Though she never truly wanted to go back to being a superheroine, Terra couldn't help but feel nostalgic over it. The Titans had all been her friends, and she was certain she had something truly special with Beast Boy. He was wonderful to her, and with him, she could forget all the horrors of her life.
But, she just had to make her mistakes, and here she was, in the Titans' living room four years after the fact, trying to reconnect with her old friends and be happy again. Beast Boy might be out of her reach for good now, with his relationship with Raven seeming to go just swimmingly. It had been a shock finding out, and even now, she's still surprised it hasn't failed yet. Still, at least he's happy with her, and while she would be first in line if the relationship ever does end (and hopefully on good terms), she's not about to root for them to fail. They both deserve to be happy. The superhero business can be exceptionally cruel to its employees, and she'll be the first one to advocate for people to get out if they can't handle it.
The Titans were all situated around her with mixed reactions. Beast Boy and Starfire seemed happy enough to see her. Cyborg seemed to be ambivalent, and Raven and Robin had the same indiscernible expressions she remembered them having.
"So..." Robin began, "You sure you don't want to be a Titan again? I can't speak for everyone, but I won't hold that business with Slade against you, given that you've had four years without any sort of incident, not even a ditched class."
She felt a sight of relief at being trusted again, despite how much she felt she didn't deserve it. "I'm sure Robin, I just don't think I can do it anymore after what I did. I just want my old friends back." Terra replied, before hastily adding, "Can I speak to Raven in private please? I have some things I want to say to her."
Robin raised an eyebrow, "Alright, just holler if you need me."
He left, ushering Starfire, Beast Boy, and Cyborg with him. An awkward silence followed for about a minute, until Raven finally decided to break it.
"What is this about, Terra?" she asked, still not entirely sure what to think of this situation.
Terra took in a deep breath, "Ok, look," she began. "I know I don't deserve your trust or forgiveness, but please believe me when I saw, I'm so sorry about everything I said to you when I decided to have the bright idea of having a mud bath with you. I truly did value your friendship before I betrayed all of you. It made me feel great when I got praise from you, and I appreciated that advice you gave me about Beast Boy more than you would believe. You have every reason to hate me. I hurt you, I hurt your boyfriend, and I hurt your friends. I don't expect you to just forget everything and go back to being friends with me just like that, but please, just give me a chance."
She was on the verge of breaking down in tears. Feelings and regrets that she had kept bottled up for years were now out in the open in front of someone she remembered could be particularly uncaring when she felt like it. Raven, on the other hand, was just staring in shock, slowly comprehending everything that Terra had just said.
'i guess it was too much to hope for forgiveness so soon, I'll just leave before I make things even more awkward"
Terra began to walk towards the door.
"Wait!"
She froze, and braced herself to be chewed out. She tried her best to hold back as many tears as she could, and slowly turned around. Suddenly, she felt nothing but confusion as Raven gave her an awkward, but still friendly hug.
"It's ok Terra." Raven finally gave her definitive answer, and continued, "If I truly hated you, I wouldn't have worked so hard to find a way to get you out of that rock statue. What you said to me, and did to the team did hurt, but you regret it as much as if you had actually killed me. That's all I can ask from you, and it would be hypocritical of me to hold what you said when we were fourteen against you. I understand where you're coming from completely, Lord knows, I still feel nothing but regret over some of the things I've said to Gar when we were dumb teenagers too."
Terra sniffed and began to awkwardly return the hug. "Thank you Raven, it means so much to me to hear you say that." She paused, and asked "But who is Gar?"
Raven ended the hug, and gave a soft smirk. "Oh, that would be Beast Boy's real name, short for Garfield."
Now Terra couldn't even begin to feel the tears that threatened to break loos just moments ago.
"Wait, seriously? Like the fat cat?"
"The one and the same."
"D-does he eat tofu lasagna?"
Raven snorted. "Way too much of it, if you ask me."
Now Terra was feeling at ease.
"He still eats way too much of that crap? Please tell me his hygiene's improved at least?"
"He values our relationship too much to neglect it." Raven smirked in response.
"Ha, I should have told him something similar back when we were close" Terra sighed wistfully. "I hope you're treating him right. Better than I ever got the chance to."
Raven gave a brief pause, as if considering her words. Then, she finally responded.
"I will not lie Terra, it's not a perfect relationship, and we're both still learning. But, to tell you the truth, it's definitely been worth it so far."
Terra smiled. "That's good, and for the record, I hope you guys have a good relationship, wherever it goes." She paused for a few seconds, unsure if she wanted to make this next bit known, and made her decision. "Although, if it does end up not working out, I'll be first in line to try to reconnect with him."
"That's a big "if" at this point, but I understand, and I will not let it affect our friendship. Just because we both love him, doesn't mean we have to hate each other for it. Want me to go get him? I know he wants to talk to you."
"Sure thing, I would love to talk to him." she replied.
Raven left to go get Beast Boy, and Terra couldn't believe her luck. It was still awkward, and they had a long way to go, but she was getting her friends back. She could feel nothing but happiness flowing through her right now.
Raven returned with Beast Boy who had a massive grin on his face.
"Hey, Terra, what is it you wanted to talk to me about?"
She grinned, "Oh, nothing, eat any good tofu lasagna lately?"
"Huh?"
Then Raven interjected, "Now, now, Terra, it's a Monday, and you know how much Garfield hates them."
"Oh, right, sorry Garfield." she giggled.
Beast Boy put on a mock pout, "Aw hell, now I have to put up with my girlfriend and my ex-girlfriend teaming up to tease me?"
Raven gave a small smile and kissed him on the cheek, "Don't worry Gar, I remember enough about Terra's eating habits to team up with you to tease her back."
"And I remember enough about Raven's secret cuddling with stuffed animals to help you get back at her. So tell me, do you turn into animals when you guys cuddle?"
Beast Boy was back to grinning, "Heh, occasionally, you wouldn't believe she likes large snakes."
Raven could only blush.
Author's Note: I'll write more for New Teen Titans soon. I'm in the middle of finals, as well as reading/re-reading some comics so I can get all the new Titans' characters right. I'll hopefully have an update by next Sunday. I just wanted to write this as a short break from reading comics/studying for finals, and because I wanted to write Terra in a BBRae fanfic where she's now just made into a jealous villain that everybody hates (though I don't have a problem with Terra being a villain if it's written well).