I put on my shoes and left the cold dungeons, my insomnia letting me receive no sleep as usual. It started to get worse as I learned who finally arrived this year, Harry Potter. I saw the boy today, his first day of his first year here at Hogwarts.

Immediately my feelings of anger returned as I remembered James and his gang of dammed Marauders... and then... Lily.

I strolled down the corridors. I clutched my hand to my chest, the pain flooding my heart, Lily. You are dead but I still love you so much, how could I ever forgive myself... this pain, damn it all to hell! Damn the Dark Lord for killing the only thing I ever loved! Damn that James for ending up with her! Damn her son for having her eyes! Damn myself for calling her a Mudblood. But I could never hate Lily.

I opened a door and immediately recognized where I was. The room was empty, except for a tall object in the middle of the room. I walked over to it, my robes flowing behind me as usual. I slowly pulled the sheet off of it, the mirror.

I knew what I would see.

I looked into it, and surely she appeared.

Lily.

"Lily!" I softly cried, reaching out to her, only to be stopped by the glass.

Oh yeah, it was not actually her. The mirror only provided us with an image of what we truly wanted.

I looked at her, her smoldering green eyes, her beautiful flowing red hair, her fair skin, her tall lean attractive figure, I missed her so much.

She put her hand to the mirror, as did I.

All I felt was the glass, the glass of this cursed mirror that only brought pain and sorrow to me.

"Lily, I saw your son today..." I said, well aware I was just talking to myself.

She smiled at me, oh how her smile melted my heart. Her full pink lips in such a joyous expression, showing her perfect teeth. Her eyes lit up, it seemed like they were dancing.

"He has your eyes you know..." I continued in a soft tone, letting a small smile also come to my face, but it faded into more sadness quickly.

My throat tightened, my eyes stung and started to water.

"...I love you so much..." I got out with my voice not betraying me yet.

She nodded and continued to smile, a bit of worry in her eyes as the tears began to leak out from my eyes.

"Severus, stop crying." I hissed at myself, my voice cracking and looking away from her to wipe my eyes quickly.

I looked back at her and smiled to reassure her I was going to be okay.

She smiled, it warmed me up and I stood back, taking one last look at her before I left.

I inhaled deeply and let out a shaky sigh, giving her a goodbye wave I headed out into the castle halls again. I could finally go to sleep, crying takes a lot of energy out of you.

I winded my way into the dungeons and reached my room, I sat on my bed and thought. My hand curled into a fist in my robe around my wand.

"Expecto Patronus." I whispered, the silver shimmery doe made its way into my room with the mist.

She made her way over to me, I slowly reached my hand out to her, but she was fading.

My brain was fogging over and sleep was wining, my wand was put under my pillow.

She faded as my conciseness did, but the tears kept flowing.

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