Disclaimer: Final Fantasy X belongs to Squaresoft.
Author's Notes: For the "regret" challenge at ff-100 on livejournal. Plays off the theme of my fic Horizon Road, although the two are unrelated.
Under His Skin
by: butterflie
It had been a mistake, he knew that now--had known that from the start. Guilt and shame and regret tore at him, throwing all his emotions into a turmoil he couldn't escape. He didn't know why he had done it, except that he was weak, and the boy had been so damn persistent, and he just couldn't find it in him to say no. And he knew that some part of him must have wanted it, or else he would have been able to refuse.
It didn't help that Tidus was walking around with a smugly satisfied look on his face, and acting rather proud of himself. Auron wasn't even sure that Tidus was aware of it, or what it did to Auron to see Tidus act that way. He was just a kid, after all. Seventeen years old but still just a naive, immature kid, acting as typical as any other teenager his age.
The worst part of it was that he wanted it again. No matter how much he regretted letting the first time even happen, he still wanted there to be a second time. He couldn't even lie to himself and say it was just the sex, because there had been enough faceless strangers in the past ten years he had been in Zanarkand to satisfy that need.
No, it wasn't the sex he wanted, it was Tidus. Despite all the distance he tried to keep between them, the boy had still somehow managed to get under his skin. He had developed an attraction and a fondness for Jecht's son, and he knew that were Tidus to ask again, he still wouldn't be able to refuse. No matter how much he knew he should.
And it was that truth that he regretted perhaps most of all.
2006 butterflie October 27, 2006 Friday 3:18PM