Raph was walking towards the lair he was already in the sewers after slipping through some random manhole cover. He was piss, that was for sure, and not just at Leo like usual. He was piss at every one Donnie, Mikey, April, Casey, hell even Master splinter. They had done something he couldn't even remember and he was going to go get his revenge. More in likely yelling or maybe smacking a few of them over the head. But as he was walking home he couldn't help that everything seemed smaller. He couldn't help but also notice the old subway token eaters (have no clue what those things are) that they seemed so small to him.

'Weird' he thought 'probably my imagination gone wild' he turned over to see Mikey on the couch with Casey. They were both laughing at something were watching, surprisingly not Robo Mega Super Heroes but some other nameless TV show. As he look at Casey and Mikey he couldn't help but see they seemed…different. As if older, in some way. Mikey appeared to be much taller, at least sick feet. His shell had a few more scratches on it, and his freckles were a little faded. As for Casey his hair was longer, at shoulder length, and he had more of a muscle build as well. He wanted to stop and ask why the look so different, but his bady didn't obey, he began to get confuse. He only saw himself through his eyes and that was it, he couldn't even control which direction they were looking. He saw himself stand behind Casey and Mikey, both now looking up at him, both of their features making them look at least 25.

"Hey Raph, what-" that all what Mikey said before Raph did something totally unexpected and horrifying. He took his 2 now much larger hands, took both Mikey and Casey head and smash them together, and not softly either. He saw their lifeless bodies fall to the ground, blood coming out and their chest frozen to where it was clear obvious they were dead.

'MIKEY, CASEY!' Raph mentally scream in horror trying so desperately to move to help his brother and best friend, but his body didn't move. Then that's when he herd a laugh, that he made. He then realize that laugh didn't sound like his, it sounded like spikes, or slash's laugh.

'I'm in spikes body' Raph realize in horror 'why did he just kill Mikey and Casey, why?' he meantlly ask, as if he didn't remember that he had feed his pet turtles heart with rage from endlessly letting telling angry feelings to him, causing him to think the only way he would be happy was if his whole family was dead. His thoughts were stop when he saw spike move again, straight towards Donnie lab. 'No Slash, spike stop please stop' Raph mentally beg, but spike didn't stop. He saw slash surprisingly walk quietly to the open door. In side he saw Donnie and surprisingly April, they both seem different. Donnie appeared much taller now, almost 7 feet he would guess, his shell also covered in more scrapes then before, also appearing 25. April also appeared much different, her hair that was once worn in a ponytail and head band was gone, now worn straight down to her mid back, it also appeared to be a darker red now. She now was wearing a formal/casual yellow shirt with dark blue pants and black flats. Her freckles had also faded some as well, she was now taller but was still a foot and a half smaller than Donnie. She was laughing at something while Donnie was blushing but also smiling at her with happiness he never seen before. April shock him by suddenly standing on her tiptoe and pulled Donnie head down to give him a kiss, it was short but was obviously filled with love for his younger brother who also returned. Raph wasn't sure weather to die from shock or slap the green of him to make sure he wasn't crazy. Then they stop and turned towards him, he expected them to look in shock and Donnie to stand in the way to protect April. But they both gave a weary smile before Donnie greeted him.

"Oh, hey Raph, how ar-" again Donnie didn't finish his sentence when spike was now in front of Donnie, his weapon drawn and now through his stomach, making sure to hit the right spot so he would die quickly even if he were in a hospital and were ready to operate on him. April gave out a horrid cry of shock as Donnie grabbed his stomach before bending down in pain, she was going to run to his side before spike grab her by the head and through her against the closes wall and slam her head against the wall. A satisfying crunch from her head, and drop her carelessly on the ground like a rag doll. Donnie scream in horror as April fell, Raph felt horrified as he watch his bleeding brother now try to crawl to April. But before he could touch her spike kick him hard and half way across the room into some nameless invention. Spike then began to walk away leaving the 2 love birds to die, if they were not already dead. Raph was mentally shaking his head, whish with everything he had this would just end, that this wasn't happening, but it didn't. he saw spike make his silent way to the dojo, he open the door to see Leo meditating. He was also larger now 6.7 at the most, he also seemed older and his katana seemed larger as well and thicker. He didn't even acknowledge him, he just kept meditating as if a giant 10 foot turtle had walk into the room thirsty. Raph didn't even realize he was mentally yelling for slash to stop as he now stood behind Leo. He then took his already blood covered Sais as he drew back and stab Leo in the back of the head. Raph watch in horror as he felt Leo had stiffen before the Sai went straight into his head. Spike drew it back and then turned away giving another joyous laugh as he walk away, now towards Master Splinters room. Raph use every piece of will power he had trying to take control of spikes body, trying his hardest to take control or talk sense into the once regular now mutant turtles head, but it was in vein. Raph saw how spike walk so quietly into his masters bedroom, he wonder why he hadn't woken up, for surely he would have felt his presence long before but he did nothing. He saw in horror and probably teary gaze if had control of the eyes. His master didn't even move as the blood Sai came and down and stab him in the heart. He saw his Master eyes widen with shock and horror as he look up, his gaze asking why before they close permanently. Raph heart broke as he saw his master dead, his whole family dead, his 2 best friends dead, every one he ever cared or love now dead. He felt spikes body move away, hearing another laugh as he walk away.

'How could he do this' Raph wondered as he felt the mental tears fall, 'I know I use to talk so much to spike about how much I hated my brothers but still…..how could any one be this cruel' Raph then notice where they were heading to, they were going towards his room. He had small curiosity for his actions as he saw Spike walk up to his door. He stop and Raph and stared at it through his eyes, wondering what he was thinking. He then saw the hand slowly push open the door, it was dark inside. He saw himself walk inside and the door behind him mysteriously closed. Confusion filled his head for he was certain his room was never this dark before, even when the lights were turned off. He then saw a light; it was small but slowly getting bigger. He saw the light slowly turn into a mirror. It was flipping towards them and going at a pace to where Raph couldn't get a clear glimpse at slash and one side didn't reflect a picture. The mirror stop within a foot from him, it was on the none reflection side as Raph realize this mirror was about as tall and wide as he was. Then the mirror began to slowly turn and when Raph saw the reflection he gasp in horror. In the reflection was him, but older. His shell was covered in scratches and his muscles were much bigger and also realize how much taller and stronger he was. He saw his face hold a smile as his hands were red with blood, he couldn't believe how he thought he was spike. But then he realized why his brothers didn't stare in shock or horror when 'slash' had come in and why the look so utterly horrified and shock when he killed them.

'I killed them I killed them I killed them'

The line words repeated like a broken record in his head, it wouldn't stop, why had he killed them, why did he feel so angry and yet, relief when they died.

'No, no, nonononononono,' he saw his future self nod and began to speak in a ruff voice just like slash spoke in.

"Yes, yes, yes, yes"

Raph mentally fell on his knees hearing his voice endlessly say yes, he couldn't take it.

'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!'

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Raph scream as he shot out of bed, moving so fast he fell off the bed and onto the ground. He look down to his blood red blanket. Thinking for a second that it was real blood he threw it away from him, taking deep and steady breaths trying not to cry as his eyes felt a sting sensation he hadn't felt in god knows how long. He took deep breaths trying to calm down. He almost scream again when he herd a knock on the door.

"Raph, everything okay?" Came Donnie's concern voice. Raph took a deep breath before reaching to his red bandana and placing it on his head again. As if putting on an emotional mask, he threw his blanket onto the bed and walk up to the door with an annoyed look. He open the door to reveal Donnie with Mikey and Leo behind him, they probably voted for Donnie to open the door since they figured he would snap at them. They were right.

"What do ya want?" He snap, even after a horrid nightmare like that he was still grumpy when he woke up.

"W-we just wanted t-to check on you, we herd screaming" Donnie said saying the last part quietly. Raph sigh as he was grateful it was just a dream and his brothers stood in front of him unharmed and safe. He rolled his eyes before trying to tell them in a tough way he was fine.

"Well don't worry bout' me, 'm fine" he said, some what slurred from waking up.

"Are sure, you were screaming" Leo said worried.

"Ya you scream louder than when you see a Cockroach." Mikey stated, making Raph glare at him.

"Did not" He snap, then he felt something on his foot, he look down and to his shock saw a Cockroach. Living in the sewers Cockroach were spotted easily in the room. The reason there wasn't 1/6 of the amount of Roach's that would have originally littered the lair if it were not for the special chemical Donnie sprayed around the lair and extra amount of the stuff around Raph room, but apparently the last batch was not as strong as usual. Raph scream before hopping around trying to get the bug off of him. The stupid thing was stuck on him like glue and even began to climb up his leg. Raph began to run around the lair like a chicken with its head cut off, not going near his room for he didn't want the thing to get stuck in his room. He ran for about 5 minutes before finally managing to squash the stupid thing and wipe the guts off of his leg. He groan as he realize he acted like a stupid scared girl in front of his brother, oh joy!

"See you scream just like that" Mikey said running up to him as if he couldn't hear Mikey from where he stood. "Except louder and you said something too." He said, Raph but Mikey ignored him too far into thought. "Wonder what you said, it sounded like 'oh' or maybe 'low' for 'crow' or 'moe' or 'so' or 'toe' or-" His mouth was suddenly covered by Leo trying to keep him from making his brother made enough to chase Mikey.

"Okay we get it Mikey, Raph scream something." Leo said, then look at Raph concern. "Are you sure you're okay" he ask, now releasing Mikey once Mikey got the point that he should shut up.

"I already told ya, 'm fine, now leave me alone" He said rolling his eyes, Leo look concern and continued to press on, the other 2 stepping back, for almost 16 years of living with them they knew when a fight was to start.

"I already said I was fine, god how many times you gonna ask before ya get it through your tick skull that 'm fine!" Raph yelled now getting annoyed, leo drew back now mad as he began to yell back.

"I was just trying to make sure you were okay, you could be a little more nice when some one is just trying to help you" Leo snap back, oh the fight was so on now.

"Well who said I need your help, ya lectures aren't gonna help me this time fearless" Raph said, their foreheads almost touching as they stared at each other, anger in each others eyes.

"Well if you would tell me what was the problem then maybe I could help you" Leo said, dark ocean blue staring into neon emerald green, foreheads now actually touching.

"Who ever said I wanted your help fearless!" Few more comments were made, anger taking control and the erg to punch him grew stronger. Finally he snap turning around attending to punch the closes thing to him, which happen to be Mikey. His fist stop a inch away from his now flinching face surprise and not at all expecting to see Mikey there. His memories suddenly reminding him of the annoying sound in the background was Mikey trying to separate them. A flash of Mikey on the floor dead came into his mind, he step back grateful he hadn't actual hit him.

"Mikey are you okay" Donnie ask, for he had seen Raph fist but wasn't sure if he got hit. Mikey took a second to response before he gave Donnie a freak look.

"I think I saw my life flash before my eyes." He said, Raph however remembered seeing Mikey's eyes full of surprise like he saw in his dream before he killed Mikey. Raph suppress a shiver as Leo as came to Mikey making sure he wasn't injured before turning to Raph.

"Raph whats wrong with you, you almost hit Mikey" Leo snap, he might have said it a little harsh but Mikey was the baby, and so that meant no one could hurt the baby, no without hearing it from him.

"I didn't…..I mean….I…..WHAT EVER I'M LEAVIN'!" With that Raph turned around and storm off towards the door, he herd the faint sounds of his brothers shouting for him to stop but he ignored them. Besides, he needed to think as well as let some steam off. His brother should know the drill by now, so why did they think he would suddenly turn around, automatically cool off, and even apologies to them. Well, Mikey did deserve an apology, but for him it took at least a day before he could apologize. Raph sigh as he gently place the manhole cover into place before taking to the roof tops to look for some one to bash their skull in, little did he know he would come home with something other than him back to the lair.

OKAY THAT WAS THE FIRST CHAPTER, NOT BAD IF U ASK ME BUT HEY YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. I'M PRETTY SURE I GOT ALL THE FACTS RIGHT AS WELL AS THE PERSONALITY PART AS WELL. HOPE U LIKE AND MORE SHALL COME. AS ALWAYS READ AND REVIEW.

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