BELLAS POV
Ok, so I don't hold many grudges, but I have a right to be mad right? I mean he did break my heart. I know I shouldn't let my fear of him leaving again get in the way but I just can't shake the feeling.
"Hey Bells, what do you have planned today?" Charlie said as I walked down the stairs.
"Nothing much, I might go down to La Push and hang out with Jacob" I said as I grab a bowl and some cereal. I couldn't see Edward because he was hunting. After the feelings I just had I don't think spending time with him right now wasn't such a good idea.
"That's a great idea. You haven't spent a lot of time with Jake since he came back." Charlie made a face at the last part.
"Well I guess I should get going." I said as I went up stairs to get dressed. When I closed my bedroom door I saw a dark figure run across my room out of the corner of my eye. I could only guess who that could be. If it was really him then I would have to do this sooner then I wanted to.
"I thought you were hunting?" I asked as I turned around to face him.
EDWARDS POV
How did she know it was me? I guess I am not as slick as I like to think. Why does she look sad? Does she not want me to be here? I really hate not being able to read her thoughts. I wonder if she is mad at me for leaving. I know she said that she could never be made at me, but even if she doesn't realize that she's bad I can feel it. There's a strange sensation at the back of my head like something mad is about to happen. "Hello Bella." I greeted her. I walked up to her and gave her a hug. The feeling in the back of my head is tingling now.
"We have to talk." Bella said as she released her hold on me to go sit down. What was she talking about? You never say those words to your boyfriend….unless…no I won't even think about that. She wouldn't leave me.
BELLAS POV
Oh no, why did I have to use those words. He just froze. He's not even breathing. I can't do this now I have to have some time, a few days at least. I have to talk to Jake about this. He's my best friend he'll understand. Ok so what should he talk about now that I couldn't talk about that? "I wasn't expecting to see you until later tonight." I started. He was still frozen. "Yea sorry, we left early so we could get back in time for school." Why was he apologizing?
"Oh, well I kind of made plans to go see Jake down at La Push." He finally unfroze and came sat next to me. "Ok well I guess I will see you tonight then?" It was more of a question then anything. So I was going to talk to Jake about it today and see what he says. "Are you mad at me?" I had to ask I mean I would still go even if he was but I still wanted to know.
"No I'm not mad at you, but I don't like you going over there." He said with a straight face. I knew that he didn't like the fact that my best friend is a werewolf but he'll have to get use to that. So I kissed him good bye and he was out of my window before I could catch my breath from the kiss.
JACOBS POV
I just got off the phone with Bella and she is going to come down to see me. She says she has something very important to talk to me about. After the kiss we had when Victoria came to kill her with a bunch of new vampires, I thought she would never want to see me again. She had said she loved me, but she loved Edward more so I thought that would be the end of our friendship. The vampire had won. But now she wanted to talk to me, but what about? I was passing back and forth for what seemed like forever when I heard the sound of Bella's truck. I ran out side faster then any human should because I was anxious to hear what the beautiful Bella had to say.
BELLAS POV
I looked at the door of the Blacks house and all of a sudden Jacob was standing there with a wary look on his face. We hadn't talked since I told him I loved him after we kissed…for the second time…and that time I kissed him back instead of punching him in the face. I knew what he was thinking. He wanted to know if I had changed my mind about the whole Edward/Jake/Bella triangle that was going on. I couldn't know for sure because now that I knew that I loved Jake more then just friends and I was scared that Edward was going to leave again I didn't know what was going on. So I just got out of the truck and ran up to the pouch because it was raining again. "Hey Jake." I greeted as I ran up to him.
"Hi, Bella, do you want to come in." he asked as I walked though the door.
"So what have you been up to." I started with small talk. I didn't know how to say what I had to so I thought it would just come to me. But it hasn't yet so I started with the small talk. He smiled at me with the warm smile of a werewolf and a chill went up my spine. "You know, same old same old. What have you been up to?" he asked knowing the answer already.
"Nothing much, just a lot of homework." I took a seat on the small couch in the small living area. "And a lot of sunny days" he finished and came to sit next to me. He handed me a towel to dry off with. "Thanks and yes there have been a lot of sunny day. But I really haven't noticed to much." I lied casually. He always saw through my lies and he just laughed, but not a humorous laugh.
JACOBS POV
I had to laugh at the way she just lied like it was nothing. I missed her so much. I love her and she loves me. That used to be enough but these days dead people had to get in the way. I hate vampires with a passion. "I have missed you Bells." I said without thinking. I know she didn't want to know that I have been hurting and lonely with her gone. Ever since that leach has come back she never sees me like she used to. "I miss you too, Jake" I could tell that she meant it. I don't know why she wants to start with small talk but I didn't so I had to speed things up. I could tell she wasn't going to like that but what could she really do I mean I am a werewolf and she is just a mere human I smiled at the fact that I was much better then a human, but then again I could never ever hurt Bella. I would die if I lost control and hurt her. I don't understand how Sam could live with himself after what he did to his soul mate? "So what brings you all the way down here?" I asked clearing my head of the thought of me ever hurting the one person in my life I live for. "Oh nothing much just you know, thought I should talk to my best friend about the fact that I was in love with him." WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY!!!
BELLAS POV
"So what brings you all the way down here?" Jacob asked as he shook his head clearing his mind of something
"Oh nothing much just you know, thought I should talk to my best friend about the fact that I was in love with him." I said in a matter of fact way. I didn't know how to word it so I just said it without thinking… like I always do. I turned to read his face that his mouth was wide open and his eyes were just as wide. I couldn't help but laugh. "Oh so you just decide to kiss me and expect me to have no feelings about it?" I asked as he started to regain his self control back. Ok so I knew that he knew I would have some feelings about it, but he never guessed that I would say them out loud or to that extreme of feelings. I guess he looks relieved. But I thought he knew already?
JACOBS POV
I knew she felt like that but I never knew she would say them out loud I mean she loves the bloodsucker and would never admit to him that she loved someone else. Could they not be as close since he left? Does she doubt his love or her love towards him? She seemed so sure of his love when they were together before he left her. "No I know you love me I just didn't know you could say it out loud." I looked at her and smiled knowing that now that she said it out loud it made it even more true not that is wasn't before. I just like to hear her lovely voice say that she loved me and not that vampire. I knew that she still had feelings for the leach but knowing that he's not the only one that she thinks about brings an even bigger smile to my face.
BELLAS POV
He was not smiling my Jacob's smile he was smiling the werewolf smug smile and it made me wonder what he was thinking about. I suddenly knew how Edward felt when he couldn't read my mind. I knew that even if Jacob was a werewolf that there was my Jake in there somewhere. I could live with the fact that Jacob was a werewolf if I could live with fact that Edward was a vampire. I just didn't know which one to choose. I loved Edward….but there was always going to be the voice in the back or sometimes in the front of my head telling me he left once why wouldn't he do it again, if he got bored. And then there is Jacob who has never left me, but can easily lose control and I end up looking like Emily, but I knew even If I did look like that he would never leave me, he needs me as much as I needed him. "Look I don't know how to say this and I don't even know if I want to say this so just listen and don't interrupt me." He looked shocked but he kept the smile on his face. "I can't live without you and you know this. You were there when I was broken and even though you knew I was always with you when we were hanging out together you always pulled me back together at least enough to look like I wasn't dead. You are the one that held me when I had no one else. You are the one to love me when there was nothing to love. You are the one who loved me when I loved someone else. You are the one who I turned to when I had on one else. And you are the only one I want to be with for always and forever Jacob Black I love you." For the first time since I started I looked up at him and saw that he was looking down at me with love in his eyes and my smile on his face. He took me in his arms and gave me a hug that would have meant we were close before but know just meant that I was supposed to be there. He didn't say anything and I didn't want to ruin the moment so we just sat there like that for what seemed like forever and I never wanted it to end when all of a sudden he looked down at me and said, "I love you too Bella." And that was all that was said until the sun went down and the full moon came up. "I don't want to leave." I said without thinking…again. "Then don't" Jake said in a whisper.
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