As I stand in the shower
running my fingers through
my long black hair
Always
thinking about him
Forever running through
my mind
Going
insane from the pressure
Wanting nothing more than
to touch him
To
love him or to not
was the ultimate question
Questioning whether I deserve him
Love
was a strange thing
so delicate yet strong
all at once
Newt
was all I could ever think about
Forever wanting him to touch me
Forever wanting more
Desperately
trying to get him off of my mind
trying to get his voice
out of my head
Wanting
nothing more than for him to
wrap his arms around me
and to make me his
More
thoughts come as I try to
push them away
They are trapped inside my mind
Love
is a scary feeling
you wonder if you can
ever be loved back
"Don't
over think things"
he would say to me
when he would stare from afar
Stop
the thoughts from coming
before I lose my head
before I do something I'll regret
Never
taking the risk needed
to show him I care
to show him I love him
Stop
the overwhelming need for him
the need to be touched by him
to be wanted by him only
Never
getting the chance to turn off my brain
to turn off the thought of him
to delete the thoughts from my mind
Getting
hotter and hotter
I let my hands roam
all over my body
Enough
with the torture
I needed his touch
I needed to feel his touch
Touching
slowly at first
gasping at the new sensations I feel
letting his name slip from my lips
Gently
feeling a figure press into my back
hoping it was him
knowing it was him
More
closeness was granted
as his hands move up my sides
and back down once again
Rough
kisses were planted on my neck
causing me to moan
closing my eyes and surrendering
Nothing
has ever made me feel this way
nothing could match this closeness
I've craved for so long
"But
your leg" I mumble to him
he reaches up to pinch my nipple
causing me to cry out
"Moans
my name and expects
me to care" he says jokingly
sighing as I grind into his erection
Loving
making him feel like this
makes me want more
makes me want all of him
This
feeling starts to burn my core
as he circles his fingers
around my sensitive areas
High
going strong from the pleasure
he begins to bend me over
placing himself
Loving
his boldness
I bend further over
I surrender myself to him
"Newt"
I moan his name as he enters me
he gives me a groan
the sexiest noise I've ever heard
Him
coming undone
was enough for me to follow
he speeds up gradually
Moaning
noises fill the room
belonging to us both
slowly bringing each other to the edge
Forever
wanting to hold on to this feeling
always wanting to be this close to him
my love
"Love"
he mutters to me
speeding up his pace
I know he's about to release
"Newt"
again his name slips out
he attacks my sensitive nub
putting me on edge
Always
going to remember the feeling
of both of us climaxing together
showering each other with kisses and silent promises
"I love you"