By Soleil
He had loved her since before he could remember, the one who was destined to
save his kingdom, and his heart from loneliness that had haunted him since he
had become emperor. After so many years of waiting, she had finally come, and
she was everything he had imagined and more. But it was not meant to be, for her
heart was promised to someone else before he could find her. That was his only
regret, finding her when it was already too late. Because she already began to
give her heart to Tamahome.
There's no use looking back or wondering
He often wondered what it would have been like if he had been there to save her
when she first arrived, not Tamahome. But wondering always lead to heartache as
he remembered the love he had let slip through his fingers.
But still he could not help but ponder about if everything had been different,
if she had loved him instead. Would he still be here? Or would he be with her in
her world, just as Tamahome was right now.
"Hotohori!" Her sorrowful voice shot through the darkness, and his
first instincts were to look for her and find the source of her grief. To
comfort her, and yet he knew. He was merely dreaming of her voice right now.
Till the day that I found you
He could still remember the first time he had seen her. Back then she had been
beseeching him for a jewel so that she could use it as some kind of payment to
Tamahome. His eyes had widened in surprise and hope when a crimson light had
suddenly surrounded her, and when she suddenly vanished to only reappear again.
Could it be? Was this the girl in his dreams?
You'll always be my baby
After he had discovered the love between Tamahome and his beloved Miko, Hotohori
had been heartbroken, knowing fully that she would never be his. And so he
pretended not to love, protecting himself and her at the same time with the lie.
But in his heart, she was always the one, his first and only love.
You're the one I think about each day
A part of me will always be with you
He would be leaving this earth soon, but not now. Not yet. He needed to know.
Was she happy? Would she remember him?
I've lost all sense of time
Too deep in the memories, he had not realized how close death was to him. Time
seemed to stop as reminisces of their time together. Just the two of them, no
one else. He loved those memories the most. They were the only time he could
actually think and pretend that she was his.
There's no use looking back or wondering
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Till the day that I found you
She was everything he wanted, needed. Her smile was the sun in his sky, her eyes
the calming presence that was always there for him. She was his life. His
purpose...his love.
You'll always be my baby
You're the one I think about each day
"Hotohori?!" No dream now. That was definitely her voice beseeching
him. "Hotohori! Onegai, you can't die...onegai!"
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
"Miaka, please be happy." He whispered quietly, willing the last of
his strength to comfort her.
"Iie! Don't go! Onegai! Not you too..."
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Hotohori felt a single tear drop fall from the sky and land on him. Slowly he
looked up and then closed his eyes. He could feel it, the pain was everywhere.
He closed his eyes again, as he wished for a few more moments, just a few. He
imagined her tears right now as she watched over him, just like she had always
been doing.
There's no use looking back or wondering
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
Love. Something she had given freely, something he wished he had been allowed to
partake in. Right now even as he was dying, he could not possibly leave her. He
couldn't say goodbye now. Not when she needed him the most.
Till the day that I found you
But the truth was that the dream was ending and he was being taken into the
wings of death. Perhaps one day he would see her again. Perhaps.
You'll always be my baby
"Gomen nasai Miaka..." he whispered before his eyes closed completely
and he could her the distant voices of Tasuki and Chichiri as they tried to call
him back to them. The darkness grew all around him, and he could hear her
piercing sobs as she shouted his name.
You're the one I think about each day
Miaka...Wo Ai Ni...always...
The darkness disappeared and he found himself in the company of his fellow deceased
Seishi as they watched over their miko, pride swelling in their hearts as she
summoned Suzaku...
A part of me will always be
Miaka closed her eyes as a car was thrown at her, knowing that Nuriko would not
make in time, and she waited for death. But it never came, and when she opened
her eyes, she saw a familiar gleaming sword and she looked up slowly to see him
standing before her, in a glorious scarlet light. Tears sprang to her eyes as a
whisper escaped her lips.
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