"Are you ok?" Felix asked a visibly shaken Sabrina.

"Is that a rhetorical question?" Sabrina asked.

"Yeah... I guess it kind of is."

Sabrina sighed and leaned back against the hospital wall reflecting on how the bricks of her life could have gone from building to wreckage in such a short amount of time. The man she loved, the man she thought loved her was being reunited with his wife while she was struggling to find air to breathe. Patrick was right all along. His reasons for not being able to let Robin go where that he still felt she was out there somewhere. His heart was still with her even in death or so they thought. But alas, she was very much alive. And very much back with her family. The family Sabrina wanted.

"It's a good thing you walked away before hand, right?" Felix said referring to their recent breakup.

"Not really. Yeah, after our talk about the ring, we decided to take some time apart. To let him grieve, but Felix, I always thought we would eventually find our way back to each other. There was always hope, and now... It's gone. Oh my god, would you listen to me? Emma has her mother back and all I can think about is what I lost. How selfish can I be?"

"Hey, stop it. You're not selfish. You have every right to feel the way you do." Felix said putting his arm around his shoulder.

"He was never the one was he?" Sabrina asked solemnly.

"I don't know. Only you can answer that."

"I can't believe I'm going to say this, but Carlos was right. About all of it."

"Hmm..." Felix pondered.

"What?"

"Does that mean you're going to give him another chance?"

"Oh god!" Sabrina said walking back over to the nurses' station.

"So... that's a no?" Felix asked following behind her.

"Felix, please. You could fill Niagara Falls twice over with the water underneath that bridge."

"That bad, huh?"

"You have no idea." She sighed

"Enlighten me, because I'm getting the distinct feeling the end of your relationship with Carlos had a lot more to do with just his lack of occupational support."

Sabrina grew quiet as she flipped through a patients file "I don't really want to get into that right now. So what's up with you and Brad?"

"Nothing is up. Nice try though." Felix said rolling his eyes.

"Felix..."

"I'll leave it alone… for now. But just keep in mind that whatever your reasons are for not going back down that road there is one very good reason to consider it."

"And what's that?"

"The man looks at you in a way Patrick never did. I'm not saying that to hurt you, I'm just calling it like I see it. And don't think I didn't also notice the looks you give him."

"There's a lot of history there. But that's all it is. History." Sabrina said trying to convince herself more so than Felix.

"Mmhmm. You keep telling yourself that."

Sabrina walked into her apartment after a long distraction filled day at the hospital and sunk onto the sofa out of emotional exhaustion. "Taylor? Are you here?" She called out to no response. "Good" She said to herself. She had zero interest in hearing about teenage angst when she had her own grown up problems to think through. She rose to her feet and walked into the kitchen to pour herself a glass of wine. She had never been a drinker but thought if there was even a time that she needed one, it was now. She returned to the couch with the glass and the bottle. After she finished her first glass, she poured another hoping to dull the pain. Her thoughts flashed back to all of her moments with Patrick. From their first kiss to her first time he told her he loved her. She realized that every single major moment in their relationship had a dark cloud over it. His wedding ring. It was there every time he touched her face. Every time he caressed her skin. Patrick had promised to love her mind body and spirit while still holding on to the woman his heart really belonged to. The more Sabrina's mind raced the angrier she felt herself becoming. At Patrick and even more at herself. She was beginning to feel like she had wasted a year of her life on a pipe dream. Before she could finish downing her second glass of wine, her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door.

"Of course" She said when she opened the door to find Carlos standing on the other side. "Let me guess. You're here to say I told you so."

"I would never do that." Carlos sighed. "Can I come in?"

"Sure, join the party." Sabrina said letting him in.

Carlos walked in and saw the half empty bottle of wine on the coffee table "A pity party, huh?"

"Go to hell" Sabrina snapped.

Carlos chuckled at how cute she was when she was angry.

"This is funny to you?" Sabrina asked arms folded.

"The situation, no. Seeing you tipsy for only the 3rd time in my life, yeah a little."

"How did you find out?"

"I went by the hospital and ran into Felix. He filled me in on everything."

"And you ran over here to gloat."

Carlos lowered his head "I would never do that, Sabrina. I honestly just wanted to see if you were ok. I promise."

"Ok? No, I'm not ok, Carlos. Not that you care."

"Listen, I know that things between us have been contentious at best, but don't you ever for a second think that I don't care. I will always care. Whether you want me to or not. That's just a fact."

Sabrina searched his eyes for a minute and realized he was being genuine. "I'm sorry. I'm angry and taking it out on the wrong person."

"It's ok. I'll be your personal punching bag if you'd like" He smiled.

Sabrina sat back on the couch and grabbed the wine bottle. "Want some?" She offered.

"Um, by the look of it there's not much left. I think you've had enough though, don't you think?"

"Oh, I'm just getting started." She said pouring the rest of the bottle in her glass.

"Chica, please. This isn't like you." Carlos said taking the glass from her.

"How do you know. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't even trust my own instincts. Everything in me said that something wasn't right. And no, it wasn't what you said. At least not completely. I had my doubts about Patrick before we even got together if you can believe that. After his short lived relationship with Britt, he told me to my face that he wasn't ready to date someone again. But did I listen, no. I let my well intentioned friends talk me into unburdening myself and my feelings to him. And then Britt and her baby lies happened. What the hell was I thinking? What woman in their right man would stand by a man through all of that? I am such an idiot."

"Stop it right now. You are no such thing. You are a beautiful intelligent woman with more love inside of you than you know what to do with. You wanted to give it to someone. You can't fault yourself for that."

Sabrina looked up at Carlos as if it was the first time they'd ever met "Where did this understanding sympathetic persona come from? Are you going soft on me now?"

Carlos laughed "Not exactly. I guess you just bring out that side of me."

"Oh please, you must be loving this. This is exactly what you wanted, right?"

Carlos looked at Sabrina with genuine hurt in his eyes and stood up from the couch. He walked over to the window and ran his hand through his hair. When he turned back to face her, Sabrina noticed his eyes filling with tears. "I love you Sabrina. With everything I have in me. I never want to see you in pain. I understand why you question everything I do, but believe me when I tell you I would cut off my right arm if it meant sparing you pain."

Sabrina felt her entire body flinch. Not by the words he had just said but by the look in his eye and the conviction in his voice. Felix was right. Carlos had a look in his eyes for her that was lacking in Patrick's. "Carlos, I…"

"No, it's ok. I think I should go. I really just wanted to make sure you were alright."

"Really? I thought you ran over her to ask to get back together." Sabrina smirked.

"You know, it's funny. I thought I would be too. But not like this. You're not ready and honestly, neither am I. I don't deserve you. Not yet. But make no mistake about it, mi amor, I will one day. I'll show you that I can be the man worthy of your love again. Until that day, I would like it if we could try to be friends again. If that's ok with you."

Sabrina stared at Carlos completely breathless at his declaration. "I um… yeah I would like that." She finally managed to say.

"Good. I'll give you some space, but do me a favor. Don't drown your sorrows in a bottle of wine. Especially not this cheap stuff." He winked. "If you need anything, don't hesitate."

"Thanks Carlos." She said walking him to the door.

"Anytime. You know that." Carlos blew her a kiss and walk out.

Sabrina leaned against the door in a state of shock. That was not the same guy who had parachuted back into her life weeks earlier with the same level of arrogance that got between them the first time. No, this was different man altogether. Sabrina found herself not just wanting to believe what he said, but genuinely doing so. Maybe there wasn't as much water under the bridge of their relationship as she thought.