Prologue
The pain that I got so used to ended the day Jacob became my best friend. Despite what I told myself I fell in love with the werewolf, the only problem he didn't imprint on me. We were happy, dating for a few months, and I was coming out of my shell. The one I built when the Cullen's left, the day it seemed like I lost everything I lived for. That shell.
In the few months that Jake and I dated I became dependant on the pact. They cared for me, helped me thru the hard times that came and passed. They helped be thru the pain of losing Renee and Charlie. They were there for me when the Cullens were not, they were there. Or that is until it came to the day Jake proposed, the day I turned 20. I was so happy, and accepted right away, I loved Jake with my whole soul, or as I thought, I loved the pack, and their imprints. Everything was perfect, that is until Jake imprinted.
He imprinted on my birthday, right after he proposed. I knew as soon as I saw him gazing at the dark haired beauty his eyes glazed over. I knew that Jacob could not help that he had imprinted, it was something Jacob or any of the other pack members could control.
I never was too close to Leah. the one girl in the pack. I always saw her as a stuck up bitch. Little did I know on that day we suffered the same fate. Leah knew how it felt to love a guy, who BAM one day imprinted on her closest cousin. It was Leah, the one who held me when I cried over the loss of my second love. For hours Leah just held me, murmuring comforting things I couldn't even understand.
She held me for hours that night. Sometimes stroking my hair, other times sobbing along side myself.
But there was a difference between me and Leah. Leah was bond to the land, and the tribe. And I was not. Leah had no chose but to see the man she loved every single day with his imprint, Emily. She had no chose but to stay, forced to listen to Sam's thoughts when in wolf form, and most likely most often Sam's thoughts were on Emily. Leah belonged in the tribe, in La Push, I did not. So, I fled, without much of saying anything to Jacob, or to the Pack.