A Group Of Optimistic Kids With Cancer (eren x reader) modern au

by an-otaku-and-a-book

(Y/n) (l/n). A girl with a deadly disease. People say she's depressed. She says she's dying. Titan. A cancer. Everybody experience different ones. But no one survived. Eren Jaeger. A student studying Titan-killing sciences. He has titan. Fate brings them together, but will fate be the to pull them apart? (reader insert) (I don't own Attack on Titan.)

1. Chapter 1

YOUR POV
The hospital always smells like freshly baked bread and bleach. Then, they douse it in Maria Cookie Super Spray to make it feel like home. I want to tell them that it's not worth it,and that making me feel at home when I'm dying won't make me feel better, but I don't.
I wake up now, because of a nightmare. My nightmares used to be of psychotic clowns, but ever since I got Titan, my nightmares are always of a tall humanoid beast that chases me. Everyone around me is dead in horrifying is cut in about half, Jean's head is on the floor (it still looks like a horse), and Sasha's stomach is cut open. Connie is nearby, lifeless.I survive, until the beast swallows me whole.
I have nothing to do. The only one up is grumpy ol' Levi. He likes to watch maintenance clean. He is one of my only "Friends" in a sense, but we can only agree about how stupid Hanji is and that the Recon Corps is way too similarities end there. I'm 18;he's 30. I don't clean;he lives to clean. I have titan;he doesn't.
Titan is a strange thing. It's a type of cancer. It's hard to detect, mostly because when someone is born, they have titan, but outgrow it if you're lucky. You don't lose any hair, but you lose so much more. Titan is dangerous. Deadlier than any disease. Titan eats you from the inside out. You can fight it, but no one knows how. Everyone eventually loses the battle. Some just last longer than others.
I don't want to fight titan. I've learned that life isn't fair. You just have to except your losses. They never will be reversed. You can regret. Regretting lets us build our experiences. Experience makes us stronger.
I like to read. Reading can remove me from hell. I never have books. We have no library. I only have one book. That book is The Fault In Our Stars. I have probably read it 70 times. I want another one, but refuse to ask anyone for one. I don't want to be pitied or have special treatment. I want to be recognized for who I am, not my cancer.
It's 7:35, my support group starts at 8:00. I'll just reread TFIOS and imagine my very own Augustus Waters.