"Since I was 18 years old, I've been doing this education across the
country, and I remember when I started doing it how angry I was. I
remember I promised myself never to stop doing it; down to my last
breath, I would continue to educate my community. Now I spend more
and more time worrying about my doctor appointments. And I wonder,
now, as I look around me,
who is going to pick up my torch?" - Pedro Zamora
To remember or to forget it
could you ever laugh out loud while you cry
It will own you & you can't let it
"would you just tell me what's wrong?" he asked from the couch.
Deb looked around the lounge,"If I wanted to tell you,don't you think
I would have by now?"
"Deb, something's wrong"
"I know something's wrong John.It's my life" she took a deep
breath,"If you excuse me"
"Maybe I can help"
"Like I tried to help you.This is different" her eyes started to water
"How??How is this different from being addicted to drugs?" Carter
asked quietly
"This man..this person took a part of me" she said quietly,"Something
I'm going to have to try really hard to find." Deb looked him square
in the eye,"And I have to do it on my own"
While it holds you you can't even try
You're so unsatisfied
there's no more tears to cry
You ain't got nothin'
no you ain't got nothin' to prove
"Goodbye Dr.Chen"
Deb nodded,"Goodbye"
"You look like shit"
"Thank you Dave" Deb turned around, ignoring him standing in front of
her.
"Carter told me what happened"
Deb turned around and raised an eyebrow at him."liar"
"Yes,I'm lying.But it got you to talk to me.Look at me at least"
"mission completed" she rifled through the charts.
"Are you okay??"
"Will you stop asking me that?" Deb glared,"I'm fine"
"Dr.Chen!!!" a nurse called
Deb took a deep breath,"I'm fine"
Got a secret & how you dread it
I should have known
by the lonely look in your eye
"Have you spoken with Weaver?"
Carter nodded
"And?" Mark asked,eyeing him cautiously
"She won't get help" Carter said quietly,"I mean,she won't talk to
anyone about it"
He nodded slowly."As much as you care about her"
Carter looked away,his neck and ears beet red
"You can't force her to talk to someone.Maybe she can deal with this
on her own"
"just like I could" Carter muttered
Made a promise & never kept it
you didn't even tell me good-bye
You're so damn petrified
"I'm going to lie down in exam 2" Deb yawned
"All righty" Randi called back
In December I got your letter
& by the springtime
they let me know you were gone
If I only loved you better
I'd see you smile again
but what's done is done
*Get down bitch. Get down and shut up*
Deb grabbed the side of the table to keep from falling
*YOu want this.You wouldn't have been here if you didn't want*
Sweat dripped down the side of her face as she struggled to open her
eyes."make it stop" she whimpered,"not again"
Her hands roamed her sides and could feel the cold of the knife on
her neck
"I could kill you.But you're just too beautiful.Death would only make
you more beautiful" he rambled
Deb stifled her cries with a pillow
just a little heartache
just a little hole
just an itchy finger
& nobody knows
just a little heartache
Somethin' for the soul
Fingers on the trigger
& nobody knows
what she knows
country, and I remember when I started doing it how angry I was. I
remember I promised myself never to stop doing it; down to my last
breath, I would continue to educate my community. Now I spend more
and more time worrying about my doctor appointments. And I wonder,
now, as I look around me,
who is going to pick up my torch?" - Pedro Zamora
To remember or to forget it
could you ever laugh out loud while you cry
It will own you & you can't let it
"would you just tell me what's wrong?" he asked from the couch.
Deb looked around the lounge,"If I wanted to tell you,don't you think
I would have by now?"
"Deb, something's wrong"
"I know something's wrong John.It's my life" she took a deep
breath,"If you excuse me"
"Maybe I can help"
"Like I tried to help you.This is different" her eyes started to water
"How??How is this different from being addicted to drugs?" Carter
asked quietly
"This man..this person took a part of me" she said quietly,"Something
I'm going to have to try really hard to find." Deb looked him square
in the eye,"And I have to do it on my own"
While it holds you you can't even try
You're so unsatisfied
there's no more tears to cry
You ain't got nothin'
no you ain't got nothin' to prove
"Goodbye Dr.Chen"
Deb nodded,"Goodbye"
"You look like shit"
"Thank you Dave" Deb turned around, ignoring him standing in front of
her.
"Carter told me what happened"
Deb turned around and raised an eyebrow at him."liar"
"Yes,I'm lying.But it got you to talk to me.Look at me at least"
"mission completed" she rifled through the charts.
"Are you okay??"
"Will you stop asking me that?" Deb glared,"I'm fine"
"Dr.Chen!!!" a nurse called
Deb took a deep breath,"I'm fine"
Got a secret & how you dread it
I should have known
by the lonely look in your eye
"Have you spoken with Weaver?"
Carter nodded
"And?" Mark asked,eyeing him cautiously
"She won't get help" Carter said quietly,"I mean,she won't talk to
anyone about it"
He nodded slowly."As much as you care about her"
Carter looked away,his neck and ears beet red
"You can't force her to talk to someone.Maybe she can deal with this
on her own"
"just like I could" Carter muttered
Made a promise & never kept it
you didn't even tell me good-bye
You're so damn petrified
"I'm going to lie down in exam 2" Deb yawned
"All righty" Randi called back
In December I got your letter
& by the springtime
they let me know you were gone
If I only loved you better
I'd see you smile again
but what's done is done
*Get down bitch. Get down and shut up*
Deb grabbed the side of the table to keep from falling
*YOu want this.You wouldn't have been here if you didn't want*
Sweat dripped down the side of her face as she struggled to open her
eyes."make it stop" she whimpered,"not again"
Her hands roamed her sides and could feel the cold of the knife on
her neck
"I could kill you.But you're just too beautiful.Death would only make
you more beautiful" he rambled
Deb stifled her cries with a pillow
just a little heartache
just a little hole
just an itchy finger
& nobody knows
just a little heartache
Somethin' for the soul
Fingers on the trigger
& nobody knows
what she knows