I suck in a long breath of air, thoroughly annoyed with the menacing pile of paperwork sitting at the corner of my desk. Usually I just grit through the paper cuts and long business telephone conversations, but I am more restless now than I have ever been.

A soft knock on the door lets me know I am no longer alone. Sebastian silently enters as he always does; with the mind and reflexes of a demon he has no need for noises made by a door opening or leather shoes walking on the floor. "Young master," he says in his calm, reassuring voice, "Shouldn't you be working?" He puts on his sweetest smile possible, being very careful not to anger me.

"I can't concentrate on my work," I grumble, "I am much to restless to sit still all day." I lean back in my soft leather chair and rest my head on my fingers supported my the chairs arm. I look intently at Sebastian, awaiting his response. He simply frowns at me.

"Young master, perhaps you just take a break and rest in your room?" he says softly. The unsure look on his face has me very curious as to what he is thinking.

I sit silently looking at Sebastian's face for some time. "Perhaps you are right," I sigh. And with that my faithful butler approaches me and stands on the right side of my chair, slightly behind me so he is looking down on me. I watch him intently wondering what he is doing. He bends down low so his porcelain face is inches from mine. I gasp and hold my breath, he's never been so close to me before. I look into his deep red eyes as he lifts me up and into his arms. I slowly breathe out, still staring into his eyes I notice he is holding me much closer to his face as he should.

"SEBASTIAN!" I shout at him, "What the hell do you think you're doing?!"

"My lord," he coos at me, "I am carrying you to your chamber, is that not what you wanted?"

I could have walked myself to my room. Hmmph.. I let him carry me. Soon we are at my room's door, he turns and pushes it open with his back, smiling down at me as he does so. I blush as his scarlet eyes look me over in his arms.

I blushed?... Why would I blush? I quickly look away as he lays me on my silken sheets. He leans over me with an arm on each side of me and leans close to me. "Is there anything else you require my lord?" he whispers to me.

I can't think of anything else that I require, but there is still a restlessness in me, and I still can't figure out what I want.

What am I thinking?! I lean forward to meet him and softly press my lips to his. I can feel his shock. I can feel him pull away slightly, but he gives in. I feel him press back slightly; and with this I pull back and look away, my face as red as his inquisitive and concerned eyes. I expect him to leave immediately, but to my surprise he stays by my beside.

"You may leave now Sebastian." I say quickly, still making sure not to look at him. He bows his head and walks away as quietly as he always does.

I feel all tingly all over... Kissing him felt so... good. I watch him leave; not once does he turn back to look at me. When I hear the door click shut I press my face into the pillow to hide forever. What the hell have I done?