Spoiler if you haven't seen 'Hero' part 1 and 2 of Stargate. I really hope you like this, I cry as I wrote, because this is close to my heart, not just because I love Stargate, but because I love my granddad, so this is dedicated to him. RIP.

(I have used some Evanescence lyrics, and I do not own them… they are genius.)

Immortal

Cassie POV

It's such a cold day, but it's beautiful. I wish mum could see it. Jack and I walk past all the graves of fallen Air Force personal, and finally come to one that says 'Captain Doctor Janet Fraiser'. I can feel tears pricking my eyes as we stop. "Jack, please can you…" I start to ask my friend and Commanding Officer, "Anything Cas" he replied, "Could you… let me have a minute, please?" He looked saddened, but I knew he would leave me. I also knew he wished so bad to stay with me. "Sure, I'll just be over there okay kiddo?" I nodded as he walked away. This was as alone as I could get.

"Mum, I need you, I… I don't understand why you had to leave me!" I start to cry at her grave, and fall to the ground beside it. "I'm so tired of being here, these wounds won't heal, and this pain just won't leave. Time cannot erase what I feel." At this point, I couldn't see anything through my tears. "Mum, when I'd cry, you would wipe away my tears, when I'd scream; you would always be there to hold me. Mum, I'm bound by the life you left behind! I cannot let you go, you haunt my dreams, but you are never actually with me. I try so hard to carry on, to tell myself that you haven't left me, but I can't feel you, I am forgetting. The pain, it's too much to bear. You were always with me, but have I been alone, the whole time, All along?"

I felt a hand on my shoulder, but I cannot hold it in anymore, I fell on the grass, in agony I cried out. I was mad, and sad. I was dying on the inside, and no longer could I put on a veneer of happiness, of being okay with my mother being dead. Again.

"Cassie, sweet heart" I heard Jack say through my cries. He picked me up off the grass and held me. He just held me, and I felt his hand stroke the back of my head. He did that so well, I felt so comforted in my anguish, that it just made me cry harder into his chest. My hands were fists holding tight to the sides of his jacket. "It's okay, I've got you." He softly told me, and carried me to his black car, and kissed me on the head.

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My eyes sting so bad from my melt down at the Cemetery, and it had drained me so much that I needed to sleep. I knew that I would be on the Base for a while, as Sam would work late again tonight, like she always did. I went to find Daniel, I knew he would comfort me, maybe let me sleep in his on Base quarters.

I found him in his lab, well it was more like a library and fossil cabinet than a lab, but it was homey. I knocked, and smiled weakly as I walked in, past the books, past all the paper he had sprawled out on the desk and he stood up, and we hugged. I held him so tight, and he bent his head down to rest on my shoulder, which knocked his glasses and they were slightly skew now and digging into my skin, but I didn't care and neither did he. When we parted, he looked me in the eye, and smiled. "hey," I told him hey back, and looking at the ground, I asked him permission to sleep in his quarters. "Sure thing, I'll take you." As we walked, he said nothing, I said nothing. Daniel knew that I wanted silence, he was smart enough to realise that all I wanted was to know he was there for me, and that I didn't want empty promises of 'it will all be okay soon.' He knew as well as I did, that that was a load of crap. Finally coming to his quarters, he opened the door for me, then followed in. "Daniel, I don't feel too good." I told him, I was sure it was just how tired I was, but thought he better know. "I… Feel quite dizzy." Walking to the bed I stumbled a bit, and Daniel's hand caught the under of my arm, and a strategically placed hand supported my waist. "I just need to sit, really Daniel." But it was too late, "I'm calling Dr Park." I groaned, but the next thing I know, I see the ceiling, and Daniel is laying me down on the floor gently. I faintly hear him say my name, but everything is becoming dark.

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Beep… beep… beep… "What in the…"I open my eyes groggily, and see Sam, Daniel, Teal'c and Jack sitting around me. "Good morning sunshine!" Exclaimed Jack, as he always did when one of us ends up in the infirmary. "Go get the doctor." Teal'c calls to one of the airman standing in the doorway to the main corridor out of the infirmary. I have never understood why they stand there, I mean, it's not like a sick or injured person is going to try and escape. Beep… beep… beep… "Would someone turn that incessant beep OFF!" I say rather to loud. "Sorry, you seem to be hyper sensitive Cassandra." Dr Parks told me as she turned off the monitor. "So, other than hypersensitivity how are you feeling?" I tell her I feel fine, but Colonel O'Neill has other ideas and says "It's more like grouchy teen-ness." But he backs off from that idea as he is shot five deathly 'shut-up' looks.

"So, I'm fine, I need to leave." I say un-attaching all the wires and what have you that I was hooked up to. "Cassie, you're not fine, just lie down, just until we get your blood work back." Parks pleaded. Mum used to say that. That is the last straw! I can't take being in here! I must leave. "Cassandra" Sam warned as I was preparing to get up again. But I didn't care. "I'm leaving; you can't do anything to stop me!" I was yelling at this point, every eye was on me. Pleading with me, warning to me lay down. I started to run, but didn't get very far with Teal'c in the way. He grabbed me around the waist, and I began to struggle, kicking and hitting every which way. I needed to get free. "Teal'c. Let me GO!" I screamed to him, "I cannot do that Cassandra Fraiser." I wasn't giving up either, so I did what I knew would work the best. I bit him, hard. "mmf" I heard him say, and his grip loosened, but in all the struggle I didn't see Jack and Daniel at the door, and ran straight into a trap. Daniel had me, and the doctor flanked me, got me in the shoulder with a sedative. "Cas, I've got you."

WOW, that was intense! HAHA so, please review, tell me what you think! I really enjoyed myself this time! I hope I didn't ramble on for too long. I have a tendency to do that… okayyyy… until next time! xoxo