Afraid to Sleep
By: Audrey
Rated: PG
Summary: Liz's reaction after hearing about Tess's pregnancy.
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We slept in this room together
But not you're gone
It's so quiet,
I'll turn the TV on
I stared at the remote blankly. I turned the TV on. Tears flooded my eyes, making it hard to see. I wiped them away, but after I realized it was pointless, that the tears would keep on coming, I stopped.
We lived in this room together
We painted the walls
Now time doesn't stand still -- it crawls
Memories came flooding back to me...Tears poured down my cheeks, and I shut the TV off. Would I ever be able to forget about Max? Would I ever be able to live my life? Would these horrible tears go away? Time passes so slowly these days...
My tears stop. I stare at my wall for what seemed like forever. I was so tired...I crawl towards my bed. My hands grip the rough material of my blanket, but they slide. All of a sudden, I start to sob loudly. I lift myself slowly, but I am not able to move. My hands just keep on sliding, my cries continue, and I fall to the floor.
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
My tears stop for good. My eyelids are heavy, I haven't slept for two days. I almost fall asleep, but I shake my head. I can't fall asleep. I'll dream of
him- us. There is no us, I tell myself. It was a lie...
I never realized how much I was in love with you
Till you started sleeping with someone new
Last night I dreamed again, and you were there
You kissed my face; you touched my hair
You slept with Tess. Why? Did you really love her? Did you love her all along? Did you just use me all along? I know you think I slept with Kyle, and you were supposed to think that. But, something inside me, hoped that you wouldn't think so. That you would know me better than that, know that I wouldn't possibly want to sleep with Kyle. That you wouldn't drop the subject, but force me to tell you. I hoped. I wanted you to know I loved you, and I still do. That's my problem...I can't stop...
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
I don't know what to do. Will I be like this for the rest of my life? Will I ever be able to go to sleep?
Lyin' alone in the darkness with a memory in my head
There's a big hole where my heart is
And a lonely feeling rolling 'round my bed
There is a horrible aching feeling where my heart is...you broke it Max! You broke it again...I trusted you! I loved you! And then you go and sleep with Tess...You scarred me for life, I know I will be miserable for the rest of my life, I know I will never love again, I know I will be lonely till I die...
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
Oh, Max...I love you...and my dreams...they kill me, they break my heart over and over and over again...
I'm afraid to sleep
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By: Audrey
Rated: PG
Summary: Liz's reaction after hearing about Tess's pregnancy.
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We slept in this room together
But not you're gone
It's so quiet,
I'll turn the TV on
I stared at the remote blankly. I turned the TV on. Tears flooded my eyes, making it hard to see. I wiped them away, but after I realized it was pointless, that the tears would keep on coming, I stopped.
We lived in this room together
We painted the walls
Now time doesn't stand still -- it crawls
Memories came flooding back to me...Tears poured down my cheeks, and I shut the TV off. Would I ever be able to forget about Max? Would I ever be able to live my life? Would these horrible tears go away? Time passes so slowly these days...
My tears stop. I stare at my wall for what seemed like forever. I was so tired...I crawl towards my bed. My hands grip the rough material of my blanket, but they slide. All of a sudden, I start to sob loudly. I lift myself slowly, but I am not able to move. My hands just keep on sliding, my cries continue, and I fall to the floor.
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
My tears stop for good. My eyelids are heavy, I haven't slept for two days. I almost fall asleep, but I shake my head. I can't fall asleep. I'll dream of
him- us. There is no us, I tell myself. It was a lie...
I never realized how much I was in love with you
Till you started sleeping with someone new
Last night I dreamed again, and you were there
You kissed my face; you touched my hair
You slept with Tess. Why? Did you really love her? Did you love her all along? Did you just use me all along? I know you think I slept with Kyle, and you were supposed to think that. But, something inside me, hoped that you wouldn't think so. That you would know me better than that, know that I wouldn't possibly want to sleep with Kyle. That you wouldn't drop the subject, but force me to tell you. I hoped. I wanted you to know I loved you, and I still do. That's my problem...I can't stop...
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
I don't know what to do. Will I be like this for the rest of my life? Will I ever be able to go to sleep?
Lyin' alone in the darkness with a memory in my head
There's a big hole where my heart is
And a lonely feeling rolling 'round my bed
There is a horrible aching feeling where my heart is...you broke it Max! You broke it again...I trusted you! I loved you! And then you go and sleep with Tess...You scarred me for life, I know I will be miserable for the rest of my life, I know I will never love again, I know I will be lonely till I die...
And I'm afraid to sleep
Cause if I do I'll dream of you
And the dreams are always deep
On the pillow where I'll weep
Oh, Max...I love you...and my dreams...they kill me, they break my heart over and over and over again...
I'm afraid to sleep
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