OK, this is like my 6th fanfic I've put up here. It will be a Jemma... Well, I think it will be anyways. I do have a oneshot that I haven't typed into my computer yet. I will eventually. That oneshot is a Jalex.
Well, anyways...This is still a fanfic that I'm working on. Not sure how long it will. Hope you guys enjoy.
Oh, I may change the title, because I'm not sure if I like it. I do however, love the song. (Fionna Apple).
I may or may not have a song at the beginning or end of every chapter.
OK. So, I own nothing of Degrassi. Nor the song at the end of the chapter...I take no credit for Degrassi.
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Love Ridden
Chapter One
Broken
Jay Hogart sat on the trunk of his annoyingly bright orange Honda Civic outside of Degrassi Community School. He was waiting for her. A few days ago, they ran into each other the mall.
Flashback
Jay was walking around the food court, trying to find an empty table to eat. But, since It was the day before the first day of school, the mall's food court was totally packed with people.
After walking around for about 5 minutes, Jay spotted a girl sitting alone at a table. He walked towards her. Once he reached the table he softly cleared his throat.
"Excuse me, do you mind if I sit here? Every table is full."
The girl looked up from the book she was reading, "I'm sorr—Jay?"
Jay's jaw dropped, "Emma? Sorry, I didn't know it was you. I was just looking...
Emma sighed, "It's ok. Sit. Eat. We can be civil for today."
Jay sat down and began to eat. Emma went back to reading her book. They were silent until Jay stood up to leave.
"Listen, Emma. I know last year sucked..."
Emma nodded, "Yes, it did."
"Do you think that maybe...Would you want to hang out sometime? Not like before. Maybe see a movie?"
Emma smiled softly, "Actually, that would be nice. Pick me up after school on Friday."
Jay rolled his eyes, "You don't by any chance go to a new school?"
Emma laughed, "Unfortunately, no."
Jay laughed, "Damn. Alright. Well, I'll see you Friday."
"Bye."
End Flashback
"Earth to Jay?"
Jay realized that Emma was standing in front of Jay waving a hand in front of his face, "Sorry. Spaced out."
Emma laughed, "It's ok."
Jay looked at her. She looked nice. More casual than normal. She was wearing dark blue hip huggers, a light blue baby tee that said 'CraZy' and black flip flops. Her hair was down and now had red highlights.
Jay smiled and pulled out his car keys, "Ready?"
Emma nodded and walked to the passenger side of the car. She got in, and Jay turned on the car.
"So what movie do you want to see?" Jay asked.
Emma turned to face him better, "I don't really feel like a movie."
Jay looked at her, confused, "Then what do you want to do?"
"Just hang out. Talk. Drive around."
"Sounds good. But we have to stop to eat eventually."
Emma smiled, "Sounds good."
Jay pulled out of the school parking lot and drove off.
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Manny stood on the steps of DCS, not sure if what she was seeing was real or not. She looked at the people around her, trying to see if they were seeing the same thing she was. But, no one seemed to notice or care that Emma Nelson was talking to Jay Hogart. And now she was getting in his car.
She continued to stare of the car. She followed it with her eyes has is sped past the school steps and down the street. She blinked a few times and shook her head. She realized she was being tapped on the shoulder. Manny turned around.
She was face to face with Alex Nunez.
"Was that Green Peace in Jay's car?" Alex asked.
Manny nodded slowly, "Uh huh. And I have no idea why."
Alex laughed, "Didn't she learn?"
Manny sighed, "Guess not."
Alex looked at Manny with semi caring eyes, "Make sure she knows what she's in for."
Manny cocked an eye brow, "Don't you think she already knows?"
Alex put her head down and then looked back at Manny, "Obviously not."
XXXX
Emma and Jay sat in at a picnic table at a random lake they found. They stopped at a small diner and got some food. Jay had finished the hamburger he got and was now munching on some fries. Emma finished her salad and was eating a bag of Nacho Cheese Doritos.
"So, are we just going to sit in silence?" Emma asked.
"Of course not. But I don't know what you want to talk about."
Emma smiled, "Anything. We can ask each other questions?"
Jay laughed, "You want to play 20 questions?"
Emma nodded, "Yep."
"Alright. You go first."
Emma sighed, "Let's see...What is your favorite color?"
"Red."
Emma laughed, "I thought you would see bright orange."
Jay looked confused, "Why orange?"
"'Cause your car is orange."
"Oh yeah. I'm changing that soon."
Emma smiled, "Good."
"Alright, so... What went through you mind when everything happened with Rick?"
Emma looked down, "At first my mind was blank. I froze. Then I felt Sean's hand on my arm, and I could see my mom, my dad, my brother, my real dad...I saw my friends... Then I got angry, but I couldn't do anything. It was like I was stuck in that spot. When Sean walked up to Rick, my mind flashed to Sean and I's first date. It was such a disaster, yet it was one of the best nights of my life. When I heard the gun go off, I thought I got shot, but I still didn't move. Then I saw Rick and Sean fall. I wanted to scream. I felt trapped in time. I thought the person who was once the love of my life, was killed. Toby threw himself down next to the both of them, while I just stood there. Motionless."
Jay looked at Emma, feeling stupid for asking that question, "Emma, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have..."
Emma looked up at him, "It's ok. Really. I never actually said that out loud."
"Alright, your turn." Jay said quickly, trying to change the subject.
Emma looked him straight in the eye, "Why did you pick me?"
Jay looked at her, "What do you mean?"
"Out of all the girls you could have had those two nights at the Ravine, why me?"
Jay sighed, "I wanted to have what Sean had. I wanted to know what was so addicting that he always went back to you."
"Oh."
"Why did you come to the Ravine?"
"Because you were the only person who wanted me. My friends treated me as if I was going to break. I couldn't stand it. But, you didn't."
"Maybe I should have."
"Why?
"Because if I treated you the way everyone else was, then you wouldn't have...I wouldn't have gave you an STD."
"You make it seem like you asked if I wanted it. I didn't know and neither did you. It was an accident. And in the past. I don't judge you for it. I also don't hate you for it."
Jay sighed, "How many questions have we asked so far?"
"No idea."
Jay laughed, "Me either. Anything else you want to know?"
"Yeah. Do you miss Sean?"
Jay let out a small sigh, "I do actually. I haven't really talked to him since I told him about the Ravine."
Emma gasped, "You told him?"
"I had to."
"Why?"
"Because, he had a right to know. He wasn't mad. Just upset. He understood that I didn't know I had it, and everything."
"Does he hate me now?"
"No. Of course not. How could he?"
"Well, I haven't talked to him since the day we left him at his parents."
"Maybe we can go see him sometime."
Emma bit her lip, "Why not tonight?"
"What about your parents?"
"I'll tell them the truth...Kind of."
If I had any meaning in this ol big world And if you left me, and if you leave me I've been having trouble Why'd you leave me like this? And you take advantage of a simple heartbreak And if they left you, and if they leave you I've been having trouble Why'd you leave me like this? I'm feeling broken I've been having trouble Why'd you leave me like this?
Can you tell a lost and lonely girl
If I was happy for a day I'd risk it allThat's why when I'm with I'm not afraid to fall
At least I'd have a cherish all the memories
With keeping up this smile
I've been having trouble
Hurting for quite a while
And I'm feeling stupid
Cause I did it to me
And I'm feeling desperate
From being unhappy
With scars across my heart and on my wrists
When I looked in your eyes
I didn't know happiness had a price
At least you had to love to know how to ache
But don't, hesitate to let your feelings be known
It's better to love and lose then just be alone
At least you know in their heart they will always keep you
With keeping up this smile
I've been having trouble
Hurting for quite a while
And I'm feeling stupid
Cause I did it to me
And I'm feeling desperate
From being unhappy
With scars across my heart and on my wrists
When I looked in your eyes
I didn't know happiness had a price
Scattered pieces on the ground
I'm feeling desperate now
can abandoned souls be found
With keeping up this smile
I've been having trouble
Hurting for quite a while
And I'm feeling stupid
Cause I did it to me
And I'm feeling desperateFrom being unhappy
With scars across my heart and on my wrists
When I looked in your eyes
I didn't know happiness had a price
Song: Broken
Song owned by: Cassie Steele