Based on Secondhand Serenade song 'last time' (just because I heard it then the idea popped into my head)

Disclaimer : I don't own bleach nor the song, just borrow it

Warning : ANGST, family romance, brotherhood, Ichigo's the oldest, Hichigo the youngest, typos (maybe), grammar (there's must've ben one or two inside)

Happy reading~ (hope you cry, because I am)

Ichigo's POV

"Go away demon!"

"Get away from here!"

I just laugh myself out when they mocking a boy that, well, my little twin brother, Hichigo and since elementary. Hm? You asking me why? Of course because he's a freak and everyone hates him. And it's been 7 years since mom die and since then, we always call him the person that makes mom die. I agree with my friends because of his stupidity for crossing the road, and I really wish that HE the one who died that day. I look at Hichigo like he tries to run and he did

"Catch him!"

We run to him and he just running straight to the gate of the school with both of his hands covering his ears. I still smirking but it fell when I hear a horn, and I stop to look at the direction of the horn. When I see, it's a container truck, heading this way and it speed is fast! My eyes widen and I see Hichigo still running towards the get

"Guys stop! Hichigo, stop! Don't run!"

I know it's useless, but I hope he'll hear me. Just for once...

"HICHIGO!"

He stop but way too late because when he stop and turn towards me, he hit by the truck, and at the same time, my eyes widen, my heart feels like it torn into pieces. I open my eyes and shout his name

"HICHIGO!"

My tears fell from both of my cheek and I run to him. When I reach his lying body, I don't see those gold eyes again, but white eye lids. He close his eyes, and he whimper. Tears fall from both of his cheek and whisper

"H-hurt... It's... Hurt..."

Without a second thought, I lift his body so his head lying on my shoulder. He open his eyes slowly and look at me with those teary eyes

"I... Ichi-"

"Shh... It's okay, don't say anything anymore, shh... Just be quite..."

I take my phone and call an ambulance. I hug him and moving my body back and forth and when I do that, some memory of what have I done to him is coming into my head. I gasp when I notice that I... Never love him... My heart hurt even more when the worst scenarios is coming from my head. His dead. I hug him more tight and when I feel a hand on my shoulder, I turn and keep my hand around his body

"Don't you dare touch him!"

"Hey kid, it's okay... Let us check your brother"

"No! Don't take him away from me!"

"It'll be fine boy, now, let me take a look-"

"I won't let you touch him! I won't let you touch MY Hichi!"

I shout and I realise that I call him 'my Hichi', despise all the thing I have done to him. I cry again and hug him tight. I feel a hand on my chest and when I look, Hichigo is smiling at me, sweetly. I bit my bottom lips and ask him

"Y-you need... Something, Hichi... Go?"

"Let them... Take me... Ichigo..."

"No! I won't give you to anyone! Never ever!"

"They won't... Hurt me..."

"No..."

"Ichigo..."

"Please... I just want to..."

"Come on boy, you don't want your brother to die, right"

I widen my eyes and nod

"Then, please let us take care of him"

I shook my head

"Hey boy-"

"Ichigo, leave Hichigo with them"

"I can't dad, I don't want to be separated with him..."

"He'll be fine, come on, we'll follow the ambulance from behind"

Dad pull my shoulder and makes me give Hichigo to them. Dad lead me to the car and we follow the ambulance.

'Hichigo... I'm sorry... Please... Don't leave me... I still want you by... My side... If you... Want to...'

~at the hospital~

Ichigo's POV

I sigh. Sitting in front of the surgery room is making me nervous. I can't shake the fear since I came here, seeing Hichigo being took into the surgery room. I sigh again, moving my sitting position and again, and again.

"Ichigo, stop it, you making me nervous"

"Sorry dad, it just... I can't take this... Fear of me..."

"...it's okay to feel fear, Ichigo. But you can't blame-"

"But it's my fault, dad! If I'm never mocking him since we were a kid, he wouldn't be in this statement!"

I pant and at the same time, the surgery door is open and revelling Hichigo. His eyes are close by bandage, IV tube connected to his right hand, oxygen mask on his face and his chest is bandaged as well. My heart hurt again when I see it and the doctor came

"How's Hichigo doc?"

"Well, there's no fatal injuries"

Dad sigh in relief but I'm not

"But?"

"But, he can no longer hear nor see"

"Y... You mean..."

"Yes, he close both of his eyes and ears, making the brain thinks that he wants to close it and, that what happen"

I fall on my knees hearing it and dad patting my back

"Can I see him now?"

The doctor sees me and think about it

"I only can allow one person, and is there by any change, one of you is Ichigo?"

"I am"

"He's been calling your name after the surgery"

"What? Why?"

"We don't know, but it seems like, he need you"

"He... Needed me?"

"We don't know for sure, but we assume it because he seems scared when he call your name, like he wants you by his side"

I feel like my heart sunk again and I ask the doctor

"Can I see him?"

"You can, but maybe he's not awake just yet caused by the analyser"

"It's okay, thank you doc"

I say and walk to his room. I open the door and the smell of the medic is on the air, making me sick. And... I still don't believe I'm here again after all of this time. I walk toward the bed and see Hichigo still asleep soundly. I reach out my hand to touch his hair and pat it slowly, playing his hair in my hand and twirl it around.

'So soft... Like his personality...'

I move down, carefully touch his bandages eyes and to his cheek. Rubbing it slowly with my thumb, I close my eyes. When I touch his hair, I remember that I always hit him hard there, and when I touch his cheek, I remember that I always slap him on his face until its red. I bit my lips when I feel my tears begin to fall from my cheek and I open my eyes

"Hichigo... I heard from doctor that... You were calling me... Do you need something from me?"

Of course, he don't answer me. I just laugh to myself and lean my body to kiss his forehead

"I'll be here for you, Hichigo... I won't leave you..."

I hold his hand and tighten it. I sit on the chair beside the bed and put my head on my hand that hold his hand and close my eyes

"Please wake up soon Hichigo... I love you so much and need you..."