"santana come on we have to leave now!" ugh todays the day. the day were i leave my old life behind and have to start a new one. not to mention its in the middle of the school year. i really wish i was different.i wish i didnt make that stupid mistake. i wish i didnt have anger problems.i wish i could have friends and let people in. but i cant. i cant let me or someone else get hurt. i cant control my anger. i am in my seinor year of highschool but yet i have never had a boy friend or been on a date. i dont even know what it feels like to have a crush or like someone.
i walk down stairs everything is packed up and i take one last look at my house. a walk out. i walk away from my childhood memorys. i am leaving the only person that has ever been my friend and put up with me though all of this. and the only person i can talk to and now she is going to be over an hour away. i really am going to miss rachel. i step into the car which my partents are already in and they drive away. i look out the back window and hold my breath intell i cant see my house any more. well my old house now. i wish this was a dream that i am going to wake up and everything will be okay. but im my life nothing is ever okay.
"were here." wow i must have fallen asleep. i open my eyes and were parked in our new drive way. they house is even bigger then the last one. my dads a huge doctor and my moms a laywer. so i tend to get spoild. i open the car door and step outside. my parents are grabbing some of the things out of the car and i look around. well cheres to a new start. ugh.
everything is already in the house all the funiture and there are boxes everywhere that we have to unpack.
i walk up to my room. its huge. i have a nice walk in closet and my own bathroom. "you like your room?" i jump and turn around to see my mom standing there. im not going to lie this house is amazing. its nice and big but i still perfer are old house with all my memories and it feels less homey in this house. but i smile and put on my best performace. i dont like making my parents feel bad. especally because there the only people i have in my life. "yes mom thank you i love it."
i turn around and look at the boxes and the labels and look for the ones that say clothes. i figure id start oragizing my closet first.
i open every box and find my docking station and plug my ipod into it and press play. and my favourite song comes on "HEY I HEARD YOU WERE A WILD ONE!" i start singing along with the song "OHHH" and then start dancing around my room "IF I TOOK YOU HOME IT WOULD IT BE A HOME RUN!" i grad my boxes and make my way into the closet. "SHOW ME HOW YOU DO!." i start unpacking all my clothes and hanging them up and putting my shoes on the shevels and my belts on another one. i hang my scarfs up. if there is one thing i know i am good at its fashion i know how to dress and make my self look good its one of my hobbies and the other would be singing. the too things that make me happy. i finsih putting away all my clothes and change into some confterable sweats and a crop top with my sports braw underneth. about 2 hours later i finished with my room.
the song changed and a thousand years came on and i sit on my window legde. and sing along with the music.
heartbeats fast colors and promies how to be brave how can i love when im afraid to fall but watching you stand alone all of my doubt suddenly does away somehow one step closer
*i stand up and look in my mirror at my reflection*
i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afriad i habe loved you for a thousand years i love you for a thousand more
* i pick up my make up and put some on*
time stand still beauty and all she is i will be brave i will not let anything take away whats standing in front of me every breath every hour has come to this one step closer i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afiad i have loved you for a thousand years i love you for a thousand more and all along i believed i would find you time has brought your hear to me i have love you for a thousand years i love you for more
*i put all my emotion into the ending*
one step closer one step closer
*a tear come down my face and i wipe it away and sit back on window ledge*
i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afaid i have loved you for a thousand years i love you for thousand more and all along i believe i would find you time has brought you hear to me i have loved you for thousand years i love you for a thousand more
*i look outside and i see a girk staring at me from across the window. she was blond and had bright blue eyes. beautiful. i realized i was stairing to so i looked away and when i glazed back she was gone. great now she probably thinks she has a creepy naboor or something.*
Brittanys pov:
i woke up today extermly tired. i checked the time it 10:06 ugh im hung over from the party last night. my head is pounding. BUZZ. who the hell is calling this early. "hello?" "morning to you sleepy head." ofcourse "hey quinn." quinn has been my best friend since we were 6 years old. we have ruled the high school from the day we steped into the school. high school has been the best experence for me. i am popular, head cheerleader, lots of friends, tones of boys drulling over me. life is great. "how are you?" my head kills "ugh alright and you?" "same" okaay is there a point to this converstion. "um quinn why did you call?" "well i was bored and i thought that you might want to hang today?" aka fins not around. "i cant sorry i have homework that i need to get done." "okay sooo.. todays the day your new nabours move in eh?" ugh dont remind me. my last nabours were the worst. "yeah i know but anything is better then the ones i had before." she laughs "thats true."
we talk on the phone for abit then i her vocies outside. i get up and look down to see these new nabours. "there here." i see a mom a dad but no one else. "ohh what do you see ? what do they look like? any hot boys?" i roll my eyes at quinns last question. "i see a man and a women and im guessing there married." "thats it they have the biggest house in whole nabourhood i mean its huge and there is only a husband and wife?" i see the car door open and a girl walks out. i cant really tell what she looks like. but i can tell she doesnt look happy to be here and she dresses very nicely. "i see a girl who just got out of the car and she looks about our age." "omg really? is she pretty ?" quinn is very insucre about how she looks and who is better looking then her. "i cant see her properly see her. i can only tell that she doesnt look happy and im guessing that about moving. umm and she dresses nicely." "hmm" thats all she says i can tell shes into a deep thought.
after quinn and i talk for abit longer. i got off and headed down stairs to get some food. "morning hunnie." my moms always in a good mood in the morning but i dont get how she can do it. "morning where jake?" my tool of a brother he just started high school this year and thinks hes amazing because he got on the football team. "he went to the gym with your dad to train for football." ofcourse he did. "okay im going back up stairs i have to geet some homework done." i grab an apple and head back up to my room.
half way though my homework i decide to take a break and have a shower. after my shower i got back to doing my home work. i was almost done when i heard..
heartbeats fast colors and promies how to be brave how can i love when im afraid to fall but watching you stand alone all of my doubt suddenly does away somehow one step closer
*i get up and look out my window but i dont see anyone there so i go and sit back down.*
i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afriad i habe loved you for a thousand years i love you for a thousand more time stand still beauty and all she is i will be brave i will not let anything take away whats standing in front of me every breath every hour has come to this one step closer
*who ever is singing has a beautiful voice i could listen to it forever. i can tell its a girl singing.*
i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afiad i have loved you for a thousand years i love you for a thousand more and all along i believed i would find you time has brought your hear to me i have love you for a thousand years i love you for more one step closer one step close
* i have to know whos singing. i go over and check to see if i can see anyone. i see the girl from earlier sitting on her window ledge. she so pretty. the prettest girl i have ever seen. and that voice i never want her to stop singing. i contiune to watch her memorized by her.*
i have died every day waiting for you darling dont be afaid i have loved you for a thousand years i love you for thousand more and all along i believe i would find you time has brought you hear to me i have loved you for thousand years i love you for a thousand more
* she finishs the song and has tears in her eyes. maybe she left her boyfriend back a home of something. i would be upset to if i had to leave my school and have to go to a new school in the middle of the year with people i dont know. i contuine to watch her and then she look out her window and spots me. right away are eyes lock and we stair at eachtother for what seems to be forever. the she looks away. shit. ugh why did i have to be such a creeper. now she is going to think she has a weird stocker narbour. i quickly run to my bed i didnt want her to see me standing there if she looked back again. this is going to be a long second semeter.*