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Game: Fahrenheit/Indigo Prophecy
Loving this game to bits! Too bad it doesn't have it's own category. ;A; Which is S-A-D. T^T Hope you enjoy the story. :) *heart* Next chapter's with Lucas and Carla! :D This story's going to be about three chapters long if I'm calculating this right. Hope you like this! *heart*
Empty Basket
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Carla's six months pregnant. It seems just like yesterday when she told me she was expecting. She's going to be a mom, I'm going to be a dad... This really is happening.
I know I should be happy. I'm fortunate enough that I get to have these blessings. A lot of people were having a hard time when they got back to the northern parts of the States, which makes me even more glad of what I have. I'm glad Carla's the mother of my child, and I love her with all my fiber, but... I'm afraid. How will the baby turn out? Technically, I'm dead, so... what will the kid look like? Would Carla be ashamed of our child? Ashamed of me? That I'm not the normal husband she deserves? Would the kid hate me?
Most importantly... will I hurt them? When I was young, I tend to drift away from people. Markus would try to get me to join with the other boys, but I never really fit in with them. Ever since my parent's death, I was always the loner throughout life. Now that I'm sharing my life with Carla... I'm scared that I'm going to do something bad to her, but... I'm just so glad that I met her. She's the anchor in my life that helps me stay and find a place in this world. She makes me feel like I belong somewhere. This is one of the reasons why I love her. Of course she would never be ashamed of me... She loves me. The only thing I regret was ever doubting her affection. She saved me from myself, which I hope I can repay her one day.
The only thing that's at the back of my mind is our child. Will I abandon it? Will it hate me that I'm not a proper father? What will it look like? Hopefully, I'll know in time.
Carla... Thank you so much for saving me. I love you... So much!