Title: I've Been There
Pairing: Mainly Finn/Sam, but not yet. Mentions of Rachel/Finn and Sam/ Quinn Sam/ Santana
Rate: T
A/N: Glee is not of my property, but that not a problem. Also it's a little story that I wanted to write because…just because. And this is probably somewhere between "Silly Love Songs", but it will be AU.
I hope you like, and feel free to comment
Chapter 1: Comparison.
I ask myself, is this love at all ?
When I need you most you let me fall
I'm always here at the side of your stage
Let you live your life pretend I'm okay
(Don't you know that this ain't over)
I'll be okay...
I'll hold you close we'll stay forever…
Finn heard Sam's voice from the door of the locker room, so he supposed that, once again, Sam was singing in the shower. But this time Finn knew it was different. The last time (or the first time) Finn found Sam singing in the shower he had a little lack of rhythm on his singing, but this time Sam's voice seemed to be about to crack.
Sam was sad, Finn could tell, but he wasn't exactly sure why. Truth to be told, he wasn't the smartest guy on earth, but he understood about pain and stuff, ha had been there before, for Quinn, for Rachel, even for himself and his popularity.
But why Sam was sad?
He heard then Sam voice fading followed by a little sob, and the sound of the water fading too. Finn wasn't sure to stay there and talk to Sam, that probably would be just weird, but he couldn't let Sam to be alone at his pain, because Finn knew that somehow he could help Sam, they were friends after all, isn't it?
When Finn felt a little bit more confident he decided to approach to where Sam was. By the time he spotted Sam, he was already dressed, and keeping his clothes in his locker, so he hawked to call Sam's attention, which caused to Sam to turn around and stare at Finn with blank expression.
"Umm, are you ok?" Finn asked nonchalantly, noticing the redness on Sam's eyes.
Sam just glared at him.
"I take that as a no" Finn said "is there anything that I can do to help you?"
"You're such a dumbass" Sam said in a low and angry tone.
"Hey, what the hell dude?"
"Don't play fool on me Hudson"
"What are you talking about?" Finn asked honestly confused.
"Now you're confused isn't it?"
Finn stared at Sam in silence trying to figure out Sam's annoyance "Why are so upset?"
"Stop it, or I'll kick your stupid ass"
"What? Why?" Finn asked
Then Sam jumped the bench of the corridor that separated them both and pushed Finn against the lockers "Stop acting even more stupid than you are!" Sam yelled at Finn's face.
"Dude, stop!" Finn struggled against Sam's grip.
"Now you wanna stop, but you didn't stop when you kissed Quinn, didn't you?" Sam yelled again.
So that's what this is about, Finn thought.
"Hey, that's not what happened, I've told you, she saved my life"
"I'm not that stupid!" Sam yelled even louder and pushed Finn harder against the lockers.
"Calm down Sam" Finn said calmly.
"No Finn, no!" Sam yelled, shaking Finn's body.
Finn struggled again to prevent a hit
"How could you do this to me, I thought you were my friend" Sam said letting go of his grip
"I am your friend Sam" Finn said, grabbing Sam's shirt.
Sam just separated from the contact, releasing Finn in the process, and turning around in his way to the door "Friends don't do that" Sam said before he exited the locker room, leaving Finn leaning against the lockers in shock.
When Finn arrived to Glee's rehearsal, everyone but Mr. Shue were already there. Mercedez was talking to Tina and Mike, while Brittany was chip chatting with Artie and then there was Santana laying on Sam's lap with Quinn staring at them in jealousy. Finn decided it wasn't the time to be anywhere near of Sam or Quinn by now, so he sat next to Rachel, who just smiled warmly at him, and turned her glance to the front when Mr. Shue arrived.
"Ok guys, this week…" Mr. Shue started to say, but Finn wasn't putting any attention to his words.
He was just thinking of how did Sam found out about their kiss, of course Santana burned them with the mono, but Sam didn't notice it right on that moment. Finn remembered that yesterday Sam and him were fine, so what made Sam to realize about the truth must have happen between last day and today. He could stop himself from feeling guilty about it, Sam was really hurt, he knew it because of the time he heard Sam at the locker room that morning.
"Finn, are you ok?" Rachel asked.
"What?" Finn said processing Rachel's words "Yeah, yeah I'm fine"
"Look, I know you're not ok, but it's ok if you don't wanna tell me, I get it" Rachel said.
"No, it's not that, it's just…"
"Finn, Rachel, are you listening to me?" Mr. Shue asked.
Both stared at each other "Yes Mr. Shue" Rachel answered.
"Right, anyway, as I was saying…"
The rest of the rehearsal passed uneventful, except for the constant glares from Sam to Finn. And because of it, Finn wished for a second that Kurt could be there to help him, but he had to wait 'til the night to talk to him.
While Finn walked to his locker after Glee, he saw Quinn waiting on his locker.
"Finn, can we talk?" she said when he was closer.
"Yeah, sure, what's going on?"
"Sam knows" she stated simply.
"I know" Finn answered.
"You know? How did you know?"
"He told me this morning"
"He told you?" Quinn asked surprised.
"Well, he kinda told me" Finn answered nervously.
"What do you mean?"
"He's mad, mad at me, and well, he was singing and I wanted to talk to him, but didn't worked and we kinda fight"
"What!"Quinn yelled.
"Chill, wasn't anything big"
"Finn, this is big, I cheated on Sam"
"I know" Finn answered while he was keeping his things on his locker.
"Then why you were fighting with Sam?"
"I wasn't fighting, he pushed me"
"Oh great, now it's his fault"
"I'm not saying that" Finn tried to defend himself.
"Oh, Finn please" Quinn said annoyed and rolling her eyes.
"Quinn, I'm telling you this is no one's fault" Finn said
Quinn looked at him quizzically "I want you to talk to him"
"What! He won't talk to me anytime soon" Finn objected.
"I don't care, we need to fix this, and soon" Quinn said turning around and walking away.
Finn just stared at the empty spot in front of him.
To: Sam
Can we talk? =/
Finn waited patiently for an answer, but seemed like Sam wasn't talking or texting to him, just like he said to Quinn early in the afternoon. He decided to call Kurt for some advice instead, so he dialed his number, and waited for him to answer.
"Hello?" Kurt answered sweetly from the other side of the line.
"Oh, hi Kurt, am I interrupting or something?"
"No, not at all, what's going on Finn?" he asked.
"Ummm, nothing important I guess"
"Then why are you calling?" Kurt asked clearly confused.
Finn stood in silence for a few seconds.
"Finn, are you still there?" Kurt asked.
"Yeah, yeah" he answered.
"What's happening? You seem a little bit more distracted that usual"
Finn kept silence again.
"Finn?"
"I need your help" Finn stated.
"With what?" Kurt asked genuinely concerned.
"I…I think…I kinda screw Sam's life"
"What do you mean?"
"I…I…"
"You…you…?" Kurt said facing Finn's delay.
"I kissed Quinn" Finn said closing his eyes because of the guiltiness that was invading him.
"That you what?" Kurt asked yelling.
"I kissed her"
"Why did you do that?"
"I don't know"
"Oh Finn, please, don't try to fool me and fool yourself, we both know you know why you did it"
"You're supposed to help me!" Finn reclaimed.
"I'm helping you!" Kurt replied
"Alright, I guess it's because I think I don't know, may be…"
"You still have feelings for Quinn"
"How did you know?"
"It's obvious!" Kurt said with an implicit duh on his voice.
"Well, it wasn't obvious for me" Finn said
"Oh Finn, sometimes you really amaze me"
"Anyway" Fin rolled his eyes "Sam knows"
"What did you expect? "
"I don't know may be more time for him to get to know it"
"It was a rhetorical question!"
"A what?" Finn asked confused.
"Forget it, did you tried to talk to Sam ?"
"He's not talking to me"
"Well, that's obvious too"
"Then why did you asked?"
"I had to know"
"Well, I'm telling you"
"You have to talk to him Finn, he's your friend, and if you don't want him to end exactly like you when Puck did the same to you, you should apologize"
"That's low dude" Finn said
"But it's the truth my dear"
"…"
"Anyway, gotta go, Blaine says that we have a little meeting with the Warblers"
"Ok, thanks Kurt"
"Anytime" Kurt said before he hanged off the phone.
Finn stood there, lying on his bed, with his phone in his hand staring at the ceiling, until the drowsiness invaded him. He opened his eyes again all of a sudden when his phone started to vibrate again, announcing an incoming message.
From: Sam
Don't think so.
Then Kurt's words echoed on Finn's head like a endlessly song. He had to get Sam to talk to him.
To: Sam
5 minutes, I feel really bad about this :(
Sam replied 10 minutes later
From: Sam
Glad you're regretting it.
To: Sam
So, can we talk?
It was 12:30a.m. Finn concluded that Sam's answer was a 'no' and got to sleep. Tomorrow he was going to try it again.
You don't want to be like Puck, Kurt's voice said in his head.
TBC
So, it's going to take a little while before next update, but please be patient, and comment :)