A/N: I'm revising every chapter of this story; I don't like how it came out. It reads as if a child of the age seven wrote this. Hell I think even a child of seven could do a better job writing a yaoi story then this thing! So far this chapter and the eleventh chapter are the first two that had been revised.

The others will take time, but they will not escape them same faith as the other two chapters. Thank you for reading and please excuse my amateur writing skills. This was my first yaoi story between Inuyasha and Sesshomaru so I hope that can be a decent excuse to use. If not, then I take responsibility.

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. Rumiko Takahashi, VIZ, and Sunrise are the owners of Inuyasha. I am only writing this for entertainment purposes and for my own amusement.

Chapter 1: Inuyasha's first kiss of affection…

Time had passed by as if it were nothing since Naraku had been killed and that the Shikon no Tama had been purified to redeem Kohaku's soul.

The entire lands of Japan were tranquil again without the presences of the malevolent hanyou to terrorize humans and youkais alike. Well not all was well for a certain hanyou…

The taijiya, the houshi, the kitsune and the neko youkai had all gone their separate ways leaving Inuyasha to deal with two obnoxious mikos that were driving him to utter insanity.

Once again Inuyasha knew he had committed a foolish mistake as to tell both girls his true sentiments for them.

Even he had to question himself if he even cared for them. They had showed nothing put confusion, anger, pain, and hatred for a very long time.

Kikyou had betrayed him; Kagome accused him time and time again that he was two timing her with the dead bitch.

What did these females want from him? He was only human…half human and half youkai to be precise, but there was only so much he could tolerant before going mad.

Inuyasha resigned seated in the highest tree branch the God Tree had to offer him from the wraths of both females, he shivered when he heard their hoarse voices.

His sensitive dog ears heard their harsh words; he sighed and knew very well what was going to happen next.

He braced himself for the sit command that was sure to come, it always came. There was no doubt that it would fail to humiliate him any more then it already had in the past.

And it came just on cue too, the skimpy miko of the future yelled up into the tree and shrieked, "Inuyasha sit! Good, now that you're down here, tell that dead clay pot bitch who you've chooses for your mate!"

Inuyasha crashed down to the floor without consideration, she never had consideration for him anymore and it was all Kikyou's fault. He didn't bother to get up, he just wanted to die.

But that wasn't want the mikos wanted; they hauled the hanyou up from the ground and threw him to his feet. With no grace at all, Inuyasha caught himself before he fell to the ground and ate dirt again.

When composed, Inuyasha faced both girls with an irked expression, but his eyes did not display annoyance, only tiredness and sadness. All these sit commands and shouts were affecting him slowly, but they were enough to make him think of suicide.

Kagome planted her hands on her hips and said, "Inuyasha tell Kikyou you've chooses me as your mate! Remember you told me you loved me and not her." Kikyou pulled Kagome's hair and slapped her across the face.

Before another second passed them by, both girls were on the floor pulling, biting, screaming, swearing, scratching, slapping, kicking, spitting and yanking hair. Inuyasha sighed, so much for them both being mikos he thought dryly.

He turned his back to them and said flatly, "I'll see you both later when you're not killing yourselves." As he was about to leave them, Kagome yelled, "Oh no you don't sit! You have to tell us who you want!"

Inuyasha once again for the millionth time was reacquainted with the earth, something snapped within him. He couldn't stand it anymore, he felt his face turn florid and he gradually lifted himself from the ground.

His head hurt like a bitch, but he could ignore it for now. Before he did anything, he composed himself and forced a wicked smile to form on his lips.

The hanyou remained still with his golden orbs of ire flared to life with something that looked like hatred and pain. Cautiously, both girls fell silent and stood inert. The way he was glaring at them sent a shiver of fear through their blood.

Good, they were starting to get the picture that he was the superior here and needed to be treated with respected and feared…just like his brother Sesshomaru.

Causally, Inuyasha folded his arms across his heaving chest and said through clenched teeth, "You both wish to know who the bloody hell I've choose as my mate do you? Well I shouldn't be mean and deny you such critical information now should I?"

Kagome and Kikyou glared at the hanyou with shock and excitement bubbly within them. Finally, he was going to say something worth hearing!

Inuyasha cocked his head to the side and observed both girls, he had to admit they were going looking, but damn them both to hell! They were the devil himself in the form of two mikos who were his punishment for being such an unruly hanyou all his life.

When he was sure they would not interrupt him, he cleared his throat and said sinisterly, "I hate to break it two you both girly, but this Inuyasha ain't choosing either one of you as his mate. If I can barely tolerate you right now, what makes you think mating you would make a difference?"

He paused for breath and smirked mentally when he saw their stunned expression, perfect, they were starting to get the pretty picture. A little too late, but it was better then never.

"I don't want to have the misfortune to be tied down with either of you. I can't stand you, I don't even think I would even be able to tolerate seeing you both in paintings, that's how feed up I am with you both."

Both mikos blinked, they looked like they were going to cry. Fine let them cry he didn't care.

Why should he if both these girls who were supposed to be pure and kind were complete bitches to him? To hell with them was all he could say.

"Inuyasha, please don't say that! You told me that you loved me-" Kikyou begged. How pathetic, now he knew why his brother hated humans, they were the scum of the world.

"I don't know what you did to me for me to say those words to you Kikyou. But whatever you did, it must have been the sake you always offered me when we were together, because I sure as hell don't recall ever meaning those words or in fact saying them."

That was coldhearted, even he was surprised that he had said those terms, but they seemed appropriate for the moment. If they were going to be truthful, then you could never replace the truth with a lie.

This was their fault, they had pushed him to his limits and he was biting back like an abused dog.

If they were going to compare themselves to things, he could in fact say he was an abused dog that was neglected.

But food or water were not what came to his mind as to what he was being neglected, it was love, loyalty, and kindness.

That was what he was being neglected. Mostly all humans were showed these things, but to him no one besides his mother had ever shown him tenderness.

But she was dead and she had been dead for two centuries, he was alone in the world with his only family who hated him.

Kagome reached out her hand and said, "Inuyasha, please don't say these things. I love you and I'm willing to do anything to prove it to you! Please give me a chance to show you-" Inuyasha arched his brow and stood straight.

"You want me to show you compassion when neither of you were ever humane to me? Feh, you waste your breathe girl. I'm feed up and done with you both." He had nothing more to say to either miko, he just wanted to walk away and never see them again.

Inuyasha turned away from them and headed for the forest only to hear, "Inuyasha sit! Sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, and sit! You're not going anywhere Inuyasha! You promised us both that once Naraku and the Shikon no Tama was used, that you would choose one of us! Now choose!"

We that an order? When was the last time someone had ordered him around and lived to see the next sunset?

Of course, the last person who had ever ordered him around was six feet underground and would never come back.

When the cursed rosary's incantation wore off, Inuyasha once more pushed himself up from the ground and stood up.

His silver tresses shaped out his pale skin and impassive gold orbs. For a moment, the hanyou felt like his brother Sesshomaru.

He felt nothing close to compassion or tolerance, he only felt the urge to kill and he had two things that could erase his urges to shed blood, but his humane side ordered him to behave. To not show them their emotions, it would only make them mock him more.

And he didn't want them to mock him anymore, nor did he want anyone for that matter to mock him.

It irked him to know people ridiculed him behind his back, every human was the same.

Deep down every human being on this earth had a dark side to them that they would display freely without their knowing or rather caring. All went silent for a few seconds before Inuyasha spoke.

"I don't have to deal with neither of you anymore. It would have never worked out, I'll see you around." Inuyasha didn't knowing what got into his mind, he instead of walking away, he ran. He ran with no set destination, but it didn't matter.

He needed to get away; he could worry about a destination when he was far, far away from them. Death seemed more appealing then those two mikos.

He could hear both girls crying behind him, it would have once caused him to stop and comfort them, but that was long ago.

They had made him like this, this was their fault. He hated it; he hated feeling weak and being weak. What had they done to him to be like this? He was almost sure Kikyou had poised him, but Kagome?

What could see have done to make him like this? He knew deep down Kagome was only acting like this because she didn't want to be alone anymore.

She wanted someone to love her and for once in her first, she had thought she had found that special someone who would understand her.

But maybe she had found that special someone, only he didn't know it just yet? Maybe Inuyasha would come around and say something. Here was to hope of the seemingly impossible love she wanted from him.

Inuyasha continued to run; his feet carried him deep into the forest named after him. The vegetation around him grew thicker, everything was silent and in a way he liked it.

He came to a stop when his legs couldn't run anymore. He collapsed to his knees panting. Sweat dripped down from his forehead and he wiped it away. His eyes were cast down, he didn't know where he was, but that was the least of his concern.

He was thankful he had escaped from him. Something snapped behind him, reflectively Inuyasha jumped to his feet and lashed out his prized sword only to be greeted with the nothingness of the forest.

Everything about this section of the forest screamed danger to him, but what could possibly be a threat to him? He feared nothing, not after the hell he had gone through for the last two or was it three years of putting up with their crap?

Something in the depths of his mind told him to run, to not stay there and be a sitting duck for the next whatever it was to attack him. Inuyasha sheathed Tetsusaiga and ran; his legs became numb to the aching of his long legs.

He had never realized that the forest named after him could possibly be this deep. He looked up into the sky and felt a rain drop fall on his cheek making him gasp.

Shit, the damn weather just had to change didn't it?

Silently, he cursed the weather for its inconvenience; the droplets of clear water began to come down with more force until the entire sky turned a depressing gray and cried.

How ironic things were indeed, how the weather was displaying itself to the world was how he was feeling in his heart and soul.

Mother Nature had a strange way of always knowing his emotions, most of the times Inuyasha didn't pay attention, but now things were getting way too creepy for his taste.

He was half way through the forest when he slipped and fell to the ground ungracefully, he hit his head on something rough and he immediately went unconscious…

Something was touching him. Inuyasha froze, who the hell dared touch him while he was…asleep? Inuyasha swatted the wet hand away from his hair and snapped open his golden eyes.

At first he thought he was seeing things, but after rubbing his eyes, he soon realized his eyes were not deceiving him. The person who was kneeling besides him was his impassive brother Sesshomaru glaring at him with aloof eyes.

What the hell was he doing here? Sesshomaru stood up slowly; his eyes were trained onto Inuyasha's heaving chest and slowly met the hanyou's eyes.

Their eyes locked for a brief moment before he looked away and said, "Where you planning to die out here like a dog Inuyasha?" huh? What kind of question was that to ask?

Inuyasha stood up and snarled, "What the fuck do you care Sesshomaru?! Don't you think it's a little too late to act like civilized brothers? It's not like you deserve it either."

The hanyou seemed peeved was all Sesshomaru could tell, and to his surprise he was curious as to why the hanyou was so hostile.

The demon lord arched an eyebrow and said flatly, "It's never too late to act like civilized brothers Inuyasha. Good manners never go out of style, I told you that before. You choose to act like an ignorant half breed, than act how you wish, but don't degrade our family blood anymore by dying such a disgraceful way."

Inuyasha growled how dare his brother touch him and then start lecturing him? He was not the same insolent pup he had come to know when his mother was still alive, things were different…right?

The hanyou cleared his mind and snarled, "Leave me alone you jackass, I just want to be alone. Is that so hard to do? Just leave…" Inuyasha's voice trailed off, he hadn't meant to reveal his sadness, but it had slipped.

He leaned a near by tree with his silver tresses concealing his face. He didn't want his brother to be here, he just wanted some solitude to think. Why was everything going the wrong way? Why was everything going against him?

Sesshomaru gaped at his brother with some confusion, what had the mikos done to his brother this time? He was well aware of the events partaking with his younger sibling and the two mikos.

He was well aware of the countless moments of drama they caused for his brother, but he had never showed that he knew. It wasn't his place to interfere, even though he knew he had the right to step in, but he choose not to.

Inuyasha pressed is forehead to the bark of the tree and sighed. Sesshomaru was still there, did they not speak the same language? Could he not comprehend the word solitude?

Without moving Inuyasha muttered, "Sesshomaru I said leave. I'm not in the mood to be dealing with your smart ass remarks, I've had a long day and all I want to do is be alone…"

Again he trailed off; he lifted his head from the bark and turned around so his back was pressed against the tree. He gradually slipped down until he was seated at the base of the thick tree. The hanyou hugged his knees to his chest and rested his right cheek against his knees.

Sesshomaru didn't understand what was occurring with the hanyou, but what was the damage if he stayed around for a little longer to annoy his brother? He saw no harm so he decided he might as well commence.

The impassive demon lord walked from where he stood and sat down next to Inuyasha. Their shoulders were brushing against each other which made the hanyou stiffen. Why was his brother so close to him?

Without moving from where he was, Sesshomaru looked off somewhere and said dryly, "This has something to do with the mikos, doesn't it Inuyasha? Don't bother to try to deny it; you've always been a bad lair."

Inuyasha glared at his brother and grunted. Fine he had guessed right, but practically everyone in Japan knew about his problems with both girls so what?

"Feh, what do you care? You're always acting so arrogant to give a shit so why start now? It won't fix anything between-" Sesshomaru gave the hanyou an indifferent look, why was the hanyou implying that he had come here because he wanted to amend things between them?

"I wasn't asking because I wish to amend things, I was simply asking. I as well know things between us are irreparable Inuyasha. Nothing can fix-" Sesshomaru was interrupted when the hanyou cocked his head to the side and frowned.

There was no way to fix things? Was this the true or was it just the way Sesshomaru wanted things to be? Without thinking, Inuyasha asked, "Why can't things be amended between us Sesshomaru? Is it impossible or is it simply because you won't stand for it?"

The demon stared at his brother with aloof eyes; he had asked an interesting question, he was impressed that the hanyou was capable to ask something like this.

"A little of both Inuyasha." said Sesshomaru flatly, he was saying the truth. They could patch things up, but where was the fun in that?

"Hn, I should have known…then what the bloody hell do you want?" Inuyasha leaned his head against the tree and closed his eyes. He found himself tired, but he couldn't sleep with a certain someone still being there.

Sesshomaru moved a stay lock of hair from Inuyasha's face and tucked it back to where it belonged. Inuyasha stiffened, they he went again touching him. What was wrong with his brother now?

"Sesshomaru, why the fuck are you touching me?! It's…" Sesshomaru didn't blink, he just stared into those mirror like orbs of his brother and leaned forward.

Before either one of them knew what was happening, Sesshomaru pressed his lips against Inuyasha causing the hanyou to gasp. He was about to pull back, when he felt a strong around pull him forward.

What the hell is going on here?! Why…why is he doing this! Sesshomaru you bastard let me go…I…I can't pull back! I'm stuck, no my body won't respond to me. Shit what am I going to do now? Damn even if I did have control of my body…it doesn't seem likely that u would pull away…

Sesshomaru broke the kiss and stood up gracefully without saying a word. He seemed about ready to leave when Inuyasha broke free from the trance-like effect the kiss had put him under.

Knowing Sesshomaru was about to leave, Inuyasha grasped his brother's wrist and held him still. The demon lord didn't protest he didn't seem effected at all by what he had done.

Instead he looked almost proud of what he did just now, but what little emotions those golden gems of his had been emitting soon dissolve and they returned to their icy coldhearted state of preference.

His features revealed nothing of what he was feeling or thinking, he was just impassive and pompous…yup that was the Sesshomaru Inuyasha knew and hated…?

Inuyasha tightened his grasped on the demon lord's wrist and while looking up at his brother, he muttered, "Sesshomaru what just happened? Why…why did you just do that…that thing?! What has gotten into you, you aren't acting like your jackass self."

To his surprise, Sesshomaru yanked free his hand and said, "You ask something that even I don't know the answer to Inuyasha. I presume I was simply curious to see if you were a good kisser and I now have my answer."

Inuyasha was dumbfounded, had this all been just a sick joke to that imperious bastard he had a disgrace to call a brother? If things were like that, then he had all the right to be pissed off.

Before he could utter a single word, Sesshomaru was already walking away into the depths of the seemingly everlasting forest of darkness. Inuyasha found himself running after his brother. He didn't know why he was running after him, but he had no where else to go and he felt dejected.

There was something about Sesshomaru that made Inuyasha comprehend that he was welcome to follow and stay with him, but he shouldn't question what he did.

The hanyou fell into step besides his brother and both inu youkai walked off into the raining night without uttering a word. The night was still young; maybe it would promise something entertaining for them both.

­-End Chapter-

A/N: well here's the amended chapter one, I hope it was better then the first. Okay that's two chapters fixed, and there are eleven chapters in total…meaning I have nine more chapters to edit and be presentable. Uh, that's not bad…I mean just a little hard work from my efforts and I can have something worthy for people to read and not feel like they're reading crappy work done by a kindergartener, but to be honest I really, really do think a kid could write this story better then me. I'm at the point where I'm tempted to just delete this story and put it out of its misery and save everyone the hassle of reading it. Sorry for the long rant, next time I won't talk. Night. and thanks for reading.