Breathing in she closed her eyes and willed herself to make a choice, no matter what choice she made she would lose something. It was just a matter of deciding what she would be willing to lose. If she lost Kylo she'd remain as she was, fighting for her new home, the resistance, Finn, Poe, Leia, but what would she be fighting against Ben, could she do that. Fight him, accept the only thing remaining in him was darkness and leave him, to doom himself to misery. But staying meant she'd be turning her back on the only family she had ever had. Just imagining the faces of her loved ones, staring at her, looking at her as she chose the darkness. She wonders about Luke, he had said she went straight to the darkness, that she hadn't even fought it, maybe this was her destiny. To go to the darkness, but the thought of leaving the light made her sick. Made her angry to abandon something she had just started, no matter what the choice was, one would save her and she was sure the other would kill her.

Opening her eyes she met his pleading ones, pleading her to stay, the darkness surrounding his brown orbs showing all the emotions she knew he couldn't say. Pleading her to save him. But what did saving him mean, saving him from the darkness bringing him to the light. Or did he want to be saved from the light and remain In the darkness. He wanted her to let go of the past, of the things holding her back, but that made her who she was, and his past made him. Light and dark blending together, she felt a faint buzzing around them, as if everything else had ceased to exist and without thinking. Without realizing it, she felt her hand grab his, she felt his warmth and relief envelop her. And she stepped closer to him looking up at him and leaning her face towards his. Unsure of what she was doing, unsure of what she was feeling, just letting her connection to him dictate her actions.

Next thing she knew she had crashed into him and felt the entire floor shift beneath her and she realized something was wrong as she felt him stiffen next to her.

"We have to go", she sensed the tension In his voice,

But before she could respond she heard steps approaching them, and quickly realized that although she felt it was just them, she had overlooked and hadn't considered how their actions would be perceived. Snokes body laid next to them lifeless and she looked at ren frantically asking for answers with her eyes hoping he would have an answer, a way to fix what was happening. She felt her breathing speed up, her heart began to race, and she felt herself about to panic.

But before she could an overwhelming sense of calmness washed over and as she turned to look at him he outstretched his arms. And before she could ask, her consciousness begin to slip and as she felt herself fall she felt his arms lift her and the last thing she heard was him faintly saying he was sorry.

/

"WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS" Hux yelled at Kylo as he saw the body of his supreme leader lay on the ground life less and Kylo the thing he most despised on this planet standing there, the girl layimg limp in his Arms. Slowly Ren laid her body down, carefully almost as if he was trying to not harm her.

"The meaning of this is that I am supreme leader you imbecile!" He said walking towards him, towering over him.

"You will not be a leader of Any kind!" Yelled Hux attempting to sound threatening but the shaking of his voice giving him away.

Glaring at him he began to force choke him lifting him enough for his boots to dangle over the floor.

"I said I am your supreme leader! And you will answer to me! And the girl will remain unharmed! Do you understand?" He asked tightening his grip on the mans neck, pleased as he saw the redness seep into the mans face as he weakly nodded.

Throwing him to the side he swiftly picked Rey up, carefully placing her close to his body as he quickly ran to his command shuttle knowing they had to get out of there.

Once he had reached it he gently laid her down and fastened her, looking at her he felt as he was seeing her for the first time. Her skim tan from living in Jakku for so long. Her lashes thick framing her eyes. Her skin covered in light barely noticeable freckles. Her cheeks lightly flushed, her hair framing her face, her lips soft and pink. He had never seen a face, so serene relaxed yet strong and guarded. Shaking his head to focus he moved urgently.

Sitting in the pilot seat he quickly launched disregarding the chaos happening at their surroundings and they left, his main focus being to get them to safety, somewhere quite and calm that would give them the chance to think, to plan and figure things out.

Leaning his head into his hands he sighed. Angry at himself, angry at snoke. Anger, that anger Kylo ren was so known to have. He fought it, for the first time since he could Remember he kept the anger at bay. He had to control himself, get Rey to safety. Rey, she was nothing, or well she was supposed to be nothing, a scavenger a single person, yet somehow she was something else something he couldn't even describe.

What had he done, everything for a girl, a girl he didn't know, emotions he couldn't describe and a bond he now wasn't sure would even remain.

He had done so much for the darkness giving up so many things. Killed Solo, his own father, watched there as they attempted to kill his mother, and taken so many lives. And it could all have been for nothing, years of sacrifice for nothing. How foolish of him, how stupid. Yet he couldn't even bring himself to feel regret, only a sense of calm and hope at having her so close. He couldn't even bring himself to worry over all the unknowns yet to come.

He flew the ship to a nearby first order base, landing swiftly. He opened the hatch and walked out first, he was sure word of his uprise as supreme leader had gotten around. As he exited he was faced with dozens of troopers, looking down, bowing to him and he couldn't help but feel a sense of joy as he felt the power he finally deserved was his.

"Prepare my quarters and bring in an additional bed! Now!" He yelled and as soon as the words left his lips he saw everyone moving to follow his command.

Walking back towards his ship, he entered to find Rey, picking her up he placed her over his shoulder, still surprised at how light she felt, it felt almost as if he had nothing on him.

He slowly walked to his quarters, ignoring the stares he got from all around, all the questions they were wondering would have to wait for later, they would have to wait until he at least had some answers for himself.

By the time he had reached his room, the accommodations had been made and everyone had left. He entered, closing the door behind him and placing Rey down on his bed, brushing her hair away from her face he stood up walking to the other bed and next thing he knew he was asleep, unaware he was even tired.

/

He awoke to a slap to his face.

"Where the hell am I!"