This Is Not a Love Song
The pain I have is from you, you see, but you don't see it, you don't notice me
But I notice you all day long, people ask if I like you, I say there wrong.
I sit in that long boring class with you, you ask if I have a pencil, I say I do.
That one simple question makes my day, I wonder if there would be a way.
A way to talk to you after class. But the bell rings. Your gone. that's the end of that.
I walk down to the hall and see you with her. My heart shatters. Everything turns into a blur.
The rest of my day is bad from there, I take a deep breath, but it seems like there's no air.
Maybe there just friends? Something I hope for. But I know better then that. So I head for the door.
As I walk out of the lunch room and there I see, you standing there looking at me.
I put a fake smile on my sad face. But then I see you 2 embrace.
I realized I wasent what you were looking at. You were looking at her, she was still in the caf.
I walk to my locker, not far from there. I grab my books without any care.
I see my friends waving at me. I look away. I need to flee.
To be alone. that's all I need. Maybe go to the park and find some ducks to feed.
I know I cant. Schools not done yet. I really wish I could just run.
But then I turn around and see, you and her fighting. I smile with glee!
You storm away. As does she. I walk to my next class, hes in it with me!
I think that maybe ill get my chance, I turn around to take a quick glance.
Do I really see what I think I see? You looking over at me?
I turn back around. Its probably not the case. You couldn't be looking at my face.
Third period is finally done, im glad to say. I happily think its almost the end of the day.
Im still so happy your not with her, but then I see it. Its not a blur.
You and her talking. She flips her hair. So then I start walking, without any care.
I walk into my last class and head for the back. I take my seat. My self esteem starting to lack.
The bell rings. It finally ends. I walk out of the class and head straight home. but then I see you again
Your alone and not with her. Is this day starting to get better?
The rain starts to fall, my heart starts to race. Then I see that smile on your gorgeous face.
His name is called. He turns his head. He's gone in a flash. And now I feel dead.
I start walking towards my house. I open the door quiet as a mouse.
I head up to my room. I am alone. that's perfect, I think. No one has to see my gloom.
I guess we're not meant to be. That is something that I hate. Your meant to be with her, im starting to see. I guess you were never my fate.