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Rating: T for swearing and some male on male action.
Sequel to: Who is your lover?
Point of view: Dougie's. First Person.
Pairing: Poynter/Jones
Disclaimer: I do not own McFLY. All events are made up and never happened.
Summary: A few years after the band split, Dougie is starting to put his life back together but is it to late to make things right again?

Buzz…Buzz…Buzz…Buzz…Buzz…Buzz…

I groaned and stuck my arm out from the confines of my blankets, reaching blindly around my bedside table in search of my vibrating mobile. I swatted around, knocking empty bottles and nick knacks off in my search until my fingers closed around the irritating machine.

I flipped it open and brought it to my ear, my face never leaving the pillow case. "Hello?" I mumbled, half my mouth buried in my pillow.

"Douglas Lee Poynter!" My mother voice blared through the speaker. "Are you still asleep at this hour?"

I reluctantly opened my eyes and groaned as I saw the sun shining merrily out the window. Rolling onto my back, I looked over at my alarm clock to see that I had once again slept through my alarm. It was nearly two in the afternoon and I had class in a little less than an hour. "No, I wasn't sleeping. I was, uh, studying." I lied, climbing out of bed and began my search for some clean clothes.

"I was hoping you'd come round and have lunch with me. Your sister is coming too." I thought she sounded unusually chipper. It wasn't everyday that Jazzie visited ever since she married and moved to The States. "It will be nice to have the whole family back together again."

I rolled my eyes. More like it would be nice to have me sitting in utter silence while mum and Jazzie talked about babies and how wonderful their lives are. "As much as I'd love to, mum, I'm already running a little late for class."

"Aw." She sighed. "Alright, love. I'll let you go then. Please, please, please call me when you get home."

"I will." I promised, knowing I wasn't going to keep it. "I'll talk to you later, mum."

I flipped the phone shut after another two minutes of her saying goodbye. I had finished dressing by then and I quickly grabbed my bag, wallet and keys as I walked out the door.

Four years had passed since my mistake. Less than a month after I moved into the flat Fletch had arranged for me, Tom called to say that Danny was actually asking about me and wanted to talk things out, with everyone.

It was a Friday. I remember that. Early summer but unseasonably warm for typical England weather. We all met up at the house and seemed like we could actually move on with things. Sure, it was awkward and I came into it knowing that things weren't going to be the way they used to be right away but I was willing to gain his trust again.

This is until Harry pulled me aside and begged me to be with him. When I refused, telling him that I would never be with him as long as I lived, he stormed back into the room and announced that he was leaving the band. I never saw him again after that.

As for the band, Harry's departure was the final blow for us. Even if we replaced him, it wouldn't have been the same sound, it would have destroyed us. We held a formal press conference the following day and announced that due to personal and private reason we were splitting up.

I didn't have the heart to leave the flat after that. I didn't want to start a new life. I wanted to keep as much of my past as I could. Danny and I haven't spoken since the press conference and the last phone call I got from Tom was two years ago. On my birthday.

Eventually, I had to get my life going, more so to get my mum off my back about why I wasn't hanging out with any of the boys. I didn't have the heart to tell her why we broke up or the events of our last tour. I told her that we were having musical differences and needed to explore other horizons.

I buried myself in work and schooling, shutting myself out from the real world.

The real world was too stressful and painful to live in.

So, that was chapter one! Thoughts?
I know it wasn't terribly interesting, just some boring background.

Like the last story, I'm going to do my best to post an add for it everyday but that may change since I'm also working on a Harry/Draco story as well as a Glee and another Pones story. (I have a very active mind! Ha!)

Hope you guys liked it!