"Eli! Stop! Eli!" Clare was yelling at me between fits of giggles. I couldn't help but laugh at her, helplessly under my spell of tickling.

Clare and I have been closer than ever, we've been going out for the past 3 months, and we have shared some new experiences with each other. We swapped virginities already, it was one of the most special moments of our lives, I was so worried that she would regret it, that I was pressuring her, but she said that she wanted to do it too, so we did. It was beautiful and I will remember it for the rest of my life.

"Eli! PLEA- *giggle* PLEASE! I"LL DO *giggle* ANY THIN-G *giggle*" I sighed,

"Anything?" I asked,

"ANYTHING *giggle*" so I stopped,

"Alright then, kiss me, right here in front of the whole school, and not just a little chaste kiss, I want some PDA rocking high!" she looked at me, I have been hanging out with Adam too much.

She slowly made her way to me, and we started slowly, kissing in a regular kiss, where Clare usually drew the line. I held her closer, and things quickly began to heat up. We were oblivious to the whistling and hoot from our underclass man, and names and comments of the upperclassmen. We were even oblivious to the principal who pulled us apart, clearing his throat. That embarrassed Clare, while I just smirked.

Of course Clare and I got into the normal argument once and a while, nothing too big. But one time, Clare told me she had to tell me something important, after one of out fights. I guess this was the end of the road.

I stayed up the entire night crying, I have never felt this way about anyone before in my entire life. I felt as though she was the best part of me. Without her, I couldn't heal; I was just an empty shell. But I couldn't let that happen. Maybe I can change the outcome.

CLARE POV

Oh my,

"Clare, it's not that big a deal, it was just ONE drink, I mean why don't you have one? It's not like it can hurt you by drinking once in a while, jeez, sometimes I wonder." That hurt deep, I couldn't believe he just said that. I cannot believe that Eli would ever second guess me like that just because I asked him not to drink.

"Clare, I didn't mean that I swear," that shows him, I got up and walked away, tears threatening exposure, I wasn't about to give him the satisfaction. I grabbed all my stuff, and went to walk out of the door, he tried to block it, but I glared at him, more offending than I met for it to be. He sighed and stepped aside, but not before grabbing my arm lightly.

"Call me later?" his eyes poured his true questions. "Please forgive me, I really do love you." I sighed and nodded as I walked to my house, finally letting my stray tears stain my face, like a wave crashing over me, a wave of guilt, from where I don't know, a wave of fear, and most importantly a wave of rejection washed through me like Tsunami, destroying everything in its past.

I walked up to my room. As I lay on my bed, I thought about what I had to do today. It was so hard thinking what Eli was going to say when I told him, but his utterly bad decision to argue with me today, made me telling him truly impossible. I started crying, I really didn't know how I could tell him, without getting hurt, or hurting him. It was a complicated situation; the only people I told were Adam and Alli. I guess I should call Eli.

"Eli, its Clare." I could even hear the tense in my voice, like a child who's done something bad, and is trying to plat the scenario down.

"Blue eyes I know its you, are you okay I really am sorry." I sighed, I knew he was sorry, and I should forgive him since pretty soon he will be the one who grants forgiveness.

"It's okay, really. I just, we need to talk." And with that, she heard her mom coming up the stairs, she was in no mood to speak with her horrid mother right now, she quickly hung up her phone, and laid down, covering up, faking sleep, but she wasn't faking for ling, because then the unconsciousness overtook her mind, and she fell away to dream land.

"Eli, I love you." He smiled,

"I love you moreeeee" he said in a singsong voice, I pulled him up for a kiss, and of course he complied. He slowly started placing kisses of fire and ice down here jaw, at first they were fiery, then as he continued, the spots turned all cold and icy, leaving a trail down to her neck. That was the night that she gave him her virginity, and her his. He had never felt like this with anyone, not even Julia, she rarely entered his mind anymore. Of course he could never forget her, but it was easier to talk about, and the memories, didn't creep through the mist back into his mind. They loved each other and that was enough.

ELI POV

It's now morning and I haven't even blinked. Who could I ask for help in a situation like this? Then one person popped in my head. Adam. No, wait he wouldn't tell me if Clare told him anything, she would've made sure to keep it from me. Alli? No, she is too close to Clare to care about how much I NEED this information. What am I supposed to do, she is going to break up with me, wait! No she isn't! not if she doesn't get the chance. I quickly text Clare. I am going to woo her over again. I smirked, the things this girl does to me.

I drove over to Adams to hangout; the disappointment was clear on my face when Drew told me that he went with Alli over to Clare's. Drew shrugged, and shut the door. I then got a text from Clare, saying that she was busy, and couldn't talk to me today, something with her parents. But why would Alli or Adam have to be there? Now I wasn't just confused as fuck, I was pissed off. I called Adam.

"Hey, man wanna hangout?" I wasn't going to let him know that I talked to Drew, or that I knew where he was.

"Sorry, man, um, I, me and Drew, YEA! Drew, we're studying." You could SO tell that was a lie. But then something more important shocked me. I heard people in the background.

"Shh, Clare, it'll be okay, I swear, he will understand." Then I heard a "SHH!" fallowed by muffling. I heard through the muffling. "Eli, Hear, phone." I was growing more furious by the minute.

"Well, how come Drew said you were at Clare's and Clare said she was with her parents?" it was quiet for a while. Then I heard more muffling.

"Eli," it was Clare. I wasn't going to let her talk, I was beyond furious, what the HELL was going on?

"No, Clare, you listen, if all you can do is lie to me, then it's over, bye I got to go." That was the hardest thing I had ever done, yet why did I feel so guilty?

CLARE POV

I dropped the phone. Oh no. this couldn't be happening.

"Clare? Clare? Are you okay?" I don't remember even hearing their voices, over and over in my head all I could hear and see was Eli, and our past, and how it was just over, with a few words said. Those little words cut me so deep, I couldn't breathe. He was leaving us. We were abandoned by him, and he doesn't even know.