Hey, everyone! My first Hilson fic and it's more vague than a dust storm. (Don't ask...I know it doesn't make sense...) Okay, you ever heard the song Prelude 12/21 by AFI? Well, my school did a dance thing to it and I became obsessed with the song. I listened to it while typing this. I really wanted to do something for the song, but I wasn't sure what. I guess this is okay.
So there's the backstory. Now for the explanation. It's focused on House. House is the 'him', and Wilson is the 'Him'. It's very confusing, I know. I'm sorry about that, but I didn't want to use anyone's names. I thought it worked better like this...
He never was the type to give his heart to someone. But he did. He let his guard down. He gave Him everything. Mind, body, and soul. His full attention was on the man in the picture. The one he never wanted to give up.
But he had to. For the one he trusted with his life decided to leave him.
It all started when He fell for a girl. The girl was vile, despicable. He wanted her dead for stealing his Only from him. And that's exactly what happened. She died. When she did, he realized how he really didn't want that. She made Him happy. When He was with her, nothing could bring Him down.
And he hated that. But once she left, he wanted her back. She kept them together. In a strange way, she had become the glue that held them together. And now, He wanted nothing to do with him. And that devastated him. He'd never show it, but it did.
He tossed his ball in the air and caught it with his cane. This is how he decided things. When he had a difficult problem, he played with the little ball. He had many of them; this one was blue with one yellow stripe.
He shook his head. It wasn't giving up. Really, he wasn't weak. He was curious. And this was just the boost he needed to satisfy the curiosity. He had always wanted to, but He kept him from trying. Now that He was gone, there wasn't much stopping him.
So he left a note. Not in pity, but in explanation. He had to tell Him it wasn't His fault. He had to say why he did it. But the last sentence betrayed his true feelings.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
So yeah. Gotta love the random detail of the ball. I don't know why that's there, it just is. So yeah, I guess you could say House committed suicide. That was the implication, anyways. And that's how I see the song. But House isn't "weak", so he uses curiosity as an excuse. Anyways, it may be a little OOC, but I've wanted to write something Hilson for a while and this kinda worked. Oh, and by the way, I really do like Amber. I kinda wish she hadn't died. But I will agree it was a good move. Makes formore angst.
Well, reviews are luff! Please?