A/N: Alright. I can't believe I'm doing this but I just read 'Where Will You Go' by 'phoenix in wonderland' (BTW: great story) and I started thinking about Ayanokoji and Haruhi. I realise that somehow Ayanokoji planned on Haruhi landing on top of her. This is my first songfic (although I've done a chapter and will continue to do chapters in Fragile Hearts with song lyrics WHICH I DO NOT OWN!) and it's also a one-shot. I'm going to make it into three-shot.
Summary: What if Ayanokoji was indeed jealous, but of Tamaki and not Haruhi? AyaHaru (I STARTED THIS. . . I think). In Ayanokoji's POV. OOC
Italic = Song Lyrics
"Speech Marks" = Speech
'Thoughts' = Thoughts
Disclaimer: I don't own 'Dilemma' or Ouran High School Host Club. I give my respects to those who do own them.
Chapter 1: Dilemma
I . . . love you,
And I . . . need you
Haruhi, I . . . love you,
I do . . . neeeeed you - but
It all started that fateful day. I'm supposed to fall in love with a handsome prince who will sweep me off my feet and whisper sweet nothings in my ear. Like Tamaki. So why am I falling for a commoner? From the moment I saw Fujioka outside the school gates on the first day of my third year I felt something strange. Something tugging on my heart and weighing it down and making it beat faster than it's ever beat before. I guess there was something about Haruhi's messy hair or how cute it was when those thick glasses he used to wear slid down his nose and I caught a glimpse of his big brown eyes.
No matter what I do,
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
No matter what I do,
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
Every moment after that I couldn't get Haruhi off of my mind. Even when Hani has one of his 'Cuteness Overload' moments (as my friends call them). Another thing wrong with me falling for Haruhi is that he is and underclassman by TWO YEARS! It would be fine if he was only a year younger than me but he isn't, he's TWO FRICKING YEARS YOUNGER! I hate myself.
I thought being around Tamaki would take my mind off of Haruhi, for a while it did. Then the day came when Haruhi was INSIDE the 3rd Music Room being perfect as he always was. Then Tamaki took off Haruhi's glasses and I got a full view of those perfect eyes. He's blind without them so I could stare without him noticing this one time. Oh, how innocent his eyes are . . . they're the kind of eyes you could lose yourself in for days. Not long after Haruhi had become a Host and I was dying to become his #1 Customer. But something held me back, probably Tamaki. I had to break it off with him.
Then Suoh had the NERVE to hug MY Haruhi right before my eyes as if I wasn't there. I mean, HELLO? Jealous person at two o'clock!
'Oh, he is gonna pay!' Was all that was running through my head.
Check it, check it, check it,
Uhh,
I met this dude and he just lives right up the block from me
And uhh, he got the hots for me the finest thing my hood did see
But oh no, oh no, he gotta a man
And a son, doh'ohhh, but that's okay
Cause I, wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e'rything mami hittin
And in no time . . . (no time) I . . .
I plan to make this wah-one mi-i-ne . . .
And that's for sure
Cause I, I never been the type to,
Break up a happy home
But uh, there's somethin bout baby boy I just can't leave alone
My chauffeur drove me home (aka my uncle's three story house in which I was living in because it was closer to the school) this one day and I was staring out the window when I saw him. Haruhi was opening the door of an apartment in a modest apartment building. Every day since then I made sure my window was down when we drove by his apartment.
Back to the past when I was falling harder and faster in love than I already was. My jealously only grew as Tamaki acted as if he and Haruhi were a couple . . . Uhh! I just get so mad! I'm alright with Hani acting as though Haruhi were his mother, I find that sweet that my darling Haruhi fits such a role perfectly . . . though I'd rather see him acting the father . . . It makes me blush just thinking about it!
I'm straying from the problem at the moment; Tamaki. I've devised the perfect plan. A perfect plan to capture the perfect heart of the perfect boy. I dropped Haruhi's things in the water fountain in outside and waited for him to go collect them. I was just about to go and help him collect everything, claiming that whoever did it just wanted attention and that Haruhi should ignore whoever did it (of course I would be lying about him ignoring me) but guess who ruined it! Tamaki Suoh! UGH! I can't believe it! Haruhi was looking for his wallet when Suoh stepped into the water and helped Haruhi search, claiming he 'didn't mind getting wet'.
No matter what I do,
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
No matter what I do,
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
I lay in my bed at my parents' Manor right now, restless. A lustful part of me wishes dearly that my sweet Haruhi was sleepy beside me. Both of us naked and at least one of my legs wrapped around his waist. Whereas the lonely part of me wanted him to be here beside me cuddling with me. I still cannot believe that I fell for a commoner but how could I not. He was so cute and had such a sweet melody when he spoke to me. I shiver yet again. I can't possibly . . . Father has a business associate in the guest bedroom down the hall . . . guess I'll have to supress the urge to scream Haruhi's name then.
Check it, check it, check it, uhh
I see a lot and you look and I never say a word
I know how princesses start actin trippin out here about they Hosts
And there's no way-ayy-hey, Haruhi gon' fight over
No day-hey-ame . . . as you can see
But I, I like your steez, your style, your whole demeanour
Back to when I wasn't banished from the Host Club. I guess I was very quiet whenever Haruhi came over with the tea. I did, however, make sure to compliment his skills and mention that I love Jasmine tea (almost as much as I love him). I just know that he kept it in mind because every time he severed my tea it was Jasmine, and just how I like it. The 'princesses' that Haruhi attended to were always squealing or crying in sympathy or even fainting half the time. But the fainting never fazed Haruhi one little bit, he just excused himself to grab a stick of celery and snapped it right above the fainters' nose. I wish he would do that whenever I fainted, but I don't faint. I smile politely and I continue my day. I specifically love how Haruhi would wear his uniform with a different aura than all the other Hosts. It was soooo alluring.
East coast, I know you shakin right
Down South, I know you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkin right, cause
Midwest, I see you swingin right
(You don't know what you mean to me)
Believe it or not, from the time Haruhi joined the Host Club to when I was kicked out lasted three months, the beginning of January through the end of March. I found out that his birthday was the 4th of February and that he didn't like swimming all that much. The Host Club took myself and several other lucky 'princesses' four places during those three months. The East Coast, down South, the West Coast and Midwest.
I wanted to approach Haruhi so bad the whole time but I could only smile and continue what I was doing out of anxiety. In the South there was this inflatable thing that Haruhi got dragged on by Hani. I believe it was called 'Free Willy' after the famous whale. You climbed up this foam ladder and at the top you slid down the 'tongue' of the whale before doing the whole thing all over again. It looked enjoyable but I just couldn't bring myself to enjoy it with someone as perfect as Haruhi.
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
No matter what I do,
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my boo,
Boy you know I'm crazy over you
The day soon came. The day I was kicked out of the Host Club. I had gone into the Club with a plan to confess to Haruhi that I love him and that Suoh didn't love him and was only interested because his lifestyle was new to Suoh. I had dropped Haruhi's bag out the window the day before. It went something like this.
"Oh, really?" I say sipping my tea, "That must've been terrible. I can't imagine what I'd do if my bag fell into the pond."
Haruhi just stared at me with those perfectly chocolate eyes.
"And you actually made Tamaki search that dirty, old pond with you. How astonishing. You do realise he's a blue blood and not a commoner, right?" That came out wrong!
Haruhi still remained silent. I decided to continue.
"You know the only reason he's paying attention to you is because he's trying to turn you into a gentleman," Haruhi came me a slight look of shock, "Don't start thinking he cares about you just because he's doting on you." Suddenly Haruhi's perfect eyes were hidden by his soft, brown locks.
"Now I understand," Oh, thank goodness, "You're jealous of me . . ." THAT'S NOT IT! I accidently moved my legs to stand but got them caught on Haruhi's. We tumble to the ground with him landing on top of me. I really liked how perfectly we fit in that position. Just like Ciel and Sebastian in Kuroshitsuji.
I froze but I heard my voice scream and cry for help. Then I was doused with water and I found myself begging Tamaki. He then lectured me before banishing me from the Host Club.
'No. No. No. NO! I can't be away from my darling Haruhi!' I heard myself call Tamaki an idiot as I ran away. I ran until I couldn't run anymore. I cried until I had no tears left to cry. I couldn't believe that I wouldn't be able to see Haruhi on a daily basis anymore and it hurt. Not like a tiny sting, it full on hurt. The exact same hurt I felt when I first laid eyes on Haruhi Fujioka.
You don't know what you mean to me
Don't worry my darling. We will be together some day. I'll make sure of it. And those idiots at the Host Club won't stand in my way.
REMEMBER! This is full of 'what if's'!