A/N: Sorry guys for the delay. I was about to post, and then my computer deleted everything D: . That version, I believe, was better, but whatever. Anyway, flames will be ignored and review and/or comment because it makes me better! This takes place after neverland, because why not. Henry and Pan did not switch places in this (I hope Pan is in the river of lost souls burning in Hell right now) and he did not cast his curse.

The rating is for language (I tend to swear quite a bit but i will censor out the worse words) and their will be violence scenes in later chapters (You didn't expect Emma's past to be sunshine and rainbows, did you?).

I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY!

BTW: I DO NOT OWN OUAT. IF I DID I WOULD BRING ROBIN (AND GRAHAM-SORRY BUT I THINK NEAL WAS A DOUCHE) BACK AND ADAM AND EDDIE WOULD BE PAYING THE PRICE FOR REGINA NOT GETTING HER HAPPY ENDING.

She had forgotten. How the hell had she forgotten? She lived in fear of the little episodes, blocking them out of her mind.

Her most recent was the night before Henry showed up.

Henry, the son she never thought she would ever see again. She hadn't even looked at him before they had taken him away.

And then Neal, that BASTARD, had showed up again and turned her son against her.

And Killian, that arrogant pirate, had tried so hard to win her heart. If it wasn't for her walls, she would've fallen already.

And her parents. She had finally found them again, after so many years if blaming them for every abusive foster family and endless night that she cried herself to sleep. She had found them, and with that came the almost unbearable knowledge that they had wanted her; wanted her more that anything in the world but were forced to give her up, much like she was forced to give up her beautiful son, who ended up in the care of the f**king Evil Queen.

And Regina. She had somehow become a friend; someone that she was comfortable sharing a son with, unbelievably.

She was so screwed.

As fast as she found her family, like always, it was ripped from her with Cora and Neal's bitch fiancée and her boyfriend.
And then her son, her beautiful son who it seemed she had just found, was ripped away from her.
Neverland. That was where her family finally broke. First, her father had almost left her, and then her mother would've gladly let her go back to Storybrooke, abandon her again, just to stay there with her Prince Charming.

And then came the news the she wasn't what her mother wanted; that they wanted another child. One who wasn't as broken as she was.

The only constant was Hook, and even he got annoying with all his constant flirting.

Which reminded her... "Leave."

His trademark smirk did not falter. "Love, you can't get rid of me that easily."

A few frustrated tears track wet paths down her flushed cheeks.

She, on her last nerve, pushes him out the door of Mary Margret's (She still couldn't bring herself to call her mom) apartment. "Please Killian, just go."

He, being the arrogant pirate he is, pushes her back through the apartment door. "No, Swan. Now, what's bothering you?"

Damn, he could always see right through her.

And even now she could feel the dark thoughts creeping into her mind; the intense feeling of abandonment once again filling her. She shook her head. She wasn't ready. She was never ready.

He lowered his voice to a whisper. "Emma, love, what's wrong?"

A/N: THAT CONCLUDES THE FIRST CHAPTER. THERE WILL BE MORE, AND I WILL BE UPDATING FREQUENTLY. BYE GUYS!