...so this is my frist fanfiction. i hope you like it thanks.
She follows me in the tragic cycle that has become my family I tried to stop it but, of course the odds where never in my favor were they.
My mother was a capital socialite and was quite famous. Than she found out she was pregnant with me. she didn't need me in her life is what the note she left me said. It also said she "loved me" and maybe later in life we could reconnect but, for now she had to leave me in district two where all the not good enough and not needed people went. My goal in childhood was to be wanted and needed but, how could you ever be wanted if your own mother didnt want you. Then I thought if I won the hunger games she would love,want,and need me. so I trained and pushed myself to be the best. pushing all on my friends away in the process. when i was fifteen he came along. at first we were just district partners, then friends,then more. he told me he loved me. I finally felt needed. we were a pair, two pieces of a whole, he need me and i needed him. when he asked for everything i had i gave it him whole heartedly. over and over again because I was finally loved and wanted.
Then the night before my reaping i found out i was pregnant . i also found out he didnt love me. he loved what i could give him because of how broken i was . i never wanted to start a family like this. i never told anyone i was pregnant. i won the games for her. but i saw what victory did to the so-called victors. it slow killed us from the inside out. I knew i couldn't keep her it wouldn't have been fair. i gave her away to a friend so i could watch her grow and left her a note.
" to my dearest daughter i love you and will always fight for you. you may never know who i am but i will always be watching, loving and fighting for you. - you mother"
i became like an aunt to her. she was so full of life and always asked so many questions. but when she started training it all changed she became what i was. broken,angry, and always striving to be better for a mother she never knew was right around the corner. she also fell for her district partner Cato. i thought things would be different because he really loved her. but she became pregnant, and volunteered for the games with me as her mentor.
do you know how awful it is to hold the future of you daughter and grandchild in you hands but to be bested by a drunken washed up man. as she went up on the launch pad i told her everything. and she screamed she hated me. i watched her kill and turn into a career and i watched her die and i heard the last words on her lips " i forgive you mum." and thought the cycle was ended over until a knock at door. and an avox stood there holding a pink blanket which held my granddaughter Iris . I promised to end the cycle when i signed up for the rebellion for my little Clove. And her and Cato's Iris.
thank you for reading. the characters and all hunger games stuff belong to Suzanne Collins. also i might write an alternate one where Clove or Cato or both live. it depends on the response this gets. thanks again. love cj.