Wake Up Loving You Chapter 1: Don't Make Me, a glee fanfic

Disclaimer: I own nothing and that is all.

A/N: Ok…I have been toying around with this idea and not really sure where it will go but…here it is so I am going to give it a shot here. It is an A/U Finnchel fic. Rachel and Puck are twins. Puck lives in LA with Finn and Rachel is in New York. What happens when a failed relationship forces her to move in with her brother and Finn? Will the sparks from years past still be there or is it too late? Follow us in a journey filled with love, lust, and heartbreak.

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LA….

Rachel was sitting in the waiting area of LAX waiting for her brother to pick her up from the airport. She looked down at her watch and let out a sigh. She grabs her phone and calls her brother wondering where the hell he is. She told him that her plane would be landing at ten AM and it was now almost ten fifteen. She should've just taken a taxi she thought as she dialed his number.

"Hello?" Puck answers.

"Where the hell are you? I have been waiting her for close to thirty minutes." She says looking around the airport in hopes of finding her brother. She really hated airports the people in them always creeped her out in one way or another.

"We're pulling into the parking lot." he tells her.

"Well…hurry up I am already running late." she says in a huff…then it hits her. "What do you mean by we?" She asked.

"Hudson's with me that is why we were late." Rachel's heart skips a beat when she hears his name. It had been two years since she had seen him and for some reason she was really nervous about seeing him. She wasn't even sure if he remembered their past. As far as Finn was concerned she was Puck's twin sister and nothing more.

"Finn…is with you?" Rachel asked as she felt the panic rise in her. Considering the last time they had talked it really wasn't all that pleasant. The whole reason she moved to New York was of him.

"Yeah…he practically begged me to take him." Rachel can hear Finn's protests on the other end. Rachel lets out a small laugh. She was a bit shocked that Finn wanted to see her considering how he had left things between them.

"What ever just hurry up you know I hate waiting." she says in frustration.

"Keep your panties on we are walking in now." Puck tells her.

Rachel hangs up her phone and grabs her compact out of her bag. It wasn't like she was trying to impress anyone after all it was only Finn and Puck.

She put the compact back in her bag, giving the crowd another scan hoping to see Puck or Finn after no luck she picked up her phone to check her emails. She noticed three missed calls…five text messages…and three voicemails. One text was from Santana telling her to make sure to call when she landed. And well…the others were from Jesse ranging from I'm sorry to when are you coming home. Did he not realized she was never coming back no matter what he said there was no way she'd go back. Rachel sent Santana a quick text letting her know that she landed safely and she would call when she got to Puck's. Rachel tossed her phone back in her bag and continued to look around in hopes that Puck and Finn were somewhere in sight.

"Finally." she says under her breath as she see's her brother walking up she grabs her back and walks towards Puck. "Where the hell have you been?" She says in frustration.

"Well…nice to see you too little sis." Puck says picking her up and giving her a bear hug.

"Only by like what…three minutes? Now could you please put me down? My stomach is already upset from the plane ride from hell." Puck places her back on the ground and as she fixes her dress.

"So…still older." Puck sticks his tongue out at Rachel. She just rolls her eyes at him.

"Hey…Rach…" She hadn't heard that nickname in a long time and for some reason it made her heart melt. And…she was instantly brought back to that shy naïve little girl she once was.

"Finn! Oh my god! How have you been?" She asked practically leaping into his arms. She decided to leave the past where it should be. If he was willing to be civil then so was she.

"Good." He said trying to catch his breath. He really wasn't sure if was because he just got the wind knocked out of him or the fact that…she was sexy as hell. Not that she wasn't always sexy there was just something different about her now. 'I'm bringing sexy back….' Finn and Puck both look at Rachel and start laughing.

"What do you want?" she spats at the person on the other line. Finn looks over at Puck confused.

"Jesse." Puck says as his sister starts walking over towards the baggage claim.

"Who's Jesse?" Finn asked

"Some dude she shacked up with in New York." Puck says as he follows Rachel.

"So…she has a boyfriend?" Finn asked as Puck just gave him a look.

"You know I have no idea what is going on one minute they are fine a dandy and the next well…here we are." Puck tries to explain but…he never understood why she was with that douche bag anyway. When they get to the baggage claim they can overhear Rachel yelling at Jesse.

"For fuck sake's Jesse you're married!" Rachel yells into the phone not realizing that Puck and Finn are standing behind her. "You think you could've told me before you moved in!" Puck let's out a chuckle which causes Rachel to jump. "Look…I have to go." Rachel hangs up the phone before Jesse answers.

"So….how is Mr. Big?" Puck teases Rachel. While Finn gives him a dumbfounded look.

"Shut it Noah." She says shoving her bag at him ever since she had moved to New York he thought it would be funny to start making all theses Sex and The City references. While at first she thought they were funny now they just pissed her off and he knew it.

"Jesus Rachel I was just kidding." he says holding his hands up in the air as he reaches for the bag.

"I don't get it." Finn says turning to Rachel and then to Puck.

"Dude you've never seen Sex and The City?" Puck asked and Finn just shakes his head.

"Isn't that some like chick show?" Finn asked still confused. "Here let me help you with that?" Finn says grabbing one of Rachel's bags.

"Thanks. At least someone is still a gentleman." Rachel says giving Puck a dirty look. When Rachel brushes Finn's hand she felt that familiar surge of electricity that she had spent so long trying to forget.

"Sorry." he says giving her his famous crooked smile. As she shakes off the strange feeling he just got.

"No big deal." She smiles as they walk out to Puck's car.

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The car ride back to Finn and Puck's house went amazingly well. Puck had decided to drop the while Jesse thing. Which was a relief to her the last thing she wanted to do was explain Jesse to Puck and Finn.

"Ok…we're here." Puck says as he puts the car in park.

"Give me your keys." Rachel says. The only thing she wanted to do was go up to her room and crash it had been a long and exhausting twenty four hours and she just wanted to forget it.

"Here let me help." Finn says offering to help Rachel with her bags.

"I think I can handle it." She tells him as she grabs her bag trying to avoid that feeling she has had ever since the airport. "See." She tells him.

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When they walk into Puck's place Rachel is instantly overwhelmed by the size. It was huge she couldn't believe that this was her brother's place.

"This place is huge." She says in awe.

"Yeah…it's alright." Puck shrugs his shoulders. "Ok…so Rachel your room is upstairs next to Finn's" Puck continues to tell her about the house she is so caught up in what the house has that she barely noticed Puck tell her that she was basically sharing a room with Finn.

"What…you live here too?" Rachel asked finally catching what Puck said. This was not going to be good it was one thing to have these feelings towards him come creeping up and him having his own place. But…now he's living here this was going to be a very long month she thought.

"Yeah…I just moved in like a month ago." He tells her while trying to figure out why she acted so surprised surely Puck had told her.

"You…know if you weren't spending all your time with Mr. Big and maybe called your brother every once and a while you would've known that." There he goes again with the Mr. Big thing. Ok….Finn was definitely going to have to watch that sex show to figure out what the hell he was talking about.

"Ok…well I am going to go unpack and take a shower." She tells them dismissing the whole Finn living there topic. Finn watches Rachel walk up the stairs still trying to figure out what was going on in her mind.

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"Want one?" He offers as he opens the fridge to grab a beer.

"Yeah…sure." Finn says as Puck tosses a beer to Finn.

"So…what is the deal with your sister I thought everything was great in New York?" Finn asked as he took a sip of his beer.

"You know I am not really sure one minute she was doing great and the next I get a phone call in the middle of the night telling me that she was coming to LA." He tells Finn as he takes a seat at the bar.

"You think it has something to do with that Mr. Big guy?" Finn asked not really remembering what his name was.

"It has everything to do with that douche. You know my sis she's a tough chick and can handle anything thrown her way but…for her to just up and leave New York just like that just doesn't make sense." Finn clenches his fists to keep from punching something. He wasn't even sure why but for some strange reason all he wanted to do was kick this douche ball's ass. He knew how much New York meant to her. It had been the only thing she had talked about since they were little kids.

"If he hurt her in anyway I will kill him." Finn says under his breath as he tries his hardest not to catch the first plane to New York to kick his ass.

"You're still in love with her aren't you?" Puck says catching what Finn said.

"Who? Rachel? No." Finn nearly chokes on his beer after hearing Puck's comment.

"Seriously?" Puck gives him a strange look. Puck never really understood why Finn didn't just go to New York with her. Finn told him it was for the best but…if one was to be honest everyone knew it wasn't. "Come on I saw the looks today." He says walking over to the fridge.

"What look?" He asks.

"That I want to jump your bones look. You know for two people who are fairly smart you both are equally daft." Puck places another beer on the counter. Finn gives him a nod.

"Trust me there is no way I am going to jump your sister's bones as you so kindly put it." Finn tries to deny the fact that he was indeed checking Rachel out.

"Dude it is so obvious you are still in love with her. This is your shot dude to make things right." Puck tells him.

"You…know I think I am going to go upstairs and work on some stuff." He tells him not wanting to have this conversation with Puck. While Puck may have been right he still wasn't ready to talk about what happened.

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When Rachel walked into her room it she couldn't believe her eyes it was almost twice the size of her apartment in New York. She placed her bags on the bed and walked over to piano that was sitting in the corner by the window that over looked the ocean. She closes her eyes and runs her fingers along the keys her mind is brought back to a time when things were so simple and innocent. She is instantly broken from her thoughts by the ringing of her cell phone she looked down and instantly knew who it was which resulted in her throwing her phone at the wall she didn't care if she had just destroyed her phone she would deal with that later. She had no intention of ever talking to him again all she wanted to do was rid herself of him and the past. She grabbed a few things from her bag and decided to take a shower. She turned on the water and undressed and walked in letting the warmth of the water take away everything that had happened. She noticed that there was one of those shower radio thingy's hanging up. So…she decided to turn in it hoping the music would relax her. 'Ok…that was 'don't stop believing' by Journey. We've been getting a lot of calls for this next one. Remember we will be playing Journey all day today so keep those requests coming.' Rachel's eyes flew open when she recognized the song that was on the radio. She began to softly sing along with the radio.

Highway run into the midnight sun Wheels go round and round
you're on my mind

Rachel closed her eyes bringing back memories of when they were in high school and they sang this song at regional's it was the first time that she had really discovered her feelings for Finn. It was also the night that changed everything.

She couldn't believe it they had worked so hard to get where they were and it was all for nothing Glee Club was over which meant in some strange sense her life was over. With out Glee she was just Rachel the crazy girl with the unrealistic dream. Finn had decided to have a party for everyone in Glee Club just one last get together before everyone parted ways. She was sitting in the corner nursing a wine cooler she never really drank before but…something about tonight made her want to drink.

"Hey." Finn said standing there awkwardly with his hands in his pockets.

"Hey." she said holding up her half empty wine cooler.

"Mind if I join you?" He asked taking a seat next to her.

"Wouldn't that like ruin your reputation?" She says bitterly she wasn't sure why she even said it.

"Rach….you know I don't care about all that stuff." He tells her giving her a crooked smile.

"Sure could've fooled me." She says under her breath. "I think I am going to get a drink." she says getting up knowing that if she stayed there any longer she was going to do something she regretted. Finn just looks at her trying to figure out what is going on with her.

Rachel is in the kitchen trying to decide if she should make herself a mixed drink or just stick to the wine coolers she had been sipping on.

"I'd go for whiskey if I was you." Santana says as she grabs the whiskey from the fridge and grabs two glasses from the cupboard and makes them both a whiskey sour. "Try it I promise it is just what you need." Santana hands her the drink.

"I think I will pass." She tells her not wanting to get too drunk.

"Oh…come on hobbit loosen up a bit. Have some fun I know you know how to have fun." Santana says convincing her to take the drink.

"Of course I know how to have fun. I would just like to remember it that is all." She says as she looks over at Finn who is talking to Quinn and she knows she shouldn't be jealous but she is.

"Just say something to him." Santana says noticing the look in Rachel's eyes.

"It won't change a thing." Rachel tells her.

"Bullshit…I saw the way he was looking at you during faithfully. He's totally into you." Rachel gives her a look like she has three heads.

"San…I can guarantee you that he sees me as nothing more than Puck's sister." Rachel saw the look in his eyes but she knew it was just acting.

"Oh…my god I swear you two are the blindest people I know! Everyone knows that you both are into each other but for some damned reason unknown to anyone you both are too damned scared. Stop being so scared and just tell him. So what if it all goes to hell at least you know you gave it a shot." Santana says in frustration. "Let me ask you something would you rather spend the rest of your life wondering what if? Or would you rather take the chance and fail?" She tried her best to give her some sort of advice.

"Fine…but I swear if this all blows up in my face it's all your fault." Rachel says knowing that Santana was right she had to at least try.

"That's my girl." Santana says proudly. "Here you might want to take this." She hands her the drink she had made as she sees Finn walking towards them. "Well…here's your chance." She says giving her an evil grin.

"Hey." Finn says not taking his eyes off Rachel.

"Hey again." She says taking a sip of her drink while Santana grins at her.

"Great party Finnocence." Santana says to him. He really hated the nickname that she had given him.

"Santana." He says coolly as he grabs a beer out of the fridge and opens it. "Hey…Rach you think we could like talk?" He asked what she had said to him earlier had really been bugging him.

"Sure." Rachel nods as he takes her hand in his and it sent a surge of electricity through out her body. It amazed her how this one touch sent so much through her. She could see the smirk forming on Santana's face and Rachel just gives her a look as Finn and Rachel walk off.

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Finn is leaning against the railing of the porch watching Rachel look out into the night sky wondering what is going through her mind. Things felt a bit weird between them ever since regional's it was like something had shifted in their relationship and for the life of him he couldn't figure it out.

All he knew was he had these feelings for her that he knew he could never act on and it sucked. What bothered him even more was what she said earlier to him was that really what she thought of him.

"So…you were really great at regionals " Rachel says turning to him and breaking the silence.

"Yea….you were too." He tells her moving closer as the distance was killing him. It was weird because lately he kept feeling drawn to her more and more.

"Thanks. I really wish we would've won though." She tells him trying to avoid his eyes.

"I know." He places a reassuring arm around her. He knew what winning meant to her. Rachel closes her eyes and takes in his scent and leans closer to him. Was it weird that this felt so right to both of them? "Can I ask you something?" Finn says remembering why he wanted to talk to her in the first place.

"Sure." she says giving him a nod.

"What did you mean earlier?" He asked not sure if he wanted to know the answer.

"What are you talking about?" She asked trying to figure out what he was talking about.

"That thing you said about my reputation." he tells her as she moves away from him.

"Nothing just forget I said anything." she said trying to get up when Finn stops her.

"Rach…please talk to me. Ever since the ride home from regionals you have been acting different. Was it something I said or what please just tell me?" He tells her trying to figure things out with her.

"No…nothing you said or did. It's…just…I…can't do this." She wanted so badly to tell him how she felt but…what if he didn't feel the same? Then they would be faced with this awkwardness between them and she didn't want that.

"Just say it Rach….I can handle it. I just want to know what is going on with you for a minute there I thought that maybe…" Finn decided to stop there not wanting to say anything else.

"Maybe…what Finn?" It was her turn to be confused.

"I don't know…I kind of got the feeling that you liked me or something." Rachel is silent she couldn't believe what he had said. Rachel takes a deep breath and downs the rest of her drink letting the burning liquid give her the courage to tell him the truth.

"Finn…" was what she was able to get out before his lips were on hers. Any and all thoughts that were in her head were now gone. She felt him pull her closer and she instantly relaxed under his touch. "What was that?" she asked trying to catch her breath.

"A kiss." He simply tells her as he gives her a crooked smile.

"I know what it was. But…why did you kiss me?" She asked not that she minded but…it still took her off guard she had so many questions running through her head.

"I…don't know." He tells her hoping that kissing her didn't screw everything up.

"Finn….you have to know something." She tells him as she looks at him. "I mean…is this…like some new recent development?" She asked trying to figure this whole thing out.

"Recent no…me wanting to kiss you has always been in the back of my mind. Kind of like the secret service….threat of nuclear war. It's something that you kind of just get used to." Finn tries to explain but given by the look on her face she is just as confused as ever.

"And….that doesn't freak you out at all." She asked as she moves closer to him.

"Yes and no." Of course it freaked the hell out of him that he had these feelings towards her but…on the other hand it was a feeling that felt so right to him.

"Which one Finn?" she asked with concern in her eyes.

"Well…yes." He quickly says.

"Explain?" she says giving him her ever so cute doe eyed look.

"I don't know if I can" He tells her as he leans against the railing.

"Try." she says to him.

"Well…it would be safe to say that I have been feeling not so friendly towards you lately." God why couldn't he just come out and say what he really felt.

"You've been feeling more than friendly." she should be happy about this right? But…she wasn't now that she knew it freaked her out more than ever.

"Yes." was really the only word he could form. He really wasn't good at these things at all. "See the thing is Rach…for as long as I can remember you have been that one person that no matter how bad things got you were there. I guess what I am saying is that I want to give us a shot like a real shot." He tries his best to explain.

"Finn…what about Puck? I mean…you're his best friend and all." She wanted so bad to run into his arms and tell him they could do this. But…the reality of it was until Puck could come to terms to the fact that she was no longer a little girl there would never be an 'us' when it came to them.

"So…what? He will either get over it or not. The only thing I want to do is walk into that school Monday morning with you by my side not as just my friend but…as my girl." He says leaning in to kiss her.

"You know there are a million reasons why we shouldn't be together." she says in between kisses.

"And there are a million reasons why." He tells her as he continues to kiss her.

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Rachel was brought back from her thoughts as the water had now turned cold. She stepped out of the shower and grabbed her robe trying to warm herself up.

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Finn was sitting on his bed pen in hand staring at the blank piece of paper in front of him for the better half of twenty minutes. He was supposed to be working on some new songs for the band and he never had any trouble coming up with new stuff. But…for some reason his mind was drawing a complete blank and quite frankly it was driving him insane. He ran his hands through his hair in frustration as he tossed the notebook to the side of the bed realizing that he wasn't going to come up with anything good right now. He got up and grabbed a pair of jeans and a T-shirt hoping that a nice warm shower would help him out. When he opened the door he froze there she was standing in nothing but her robe brushing her hair in the mirror. It took everything he had not walk over there and pull her into his arms.

"Sorry. I…I…didn't realize you were in here." Finn says trying not to stare at her.

"Finn…you scared the crap out of me." She says nearly jumping out of her skin.

"I guess I should've knocked." He tells her as he leans against the door frame giving her that crooked smile of his. She can feel his eyes on her and she pulls her robe tighter.

"It's ok let me just grab my stuff and I will finish up in my room." She says as she gathers her things and quickly leaves the bathroom. Finn lets out a laugh it still amazed him how after all these years he still had that affect on her. Maybe Puck was right…maybe it was time for him to finally man up and go after her like he should have. Finn turned on the shower and stepped in letting the warm water wash away thoughts of years past. There was a reason she was back in his life and there was no way in hell he was going to let her slip away again.

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Rachel walked back into her room and continued to get dressed when she heard the phone by the nightstand ring. She walked over and decided to answer it after all she did live here now. "Hello?" Was all she got out when she heard a slew of profanities all in Spanish Rachel let out a laugh.

"San…look I know I was suppose to call you back but Jesse called and well I kind of smashed my phone." Rachel tries to explain in between Santana's rants.

"Sorry…you were supposed to call me when you landed and well…I panicked when your cell went straight to voicemail." Santana tries her best to apologize for being a bitch. "So…what did asshat want?" She asked referring to Jesse.

"Wouldn't know I chucked my phone before he had a chance to speak." She says as she tries to finish brushing her hair. "Crap." she says under her breath realizing that she left her brush in the bathroom. The one that Finn is currently taking a shower in.

"You ok there?" Santana asked wondering why Rachel was acting weird.

"Huh?" Rachel says staring at the closed door wondering if she should go in or not after all it wasn't like she hadn't seen him naked before. "I'm fine just forgot my hairbrush in the bathroom." She said shaking her thoughts away.

"Ok…anyway so what are you going to do?" Santana asked changing the subject.

"Firstly I am going to find a job and a place of my own." Rachel explains as she contemplates retrieving her hairbrush.

"I thought Puck said you could stay as long as you wanted?" She asked

"I know what he said I just think the sooner I get settled on my own the better." The whole reason she moved to LA was for a fresh start.

"I thought the whole plan was to like find yourself or something?" She knew that was what Rachel had told her but…she knew there was something more to it than what she led on.

"And…I can do that while looking for a job and a place to stay." Rachel explains as sees Finn walk out the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel around his waist. She watches the beads of water fall along his finely chiseled body.

"Uh….you like left this in the bathroom. Thought you might need it." He tells her as he holds the hairbrush up.

"Uh…thanks." She tells him as she takes the brush from him.

"Ok….who the hell are you talking to? I know it's not Puck." Shit she forgot she was on the phone with Santana. It wasn't like anything was going on between them he was her brother's room mate after all. She just didn't feel like answering her questions.

"Sorry I was watching a movie when you called." Rachel lies as Finn raises an eyebrow at her. Wondering who she was talking to and why did she just lie to them

"I call bullshit hobbit." Santana says and then it hits her. "I know that voice….Rachel Berry are you shacking up with Finn Hudson. You dirty girl you." She teases.

"No I am not shacking up with Finn or anyone else for that matter." Rachel says as she gives Finn a look and mouths Santana he just nods and goes back to the bathroom.

"Ok…you may not be shacking up with him now but…you will soon. After all it is fate." Santana tells her.

"San….whether it is fate or not there will be no shacking up." Rachel tells her pointedly.

"All I am saying is talk to him. You have been given an opportunity to fix the past don't let it slip away." She tells her.

"I know but…what if it's not worth fixing? Then what?" Rachel asked.

"Would you rather live life with a bunch of what ifs or, would you rather know you tried and failed?" Santana was right if Rachel was going to move on and be happy she had to fix things with Finn.

"Ok…I will try and talk to him I am not making any promises ok." She says knowing that she was right.

"Good…" She says hanging up the phone.

Rachel tosses her phone on the bed and finishes getting dressed.

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As Rachel heads downstairs to find something to eat she stops dead in her tracks when she hears a familiar voice coming from the room across from her. She leans her head against the door and closes her eyes letting his voice take her back in time.

Girl when I look at you
You look through me
Like I'm not even there
I try not to give up, to be strong but
I'm afraid to say I'm scared
I can't find the place
Your heart is hiding
I'm no quitter but I'm tired of fighting

Finn and I were sitting in his car I had no idea of what was going on all I knew was that we were getting married and we were going to be together and nothing was going to get in the way.

"What are we doing here?" I ask him as we pull into the train station.

"You are going to get on that train and you're going to go to New York and you're going to be a star without me. That's how much I love you. You know what we are going to do? Surrender. I know how hard that is for you because of how hard you hold on to stuff. But we're just going to sit here and we're going to let go and let the universe do it's thing, and if we're meant to be together, then we're going to be together. Whether it's in a little shoebox apartment in New York or on the other side of the world. Will you do that for me?

Will you surrender?"

"I love you so much."

"I love you."

Baby I love you
Don't want to lose you
Don't make me let you go
Took such a long time
For me to find you
Don't make me let you go
Baby I'm begging please
And I'm down here on my knees
I don't want to have to set you free
Don't make me

Rachel leaned in closer with each word the tears she had held onto for so long came falling down. He was the one that left her not the other way around. The only reason she even left for New York was because he had pushed her. No matter what she said or did he just pushed her further and further away.

What if when I'm long gone
It dawns on you
You just might want me back
Let me make myself clear
If I leave here
It's done; I'm gone, that's that
You carry my love around
Like it's a heavy burden
Well I'm about to take it back
Are you sure it's worth it

Rachel let her thoughts wander thinking about the last time that they had talked well…it really wasn't talking but…it was the moment she realized that if they didn't do something there wasn't going to be anything left.

Rachel had been driving all around town trying to find Finn. She was pissed as hell that he just up and left with out saying a word.

She should've known that he would be in the auditorium.

"Wow. What am I going to do with my life? I don't have my girl. I don't have a job. I don't have a place in this world."

"You have you, and that's better than anyone else on the planet as far as I'm concerned.'

"Who am I? I barely even graduated high school and my life has absolutely no direction."

"Don't you get it? No matter how rich, or famous, or successful I become, when it comes to you, I'm always going to be that moon-eyed girl who freaked you out at a first glee rehearsal. You are the first boy who made me feel loved, and sexy, and visible. You are my first love. And I want more than anything for you to be my last. But I can't do this anymore. At least not now. We're done."

"I was trying to give you your freedom."

"I don't need you to give me my freedom. I am a grown woman. I don't need you to hide from me to keep me from doing what is right for me."

"I just needed time to think."

"You had four months. I hated you for what you did to me at that train station."

"I was trying to help you."

"I hated you. And then when I got to New York, I thought how much you love me. And how hard that must have been for you. And I thought this...this is what a man looks like. This is how a man loves. But you, not telling me where you were for four months, and sneaking out before sunrise in the middle of the night without saying goodbye, that is not being a man, Finn.

[To Finn] This place is kind of like our Jerusalem. All roads seem to just lead us back here.

This is where you proposed to me. When you did, you reminded me it's where we had our first date. It's also where we first met. Do you remember that?"

"Yeah, glee rehearsal. You, uh, you really freaked me out."

He was the one to walk away but…she was the one to end it without a thought. Rachel opened the door slowly as not to disturb him. She stood there in the doorway and watched him sing the song. She could see the hurt he tried so hard to hide.

She wanted so badly to tell him everything that was in her heart but…her mind wouldn't let her. She wanted more than anything to run into his arms and start over but…she knew they had to fix the past before they could plan a future.

(Don't make me)

Baby I'm begging please
And I'm down here on my knees
I don't want to have to set you free
Don't make me

Baby I love you
Don't want to lose you
Don't make me let you go

Don't make me
Stop loving you

(Don't make me)

Stop needing you

She wiped away her tears and took a deep breath as he finished out the song. "Hey." She said her voice barely a whisper. Finn looked up from his guitar and smiled.

"Hey."

"Can we like talk?" She said moving closer to him not taking her eyes off him. Her voice was thick with emotion.

"Sure." He says setting his guitar down and walking towards her. He could tell by her voice that she had been crying. "Rach….is everything ok?" She shakes her head and collapses in his arms letting out everything that she had been holding in. "Shh…" he whispers in her ear as he pulls her closer.

"I'm sorry." She says breaking their embrace and wiping the tears from her face as she takes a seat on the edge of the bed.

"Don't be." he says taking a seat next to her. "This Jesse guy meant a lot to you didn't he?" he says as he tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. Rachel closes her eyes taking in the feel of his touch as she shakes her head.

"No…Jesse didn't mean anything to me." she simply states.

"Then why are you crying." he asked confused he thought for sure this was Jesse's doing.

"I felt it." She says as Finn gets even more confused.

"Felt what?" He asked not prepared for the answer she gave him.

"When you brushed my hand at the airport I…felt it." She tells him looking him in the eye.

"And…what was it that you felt?" He says trying not to get his hopes up.

"Magic." Ok…so that was really cheesy but…it was the first word that came to mind.

"And…how did it make you feel?" he asked as he couldn't help but laugh at her choice of words.

"Alive…safe…like…everything was going to be ok." Rachel pauses for a minute as she looks up at Finn. " I should've never walked away. I was just so pissed that you leave me at that train station and after four months of not a word from you. You just waltz back in my life a life that I had finally began to accept. Just when I think that we might have been getting back on track you disappear in the middle of the night with out even a good bye." She tries to explain.

"Rachel…I was an ass and I let my pride get in the way there is no excuse for what I did you had every right to walk away. I was just too stupid to realize what we had and when I did it was too late. Ever since you walked away I was in a daze I kept telling everyone that I was over you and I had moved on. But…the truth is I never got over you. I mean….how could I just look at you." Finn brings his hand to her face and gently strokes her cheek Rachel closes her eyes as she can feel him move closer. She can feel the warmth of his breath on her lips and it sends chills down her body. She wants so badly to kiss him and tell him how much she missed him and how much she still loves him. Rachel pulls away as reality hits her.

"No…Finn…we can't do this." She shakes her head as she looks at Finn and she can see the hurt on his face.

"I know." Finn says as his voice falters.

"Finn…it's the history. If we do this I want us to do this right." She tries her best to explain.

"Ok…you want a clean slate. You've got it." He says trying to understand what she is saying.

"No…no…I don't want a clean slate as you put it. More like I don't want our prior offenses being held against us." She can see his expression change.

"Ok…so why don't we try being friends and see what happens from there?" Finn offers.

"I'd like that." Rachel gives him a small smile as she feels her stomach rumble.

"You hungry?" He asked noticing the sound her stomach made. Rachel gives a small nod. "How about we get out of her and get something to eat and I can show you around LA?" Finn tells her.

"I'd like that." she smiles.

"Friends?" he says getting up and extending his hand out.

"Friends." she tells him placing her hand in hers.

Ok…so there you have it sorry that this is so long but once I started writing I couldn't stop. I hope you like it. Leave a review if you'd like thank you for reading.