoughtful look in her eyes.

I know what I'm doing tonight.

I have to.

Tonight is the only chance you have.

I am.

You're too afraid.

No you're not.

Her brain tells her too many things. She can't do this. The pain is too much. I walk into the bathroom, leaving the door wide open. I go to the shower and get what I need. Breathe. Without another idea I slide it gently across my arms, my wrists, my elbows, every one of my fingers. Little slits. And I smile. I smile a sickly sweet smile, a smile that scares the part of my brain telling me this is wrong. I start to feel dizzy and I sit down on the granite white floor. I start to cry harder than ever before.

I start to think. Dimitri. He died for you, why are you doing this? Why? He wouldn't want this. He died for you Rose, for you. Not for Lissa. Lissa. She left me. But why? She never told me. She only left me a note that said,

Dear Rose,

I can't see you like this. Forgive me.

Love,

Lissa

That's all she said. Eddie and Mia didn't even leave a note they just got up and left. It hurts, a lot.

I feel my soul slipping away.

I start to see something, or someone. I don't know who. But they held their hand out for me and I took it. I was slipping away from my body. I finally grasped their hands and felt callouses adorning his hand. Just then he started to fully form. Long brown hair, deep chocolate brown eyes, and his tall muscular frame.

He was just as I last saw him. I don't care if I was leaving everyone. I was going to spend eternity with Dimitri. Where I could hold him forever. And he could be mine.

What did ya think? Reveiw...for rose, and all the children...and world PEACE!

~Courtney~