Lift
By InsideAwayXtreme
Lift up your head
Focus on every detail
Jeff looked up from his worn-out journal and heeded to his own words. He looked around. Nothing but a dark, dank hotel room at four in the morning. The usual setting for his late night spurts of creativity. But this one was different.
He saw every intricate detail in the musty-smelling comforter, every fold in the vinyl lamp shade, every painted-over grain in the off white ceiling. It didn't look so dull. The details of it made the entire room look amazing. Jeff rubbed his eyes to remind his mind where he was. But his mind wouldn't listen. It wanted to focus on details. It wanted to focus on her.
Why does this illusion bring so much confusion
When all I can dream of is you
Jeff happily sighed as a vision of her came into his mind. She was all he could think about. She was his image of perfection. Everything about her was amazing. She was exactly like him, only different. He closed his eyes and rested his head on his journal but his pen continued to move.
Lift up your head
We're rising with every breath
A Liquid solution a chemical fusion
When all I can dream of is you
Constantly feeling the earth spinning around
But I'm standing alone
With you I see stars in your eyes
In a trance I'm so high
With you I survive
Let's get away now!
His mind envisioned them flying. They were never together as much as he wanted them to be. He could be with her all day and all night and never tire of her face, her smile, her eyes. Jeff took her hand and they were flying. Passing clouds and stars, feeling the wind through his hair and into his clothing. But all he heard was her laughter. Her melodious laugher rang out over the howling of the wind as they sailed higher and higher. Jeff couldn't help but smile. When she was happy, he was happy.
Imagine there's no one around
Imagine you're not just a face in the crowd
There's a new set of rules
No more pain of confusion
You're numb to the world that you know
I'm constantly feeling like nothing's bringing me down
cause you're always around
Jeff opened his eyes up and flipped a few pages back in his journal. There, folded up, buried in the spine of his journal, was the letter she wrote him the last time he left her. God how he hated to leave her. It was like he was leaving her to the hell he pulled her out of. He was so protective of her. She had gone through so much pain and suffering. Jeff never wanted her to hurt again. She didn't deserve it.
He reread her letter a thousand times. In it, she wrote what he always wanted her to tell him, but she could never make her lips form the words. Written in her familiar handwriting were scrawled her countless stories of abuse, depression, suicide attempts. How could such a beautiful, smiling girl shove a kitchen knife deep into her chest after slitting her wrists seventeen times in one month? What could drive a person to feel that? Jeff shuddered at the idea. He didn't even want to think about it. All he knew is that he wanted to give her all the happiness in the world. He couldn't' take away her memories or her scars, but he could make her happy.
With you I see stars in your eyes
In a trance we're alive
Ten feet off of the ground
Let's turn it up now!
I got you
It's ready for you
It's amazing where everyone goes in the end
Everything was so perfect with her in his life. She showed him that not everyone's lives were perfect, and people could overcome unheard of adversity. It put everything he had ever suffered to into perspective. He had so much respect for her, so much pride. He could just stare at her for hours and never advert his eyes once.
But every time he dreamt about her, all they did was fly. They intertwined their fingers, took a deep breath, and flew into the darkness. Not afraid of the unknown or what was to come, because they had each other. Together they could overcome anything. They had both individually accomplished so much. They were best friends and lovers. As long as they were together, nothing else mattered.
Why does this illusion bring so much confusion
When all I can dream of is you
I'm on the ground
I'm off the ground
Jeff opened his eyes violently when Matt shut the door behind him. "Oh shit lil bro did I wake you?" Matt asked, tiptoeing to the other bed. Jeff shook his head. "Just thinking, just thinking and writing." Matt nodded his head and walked into the bathroom.
Ten feet off when I'm with you
I could be true with you
I could be through with you
Don't you get it we're alive
Completely out of sight
We're running out of time
With love we can survive
Jeff smiled as he looked at his words trail off the paper. It's amazing what she does to me he thought. I can't even finish a poem anymore. Words simply can't explain what I feel for her. Might as well just end the thing and go to sleep. Dreaming about her is more satisfying. I turn into such a putz when I think about her. I hope she knows what I feel. I'm in love. Jeff Hardy is in love. And I'm going to do anything I can do to make her happy. She means more to me than life itself. He picked up his pen again and smiling he finished his entry.
Don't you get it we're alive
Completely out of sight
With love we will survive
Song by Flickerstick, "Lift"
By InsideAwayXtreme
Lift up your head
Focus on every detail
Jeff looked up from his worn-out journal and heeded to his own words. He looked around. Nothing but a dark, dank hotel room at four in the morning. The usual setting for his late night spurts of creativity. But this one was different.
He saw every intricate detail in the musty-smelling comforter, every fold in the vinyl lamp shade, every painted-over grain in the off white ceiling. It didn't look so dull. The details of it made the entire room look amazing. Jeff rubbed his eyes to remind his mind where he was. But his mind wouldn't listen. It wanted to focus on details. It wanted to focus on her.
Why does this illusion bring so much confusion
When all I can dream of is you
Jeff happily sighed as a vision of her came into his mind. She was all he could think about. She was his image of perfection. Everything about her was amazing. She was exactly like him, only different. He closed his eyes and rested his head on his journal but his pen continued to move.
Lift up your head
We're rising with every breath
A Liquid solution a chemical fusion
When all I can dream of is you
Constantly feeling the earth spinning around
But I'm standing alone
With you I see stars in your eyes
In a trance I'm so high
With you I survive
Let's get away now!
His mind envisioned them flying. They were never together as much as he wanted them to be. He could be with her all day and all night and never tire of her face, her smile, her eyes. Jeff took her hand and they were flying. Passing clouds and stars, feeling the wind through his hair and into his clothing. But all he heard was her laughter. Her melodious laugher rang out over the howling of the wind as they sailed higher and higher. Jeff couldn't help but smile. When she was happy, he was happy.
Imagine there's no one around
Imagine you're not just a face in the crowd
There's a new set of rules
No more pain of confusion
You're numb to the world that you know
I'm constantly feeling like nothing's bringing me down
cause you're always around
Jeff opened his eyes up and flipped a few pages back in his journal. There, folded up, buried in the spine of his journal, was the letter she wrote him the last time he left her. God how he hated to leave her. It was like he was leaving her to the hell he pulled her out of. He was so protective of her. She had gone through so much pain and suffering. Jeff never wanted her to hurt again. She didn't deserve it.
He reread her letter a thousand times. In it, she wrote what he always wanted her to tell him, but she could never make her lips form the words. Written in her familiar handwriting were scrawled her countless stories of abuse, depression, suicide attempts. How could such a beautiful, smiling girl shove a kitchen knife deep into her chest after slitting her wrists seventeen times in one month? What could drive a person to feel that? Jeff shuddered at the idea. He didn't even want to think about it. All he knew is that he wanted to give her all the happiness in the world. He couldn't' take away her memories or her scars, but he could make her happy.
With you I see stars in your eyes
In a trance we're alive
Ten feet off of the ground
Let's turn it up now!
I got you
It's ready for you
It's amazing where everyone goes in the end
Everything was so perfect with her in his life. She showed him that not everyone's lives were perfect, and people could overcome unheard of adversity. It put everything he had ever suffered to into perspective. He had so much respect for her, so much pride. He could just stare at her for hours and never advert his eyes once.
But every time he dreamt about her, all they did was fly. They intertwined their fingers, took a deep breath, and flew into the darkness. Not afraid of the unknown or what was to come, because they had each other. Together they could overcome anything. They had both individually accomplished so much. They were best friends and lovers. As long as they were together, nothing else mattered.
Why does this illusion bring so much confusion
When all I can dream of is you
I'm on the ground
I'm off the ground
Jeff opened his eyes violently when Matt shut the door behind him. "Oh shit lil bro did I wake you?" Matt asked, tiptoeing to the other bed. Jeff shook his head. "Just thinking, just thinking and writing." Matt nodded his head and walked into the bathroom.
Ten feet off when I'm with you
I could be true with you
I could be through with you
Don't you get it we're alive
Completely out of sight
We're running out of time
With love we can survive
Jeff smiled as he looked at his words trail off the paper. It's amazing what she does to me he thought. I can't even finish a poem anymore. Words simply can't explain what I feel for her. Might as well just end the thing and go to sleep. Dreaming about her is more satisfying. I turn into such a putz when I think about her. I hope she knows what I feel. I'm in love. Jeff Hardy is in love. And I'm going to do anything I can do to make her happy. She means more to me than life itself. He picked up his pen again and smiling he finished his entry.
Don't you get it we're alive
Completely out of sight
With love we will survive
Song by Flickerstick, "Lift"