How About Forever

Emily's POV

I'm sitting in my car crying like a fool. Again. All because i followed my heart again. I kissed her again and she didn't stop me but i kiss her after and she shuts me down. I don't even get a say in the matter. Then i sit for days and cry my eyes out or i get so mad that i drink and get in a state. The only person i can talk to is Hannah but she and Caleb were away for the weekend. I put on the ignition and drove to the nearest store and bought a bottle of whiskey. I immediately pop the lid and down half the bottle. Now ridiculously drunk that i decided that it is a good idea to drive home (Not my best idea). My vision was blurry and i couldn't really see at all. I started to drive home but as it was blurry. I don't remember much except lights and car noises then nothing no noise no nothing.

I woke up two days later in a hospital bed. Hannah was sleeping in a chair beside me.

"Hannah, what happened to me."

It was hard for me to even say words. My lung must have clasped or something because i couldn't even breath properly without it hurting.

"Em, Your OK?"

And with that Hannah gave me a hug. She had quite a worried face. She had not got a lot of sleep.

"I'm alright but what happened."

"OK well you have a punctured lung, a broken leg, a broken arm and a spinal injury. Your going to need help around the house for the next few weeks."

"also Alison stopped by she seemed really upset so spill."

"well OK i kissed Alison a week ago but two days ago i tried to kiss her again got shut down bought whiskey got drunk then i don't know."

"well you drove into a tree and Alison said she was coming back today so you two are going to talk it out OK ?"

"No not this time Hannah. Not this time because I'm done with her she broke my heart again. Every time your left to pick up the pieces and your not mad."

"No em I'm not mad. I'm not. I'm really not because i know you two are going to end up together and when that happens i don't what to be the one who tells you not to try and follow your dreams with the girl you've dreamed about since forever."

As Hannah said those words to me it hurt because she was wrong me and Ali weren't going to end up together. I had lost all hope in us ever being together.

"Han I'm really tired so I'm going to rest but you should go home for a bit I'll call if i need anything OK?"

"i leave soon OK but I'm waiting on the doctor giving me news about your condition. By the way your mum isn't here because she can't get away from her work in new York but I'm keeping her up to date. She will be here as soon as she can."

I try to rest as best as i can but I'm in to much pain to do so. Instead i just close my eyes and try not to move. I could hear Hannah leave and i heard doctors come in and out most of the day. I didnt know what time it was but i knew i would have to open my eyes soon because i was starving. Just as i was about to open my eyes i heard someone come in and kiss me on the head. i knew who it was straight away because i would know that vanilla perfume anywhere. I also knew Ali was coming to visit today. Alison took a seat beside me and cupped my hand. I could feel tears running down her face and on to the back of my hand. Before i had time to open my eyes she started to speak. I didn't want her to stop so i kept my eyes shut.

"Em I'm so so sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you all those times and making you upset. You nearly died and i know you're asleep but I love you so much and i just can't tell you. I'm sorry.

there's only one thing i can think after that moment. She loves me.

I love her too.