Induction
A once famous explorer once said you had to go around the world twice to found what you are looking for.
This is me, since the deaths of my mother and father there's always been a piece of me what was missing, I had to know the truth about my parents death. I set out hoping to found the answers but instead adventure found me.
Chapter 1
I wake screaming, sweat is pouring down my face another nightmare. I've been having the same one since my parents died last year. I watch my parents die million of deaths which are more brutal then the other. I cry out to them urging them to run, that's when I wake up screaming.
My boyfriend is shaking me but I'am fighting against him.
"No leave me alone! Get your hands of me! I yell
"Lilli it's me Ross, you were having a nightmare, your safe I'm with you" Ross says gently.
I start to calm down I can feel my pulse slowing, I'm still shaking, Ross put his arms around me I snuggle into him laying my head on his shoulder. I start to cry and Ross is talking to me soothing me.
"It's ok baby it was just a nightmare"
" no it wasn't, it was more then that, it was like I was seeing a vision of what happened to my parents" I cry
" Lilli it's been over a year, your parents died, you even went to court to have them legally declared dead" Ross says
At that moment I want to be far away from Ross how can he say just a thing, I try and move a away but he pulls me back to him
"Lilli don't be like that" Ross says
"How do you want me to be? Happy? Ecstatic? Dancing on the roof tops? Your parents are still alive, your parents are living in London safe and sound, but what about mine? We never found the bodies and they could be alive and trying to reach out to me, but I might as well not care because its been a year" I say harshly
Ross is taken back from my outburst, we never argue and it's a surprise to us when one of us raise our voice, but I don't care, Ross doesn't know what I'm going through, he should be supportive of me. He wants everything to go back to normal but I can't move on until I know the truth about my parents.
"I didn't mean it like that, I just don't want you to go crazy over this, your parents wouldn't want this" Ross says gently
He just doesn't get it, I will go crazy not knowing, I need to know , I need closure and until I get that nothing else matters.
"Ross you don't understand, I need to know"... I stumble for the right words.. " I need to know what really happened until then I can't think of anything else" I say.
Ross looks at me a frown forming on his face, his grey eyes locking on my green eyes, he moves his face close to mine and kisses me on the lips and i kiss him back but all to soon he pulls away and gets out of bed putting on his trousers and shirt on.
" what you doing, where you going" I ask
" I'm going back to my place, we need some time apart"
" what! No we don't, please don't go" I plead
"Lilli I got to, we getting no where and I don't want this to break us... So if it means being apart for a while to save us, then I will do it, you need to work out what you want" Ross says gently
" I want you" I say
" but do you need me, more then fining out what happened to your parents?Ross asks
I say nothing and I know he's right, I can't be with him until I sort myself out.
" no I didn't think so" Ross says and I see the hurt on his face, I want to tell him it doesn't matter, I can live without knowing but I know I can't
Ross comes back to me and kisses me on my forehead and then he gone, I fall back onto my pillow and the tears come and i'm hoping sleep will found me again.
Dawn comes before sleep does, I get up grab my dressing gown and walk into the bathroom. I take a good look in the mirror, I look terrible my eyes are red raw from all the crying and the lack of sleep, my long brown hair is a tangled mess, I grab a brush and put my hair in a ponytail, I grab the toothpaste put it on my bush and bush my teeth, I then wash my face, I go back into my room and goes to my wardrobe, I pull on a white jumper with diamonds around the collar and pull on some jeans and make my way downstairs. Mrs Collins is in the kitchen cooking breakfast.
"Good morning Miss Stewart, what will you like for breakfast?she asks brightly
" just some toast and coffee please" I reply back
Mrs Collins puts the toast in front of me, I pick up my knife and spread the butter over the toast.
" how about Mr Anderson, what would he like for breakfast?" Mrs Collins asks me.
"Ross is not here, he already left he had to get up early to start his shift at the hospital" I say, why am I lying to Mrs Collins?.
Mrs Collins busy herself in the kitchen making my toast, Ross was right I don't need him at the moment, there was something I needed more and I decided it was time for me to find it.