Strike
Prologue
When you're young you do crazy things like run away. That's what I did when I fell madly in love with Logan he was the total package good-looking a bit of a bad boy one of my favourite qualities in a guy. Mum and Dad hated him they said he was no good because he'd been stopped by the police a couple times for silly stuff like shop lifting, fighting just silly stuff really. We did everything together and he treated me like a princess and I didn't understand why people kept saying he was wrong for me even my friends said to stay clear. Logan told me they didn't understand us that they just didn't want us to be happy so we should run away from this whole drama it wasn't worth it. He told me he'd find us a big house and he'd get a job to support me that I wouldn't have to worry it would be fine. I was so caught up in this whole fantasy thinking we'd having that happily ever after that happens in the fairy tales when she runs away with her prince charming and live happily ever after so I said yes. One night I told Mum and Dad I was going to Aria's for the night and I'd be back in the morning. I met Logan at the subway and he told me he had sorted out a motel for a few nights and the apartment would be sorted out soon. I put all my faith in him he was all I was going to have from now on but I trusted him he made me so happy and I thought he was my knight in shining armour. The first few weeks were tough being thrown out of the motel because Logan refused to pay as most of our money had gone. We basically slept on the streets but he kept reassuring me things would be fine and I had nothing to worry about I was hesitant but when he held me for a embrace all of the worry disappeared. One night he came back with a guy and asked me to please be with him for the night so we could get some money he told me it wouldn't happen again it was just a one off thing I agreed because I loved him and didn't want to let him down. I cried after I felt so dirty this wasn't me it didn't feel right. The guy said we could squat somewhere and Logan could sell some gear to get us by I really didn't want him to do it. He started using some and he completely changed hitting me and swearing telling me I was worthless just making me feel small. When I saw him I didn't recognise him anymore he wasn't the Logan I knew I could tell he didn't love me anymore and I was just there for him to control. I got pregnant and when I told him he hit me right in the stomach and I lost it shortly after. To be honest I didn't want to bring a child into this it didn't deserve it but I was still hurt. He didn't really like me going out unless it was to get him something. The guys were always over and they made me feel so uncomfortable touching me but Logan didn't say anything he brought girls over and I knew what he was doing with them but I couldn't leave he'd find me and he'd do anything he didn't care I was just merchandise used for when he was in trouble. I was so stupid to think this would be a fairy tale this was a nightmare and this was my life I didn't have and qualifications because I didn't finish school my family and friends had no idea where I was Logan took my phone he didn't allow me to keep one probably scared I'd use it to get away. He is rarely here always out on jobs and do other illegal stuff coming back drunk and insulting me making me feel small. I honestly don't remember the last time I had a decent conversation. But when you're young you do crazy stuff right, little did I know it would take a bad turn and this would be my life now I don't recognise myself anymore my personality has gone I'm not the Alex I youst to be I'm not sure who I am really I'm just a person who died a while ago I guess.