Author's Note: Basically just a fic about how Courtney felt when Bobby told her and Mark what would happen to him. Spoilers for Soldiers of Halla.

Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Pendragon.

I cried. The shock was too much. I knew exactly what was happening. Bobby was going back to Solara. And we couldn't return to Second Earth. Ever.

"Courtney, I'm sorry but I-"

"I'll be in my room", I said through my tears as I walked to my room. I needed to be alone. I couldn't believe it! We would never be able to be together. I've loved him my whole life, and I still do. But we would never be together. Walking into my room I plopped down into a chair. Man, I wished I had a tv. I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in."

I looked towards the door and saw Bobby walk in. "I'm sorry Courtney", he said.

"Whatever. I just wish you could stay. Even though I expected this."

"Oh", Bobby said weakly. He came over and sat in the chair next to me. As I looked him in the eye I saw the Bobby I'd known all my life. The Bobby from pre-k who took my ball at recess. The Bobby who sucked at dodge ball but kicked my but in basketball. Not the traveler Bobby.

"I wanted to tell you something", He said. " Courtney, I-"

"Before he could finish I kissed him. I couldn't take it any more. I loved him more than I could ever put in words. I put my hand behind his neck and all my memories of him flooded back. Even one I didn't want to remember.

I remembered when I first kissed him, when I first told him I loved him. Back then it seemed like nothing. But all of that has changed. I quickly pulled away as a realization hit me. If a kiss is how it started, that was how it would end. He looked into my eyes showing a hint af confusion.

"I think you should go now", I said, my voice cracking.

"Ok", he said. As he got up, I realized I had been holding his hand. Tightly. As soon as I realized that, I let go quickly so he wouldn't realize I didn't want him to leave.

When he reached the door, he gave one last sad look at me and walked out. AS he closed the door I realized the most important thing. No matter what happened he didn't want to leave me. But he had to. I felt terrible about kicking him out, but I knew I had to. I slowly crawled into bed and did the easiest, simplest thing I could do. I cried myself to sleep.

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