On the way home from Virginia(not to mention the most miserable week-long
vacation with my family away from the computer), while listening to these
two songs, I kept thinking about the lyrics in relation to my life and when
I woke up this morning, (still pissed off because I missed Outlaw Star), I
thought I could do this, so, here it is. Its all (that is,both chapters)in
Faye's POV after Spike left in the end of The Real Folk Blues.
Gotta knock a little harder
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd had known the difference
I cant ever be happy again, but, was I ever?
Emptiness a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin gun
A sign of my indifference
Nobody cares for me, the untouchable shrew woman.
Always keepin safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
I was just protecting myself from them! They couldnt touch me, they couldnt hurt me...
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in
If I did such a good job of protecting myself from them, why does it hurt so much?
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condition
I never cried before, why am I crying now?
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession
No man ever took the time to like me for me. All they saw was a hot babe they supposed would be easy.
I kept the chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
No one could ever break through, no matter how hard they tried! Until him... I did a really good job protecting myself! Too good a job...
The burning ghost without a name
Was still calling all the same
But I just wouldnt listen
The few people that ever actually did care tried to warn me, tried to save me from myself...
Suddenly it occured to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence
How was I to know that being untouchable for so long would mean losing the care of those I cared about?
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse than this
But could I go the distance
How could caring and being hurt be worse than knowing no one cares?
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
I let myself go, infront of Spike of all people! I thought he would understand, hes the one who told me to forget the past in the first place! How could I ever forget Whitney? How he used me? Sally Yung, I dont remember her, but she knew me...even remembered me!
But no matter how I tried
The other side was locked so tight
The door it wouldnt open
I opened myself to you Spike, I made myself vulnerable, for you! And you walked away!
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door
I opened up, but why isnt anyone there to do the same for me? Was I really that untouchable? So untouchable that they all gave up on me?
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Well, that was my second fanfic but my first song-fic, please read and review.
My first only got 2 reviews. I dont know if its cuz no one liked it or what but Im hoping for more this time.
I want to know what you all think.
Gotta knock a little harder
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd had known the difference
I cant ever be happy again, but, was I ever?
Emptiness a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin gun
A sign of my indifference
Nobody cares for me, the untouchable shrew woman.
Always keepin safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
I was just protecting myself from them! They couldnt touch me, they couldnt hurt me...
Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in
If I did such a good job of protecting myself from them, why does it hurt so much?
Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condition
I never cried before, why am I crying now?
Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession
No man ever took the time to like me for me. All they saw was a hot babe they supposed would be easy.
I kept the chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
No one could ever break through, no matter how hard they tried! Until him... I did a really good job protecting myself! Too good a job...
The burning ghost without a name
Was still calling all the same
But I just wouldnt listen
The few people that ever actually did care tried to warn me, tried to save me from myself...
Suddenly it occured to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence
How was I to know that being untouchable for so long would mean losing the care of those I cared about?
Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse than this
But could I go the distance
How could caring and being hurt be worse than knowing no one cares?
I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
I let myself go, infront of Spike of all people! I thought he would understand, hes the one who told me to forget the past in the first place! How could I ever forget Whitney? How he used me? Sally Yung, I dont remember her, but she knew me...even remembered me!
But no matter how I tried
The other side was locked so tight
The door it wouldnt open
I opened myself to you Spike, I made myself vulnerable, for you! And you walked away!
Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door
I opened up, but why isnt anyone there to do the same for me? Was I really that untouchable? So untouchable that they all gave up on me?
~~~~~~
Well, that was my second fanfic but my first song-fic, please read and review.
My first only got 2 reviews. I dont know if its cuz no one liked it or what but Im hoping for more this time.
I want to know what you all think.