Disclaimer: I didn't own DanganRonpa/ Genre:Hurt&Angst/ Rate:R/ No flame/ No bash/ R&R pls!/ Chihiro's PoV/ Multichapter: 2
Ima Koso, Ima Dakara Koso; Tsuyoku ni Kawarerun da!~First Chapter
"Ahahahaha, such a weak person! What kind of male are you?!"
"You're too weak to be a male! Why don't you just wear a skirt, then?!"
They shouting and pointing at me with their devilish laughter.
Today I was bullied like usual. If there's a friend of yours fell down from the stairs in purpose of the other student, what would you do? If them, what did they do after they made me fell is; laugh at me, make fun of me, and keep prevent me to stand up.
Somehow, they hate me so much. My dad is a system engineer in The Togami Conglomerate and my scores in all lessons are good, but I never pissing them out. If I were treated more gently, I'm sure I would happily share my knowledge to them. However, they often forcefully took my books and start to copy all answers and shout "screw you!" if I started to against them.
"Chihiro?! How could you be this awful?" Said mom when I'm home. I just keep silent. Mom sighs. "You're a male, Chihiro. You know that. You're no longer a middle schooler and yet you aren't going to change yourself?" Ask her.
"I don't know, mom. I just too weak to be a male." I looks down and walks away to my room.
If you can see my room, this isn't a boy's room at all. A boy's room wouldn't have a full-body mirror, make ups, and soft-coloured wallpaper. But, really, I enjoy all of this. My room is the one and only place that can make me calm and happy. This is where all my secrets lays down.
I opened my wardrobe. I started to choose the clothes and then pull out a white dress. This is my favourite dress, the fabric is soft and cool when it used in summer. I put it in my brown backpack. After that, I walk out and handle my wounds, and then I go back to my room to take my bag.
"Oh, Chihiro. Where are you going? Why don't you change your uniform?" Ask mom when she saw me still in my school uniform.
"I, uh... I promised to teach my friend about algorithm. I run out late so I think I couldn't change outfit." I lied and put a fake smile. This school uniform is my only male outfit I had.
"I don't know you have a friend. Alright then, please go home before dinner." Said her. I nodded and walks out.
I actually going to a mall. There is a computer fair. I changed my clothes in public toilet. Phsically I looked like a girl, so it won't be problem if I use the woman's toilet. They won't realize.
Yes, I really love to wear dresses when I'm out of families or friends' reach. Only me and God who knows my secret. I.. Decided to be a girl to escape reality that I'm actually a boy. A weak boy that is too weak to be a boy.
There's one more thing I love; computers. I know computers just like I know how to walk everyday. I enjoy computers so light just like I flip my own hands. Computer is me, computer is my life, my soul. Everything begun when I was still a kid. I was too fragile to play outside. So I kill time with dad's computer in our home. There was an uncompleted program that actually belongs to dad. It was a question-answering program. Well, sort of. I was started to 'play around' with the program, added this and that and many more. The program turned into a weak AI, kinda. It was my one and only friend I had, also, it was my first program I ever wrote. Since that time, my love to computing and programming is more than any words I can say.
The computer fair today is very exciting. Plenty new gadgets released and there is a robotic contest too. I can't hold myself to buy a 2 terra byte hard disk and a cell phone which comparable to iPhone 5. Well, I have no cell phone before. But I found myself need it these days.
"T-Togami-kun..!" Said myself in my mind when I see someone I know stand pretty close from me. He is Togami Byakuya the high heir, The Togami Conglomerate's big boss' son. I'm in a panic now, what will happened if he found me? I'm planning to escape, but it's too late.
"Fujisaki..?" he whispers a bit when he is already standing right in front of me. Gosh!
"A-Ah..! You.. You... I-I think you've got a wrong person." I left him in a hurry.
After that heart-beating incident, I'm looking for a café which serve cakes or sweet snacks. I like sweets.
There's one cute maid café I interested. I will buy parfait and cheese cake while checking my new cell phone there. Looks like they give free wi-fi.
"Welcome, onee-chan~" a maid welcoming me. I just smiling, sit down, and order. Berry parfait and ice cream waffle. They're out of cheese cakes.
"Onee-chan, doesn't it the newest cell phone, doesn't it?" that maid asks. "Togami", she continues. Indeed, The Togami Conglomerate have everything. Electronic utilities, fabrics and textilles, bulding needs, instant foods, vehicles, and plenty more. All of them sold in "Togami" label, with their catch phrase "We Work, We Gain, We Rule". And all products' quality from that company is number one in whole world. Togami is a family that rules the world, Togami Byakuya-kun ever said that.
"Yeah, I recently bought it from the fair held today, here." Answer me with a smile. That maid seemed so excited. She's even be so thankful after I gived her permission to use my phone for a while. Cute girl. Fortunately, the chief maid isn't here.
After the digital clock in my cell phone shows 06.15 PM, I decide to go home soonly. Before go home, I changed clothes again.
"You're home late, Chihiro." Scold mom.
"S-Sorry, mom, my friend ask me to accompany him to a fair. I think I could buy a phone, thou." I responded and showing her the new phone I bought. Then, I'm running a bit to my room in 2nd floor. I takes out my dress and I will wash it in laundry tomorrow. I get changed. Oversized green t-shirt (it is dad's) and black shorts. Soon I walk to the dinning room to join the dinner. Dad is in front of me, recently home from working.
Today is the worst day in my life, ever! The most terrible bullying from all bullying I've ever had. Someone stalked me when I was at mall yesterday. Took a picture when I bought a 2 terra byte hard disk, took a picture when I bought a newest cell phone comparable to iPhone 5 with "Togami" label, took a picture when I was talking with Togami Byakuya-kun, took a picture when I was in a maid café... Took a picture when I wore a dress.
Those photos was printed and they stick it on the black board. Also, they wrote these with colorful chalks: "A Togami Conglomerate's employee's DAUGHTER bought an expensive cell phone producted by Togami Conglomerate", "2 terra byte=2000 giga byte; does SHE want to keep an elephant in that thing?!", "Scandal: Fujisaki-CHAN and Togami-SAMA; doesn't Togami-sama realized that he was dating a TRAP?", and other irritating words.
I never felt like this way before. This fury, this anger drive me mad until I want to explode. I'm crying loudly, histerically.
"What's my fault?! What I have done to you?! Why you DO this to me?! Why? Why? WHY?!" I scream it loud while tearing those photos. Everybody who watch me are all silent in fear. "Will you spread this –the fact that I was crossdressing?! Insults me and steps on me like I'm a scum on your eyes!" I keep tearing those bitter evidence into bits. I'm so angry. Way too angry until I reached the climax and then I unconscious.
Tomorrow morning, my parents got a call from headmaster. No teachers know about my secret that I am a crossdresser. It proves that they keep their mouth shut about this problem. But every teachers know that I've been bullied all the time.
Since then, I am home schooling. Mom and dad disappointed with my weakness. I can't hold their hope. This' all very heavy. Too heavy until I can't stand up. Reality sure is hard.
A year after that, I'm graduating from middle school. Kibougamine Gakuen (Hope's Peak Academy) sent me an invitation. I got the title Super High-School Level Programmer (or in abbrevation; SHSL Programmer) and be the choosed one to be their pupil in that super elite dormitory private high school. Togami Byakuya-kun will enroll in that school either.
A few moments before my graduation, dad found me messing with his program. I thought that he would be angry, but he praised me instead. I made a contract with The Togami Conglomerate and I will replace dad after I graduated from high school. Togami Byakuya-kun will replace his father as well once he is graduated with me.
In the day I will take my departure, I got pretty much messages in my phone. Everybody says "Congratulations, Fujisaki-san!" "Break a leg!" "Be stronger!" "..We will miss you. Please come back as often as you can...". They are... My classmates from middle school.
Today, I move forward with hopeful steps. I swear to myself: now, now or never; I want to be stronger!
Kibougamine Gakuen: Kibou no Gakuen, wait for me!
To be continued . . .